I'm Doing It: 30 Days of Denial

[ThirtyDaysOfDenial]

I've tried to go 30 days many times in the past and have failed miserably. The longest I went was 17 days. The problem is that I continue wanting to stroke and do webteases. After a couple of weeks, I literally lose control. I'll be determined to edge without cumming, but after a couple of weeks I won't even realize I'm near the edge and I find myself having an orgasm completely outside of my control. I'll let go so it's ruined, and I'm always filled with such disappointment that I made it so far without going all the way to my goal.

I realize the only way of doing it successfully is going 30 days without stroking or doing anything that pleasures the penis, like vibrators or my electro stim box. In the past I've locked these items in a trunk and kept the key at work. This didn't work. Late one night, I broke the trunk open, telling myself I'll only tease and deny myself, absolutely no cumming, but as I mentioned above, after awhile with no orgasm, I have absolutely no control over the orgasm. It just cums before I even realize I'm near the edge!

So this time I did something drastic. I took my lube, my elecro stim wires and accessories, and vibes, put them in zip-lock bags, put them in a shopping bag, wrapped them inside a garbage bag, taped it up really well, and wrapped that inside another shopping bag. I took them deep into the thick thorny trees and brambles on my property behind my backyard, and buried them! I have scratches and bug bites on my ankles. I could never make my way to the spot I buried them at night, when I'm at my most randy, even with a flashlight. I'd end up falling and impaling myself on a fallen branch or spraining an ankle. It was a big effort getting out there to bury the package and it will have to be just as big an effort to dig them up. I'm already a few days in, so I just have to make it the next four weeks with only porn and nipple clamps and my imagination.

It's when I'm in such a horny state that I get really creative and daring. I have a humiliation fetish that I'd like to take advantage of the next few weeks. I'll be such a walking hard-on that I'd probably do some things I wouldn't normally, such as going shopping for and trying on lady's clothes, make-up, and underwear, and then buying them... going to a gas station and pumping gas in drag, or going through a drive-thru... using sunblock to write SISSY on my chest and getting a tan in a bra and panties...

Okay so obviously all I can think of is feminization things. Does anybody have any ideas for humiliation for me?

[cd_sara]

Okay so obviously all I can think of is feminization things. Does anybody have any ideas for humiliation for me?

Wear a chastity device. That should really help. Get a bikini if you don't have one, and get a tan in it.

[ThirtyDaysOfDenial]

Yeah I have one and I might use it. I've worn it before but never for long. It's too painful to me, not being cooped up, just the plastic and whatnot digging into my pelvis and sometimes getting skin pinched between parts. No fun!

Plus nobody will know about it, so it's not embarrassing.

[cumhardy]

After a week or so, book yourself in at a salon for lots of things that will involve you being naked or with very little clothes on in public. Things like: A colonic, a full body-massage, a back sack & crack waxing etc etc.
Hopefully the person doing these things will be cute but even if not, someone touching you in a kinda-intimate way after so much denial...you will have to try so hard to stop yourself getting an erection. It would be very humiliating

[cd_sara]

After a week or so, book yourself in at a salon for lots of things that will involve you being naked or with very little clothes on in public. Things like: A colonic, a full body-massage, a back sack & crack waxing etc etc.
Hopefully the person doing these things will be cute but even if not, someone touching you in a kinda-intimate way after so much denial...you will have to try so hard to stop yourself getting an erection. It would be very humiliating

And wear a bra and panties when you go there. Also you have to go to the nail salon and get a manicure and pedicure and have your finger and toe nails painted red. And wear make up all the time.

[ThirtyDaysOfDenial]

Wow these are awesome ideas! Thanks! Keep em coming!

[cumhardy]

Keep a diary on here about exactly what your doing, and how its feeling. That way your increasing your humiliation further by letting everyone read about it (well im guessing you were gonna do that anyway)

[ThirtyDaysOfDenial]

Tragically, I'm choosing to do this now when times are very tight financially, and I can't really do any of the fancy colonics, waxings, massages, tannings, or clothes shopping that I'd like to. So I guess that puts quite a damper on this humiliation game.
I guess I'll have to get more creative with the ideas.
I did go buy a pair of panties and lipstick, which had me quite red-faced. I really wonder what the check out girl thought.

[cd_sara]

So how has it been going? I think it's been about 20 days.

[ThirtyDaysOfDenial]

About halfway through, I started dating somebody.
I resisted as long as I could, I even explained precisely what I was doing and why.
Her feminine charms were just too great. Mostly I just wanted to please her.
So my record remains 17 days.

[profit princess]

next time you try 30 let me know so I can keep you on track.

[maleslave1]

Always think about mistress looking at you every time you want shoot.