Help me explore

[Gyroscope90]

First off - Hi!
Ive been visiting Milovana during several years and it has given me loads of pleasure so a big thanks to all of you active members for contributing. I've never come around to getting neither an account nor posting anything until now, but now turning my hope to the helpfulness and naughtiness of this lovely community.

To the topic at hand (and sorry for the non-native english and what may become a lengthy message)

Since some time I've discovered and explored 'Homewrecking'/reverse cucking as a fetish(?). However, im starting to run out of ideas for how to still my desire. To help give some more context, here is a few things I've found to be key to turn me on and get pleasure from this.

1. The temptation/desire from another woman and how they 'convince' me to give in and not resist fucking them.

2. The domination part, I love the feeling of being left to their will and used, but without any sissyness. Eventually leading to mutual orgasms.

3. The risk of discovery or getting caught. I'm exploring this without my wife and the risk of having to explain myself to her is equally scary and exciting.

4. Being with someone older/more experienced than my wife (meaning someone ~45-55years). This is more an overall age preference for me, but have found it to be extra important.

Thus far I've tried finding specific porn material where Kendra Kennedy & Lady Sonia have been favourites. I have also been to various sites (OF, Fansly etc) and also cam sites. Although maybe a good proxy for real cheating I've found it hard to find someone who can play into the specifics of my desire. Ending up with a often costly and sub-par experience where I still feel unsatisfied.

Here is where you come in.
I'd love to hear your thoughts and get your help and creativity for how I can explore this further. Am I the only one with this fetish(?) or anyone else that has similar desires?

Big thanks for any input or thoughts and eager to hear them

All the best
G

[palvinolag]

1. Journaling. Writing down your thoughts and feelings is very helpful for sorting out thoughts. We think we know what we're thinking, until we have to put it to paper(real or virtual), and then it becomes clear that its a lot of mess to sort through.

2. Go shopping for a dominatrix in the area. We are defined by the people around us, involving a real life person in your interests is key to evolving them.

3. Fetlife.com Personally I find this to be the best site for exploration, there's people talking about anything and everything. It can be a bit of a ghost town starting out without a friends list. Find 'tags' on content you're interested in, and follow those tags. And follow interesting people.