Sett wrote:day 4, Sunday Jun 24th
Most of it is already there more or less. I stopped counting my "transgressions" at about 80. Mostly because i lost track, but also because it became obvious it wouldn't work. Being left with one edge after daily task on a sunny day had me pondering the other rules too, but those 26 edges turned to be just enough to enjoy, yet not enough to feel spent.
day 5, Monday Jun 25th
Monday was a bad day, and i've been a bad boy. I got home late plus the weather got worse, so i tohught what to do as a daily task. Started with one thing, figured i'd rather do another, then realising i only get to do one thing, and while the thought of denial excites me, actual denial means no edging. I don't really know what i ended up doing (probably another tease) but i couldn't focus on it anyways, and then the accident happened. I managed to keep most of it in my balls by squeezing, but despite not enjoying it for psychological reasons, i certainly felt it physically. Wave after wave for several seconds in fact. It was nowhere near a full one, but it was a moral letdown nevertheless. An when i say moral letdown, i mean that I LET my MORALe DOWN. Meaning, that i just watched porn and edged regardless of any rules for the rest of the day, and, in fact, today's morning as well.
This sounds very much like one of those horrible ruined orgasms. These happen sometimes *Smiles softly* so do not be too worried.....however has your....desire to come increased or decreased?
