Falling apart

[SexualChoc]

Okay I am officially going crazy
My life is going to hell

(1) I may not have a place to live friday
(2) Both me and my wife may be homelss
(3) I don't have a job
(4) debt is piling up fast

More importantly
I have now hurt and or offended Shell twice in chat
and Have had to step out
because my emotions are every fucking where.

All2true still plans to be on wensday
but
I have NO clue what is happening to me in real life right now!

PS. I will update things when I have a better idea of what the hell I am doing

Good news, I start a new job soon
We may have a new home soon with the job
it will keep me buzy
but

DAMN! things NUTZ right now!

[Quazwierdcev283]

Do you prefer Choc, Sexual, or is it just safer to call You Sexual Choc? Also I'm wondering are you allowed to tell us what Mistress C's first name is or does she forbid that? just curious.

[cactusman]

Sorry to hear that. I hope things start turning around for you soon.

[lightinthedark]

Wishing you well. As the old British posters said in the war "keep calm and carry on".

[Human]

Congrats on the new gig!!

[Snot]

Damn man sorry to hear about all the hard stuff your going through. Lifes hard sometimes but things will get better for you just stay focused on making them better.

Debt is a real bitch to get out from under if you can do anything at all don't run up your credit cards. If your really going to be homeless it shouldn't be that bad as long as one of you has a job that can buy food. Google couchsurfers and you should beable to find a cool place for you and your wife until you get on your feet. My wife and I had to do this for a few months once when we first got married.

It's was way better than living with the folks.

P.S.
I don't know what happened with you and Shell but tell her your sorry... I hear she likes begging. And don't fuck up with her again. I know that came off a bit harsh but really keep you shit in check.

[Quazwierdcev283]

sorry about my first post, those were incredibly stupid things to ask in your time of distress I would delete it but I don't know how. I agree with indigo's post

P.S.
I don't know what happened with you and Shell but tell her your sorry... I hear she likes begging. And don't fuck up with her again. I know that came off a bit harsh but really keep you shit in check.

I wouldn't necessarily agree with this bit of advice. Shell is a person, just like anyone else. She's not in charge, or control, and doesn't hold any special place of authority in your life. She may well be your friend, but a general word of advice would be to not place your friends on such a high pedestal that their actions cause you any type of direct emotional distress. It's simply not worth it.

As to the rest ... I'm genuinely sorry to hear about your distress. If there was anything at all I could do to help, I trust you'd let me know. You've certainly been a friend when I was in distress. My thoughts and hopes go with you!

But if you find the time, and only IF, it might not hurt to try to patch things up with Shell, but use your best judgment. I hope things work out for you and your wife, I know how hard it can sometimes be to come by money. And having to file for Bankruptcy would be awful. Best of luck.

[SexualChoc]

I don't know what happened with you and Shell but tell her your sorry... I hear she likes begging. And don't fuck up with her again. I know that came off a bit harsh but really keep you shit in check.

Shell and I are good friends
always have
been
I have shared with her
more deeply than anyone else
after a misunderstanding.

I believe,
therefore I do have hope
I just know my moods have been going crazy.
so I may take a short break
and return when life has stablised.
I may have to , since I may not have access to the internet for a bit.

[shell]

When I was made aware of this post yesterday, I knew that I would need to respond, but thought I should wait until today, when I was more myself and calmer. I should have responded yesterday though, because then some of the comments that have been posted would not have been necessary.

First to clear the air, yes there were issues between my friend, SC and myself on Monday, but it was worked through.
On Tuesday, SC did NOT hurt me! He did nothing wrong. PERIOD!

This thread should not have entered into discussions about me, even though some was well meant.
This thread is about one of our community members exposing his raw pain of how the outside world is kicking his ass. That is where the focus should be and I ask that it return there, please.
If you said words that could have been possibly seen as unkind to SC, where I am concerned, I ask that you make it right, please. That's all I will say, instead of directing comments to specific individuals.

***

Now, my friend, I'm sure you and I will talk further today, privately about things that took place yesterday. But be assured in your heart.....and to this I promise, you did not hurt me. *soft smile*

***

With that said, I ask you, my friend, what can I do to help, that I am not already doing?
I am praying for you and your wife. Doors will open, some appearing out of no where. Be watchful for them, they might not be visible upon first glance.

In my life, financially, I have been at rock bottom three times.
The first, Hubby1 and I lost the first home we had together and had to move in with family. We had $20.00 for the week, for food.

The second, we lost everything, filed bankruptcy and when we thought our world was collapsing, a door was opened and we moved to Florida.

The third, we found that we have yet again, over extended our financial means and that our outgo was way more then our income. For a second time, we filed bankruptcy, but we didn't lose everything and kept the house that we moved into when I was pregnant with our son.

You ARE going to get through this rough place in your life. I am very hopeful that you will be able to hang on to the place where you live. But if you do have to relocate, it's only TEMPORARY. Try and look at it that way. It is stepping stone to better things.

Having lived through what you are going through, almost every company that money is owed to, even utilities, WILL work with you, if a little bit of money is given to them, even if it is only $5.00 a month. There will be the exception, but for the most part, they will try and work something out. Most will not accept a low figure at first, but when they are assured that is all they will get from you, they will take it, because it's better then nothing.

Try not to fret over the bills that are not sustaining, such as medical bills. Let them ride for now. You can make good on them, when that job, that is coming, arrives.

The next few weeks will probably not be pleasant. Giving up things, such as the Internet, things that are such a huge part of your life, will be difficult.
It will cause your emotions and moods to go even more out of whack.
No matter where you are, you NEED to take five or ten minutes out of every day and sit quietly, breathing deeply and clearing your mind of everything.
The oxygen will help stabilize your emotions, help relax stomach acids and help you to regroup and refocus on what is important.

You ARE going to get through this.....remember.....it's a stepping stone to the better things that lay ahead.

*hugs you for a very long time..........allowing my strength to flow to you*

Love ya darlin......

Shell

[SexualChoc]

Good News

I was able to Scrounge up
more cash
than the payment we needed to move into our
new apartment,
Now things are still a bit
nutty but at least it looks like we will have a roof over r heads
I apologize but you have to understand I was getting
the news from our landlord that we had to move out
and news from the new place that there was trouble moving in.
so no one, not me or my wife knew how things how things work out

but one thing I have learned is what to do in such a situation
after getting a little panic out of my system, tell my friends.
Especially My very Best One.