I need advice

[MrLobo]

First, sorry for my bad English, I'm Spanish.

The other day I had sex with a female friend and we tried something different. She tie me to the bed and she was teasing me for a while, after a few edges, she suck me and I cum. I thought she swallowed it, then she kissed me and she transferred me my own cum, then she cover my mouth and she shout: SWALLOW IT, BITCH!!! (trágatelo zorra!!!, in spanish).
As I was tied, I did it. She blow my mind, since then I can't think of anything else.

Every time I remember the moment that i swallowed it, I get so excited.
I am 22 years old and I don't have so many sexual experiences. I told a friend who is more experienced and told me that if I so excited thinking about that moment is probably that i am gay.
I'm pretty sure I'm not gay, but I can not forget those words (swallow it, bitch), I'm obsessed.
The girl wants another date, but I'm very confused right now
Someone with more experience can explain me, what is happening to me?.

Thanks for your time.

[DoxysTurtle]

You may have interest in being snowballed/cum eating. You and you alone can decide your sexual orientation. Are you attracted to women? Then you may be heterosexual. Attracted to men? Then you may be homosexual. Attracted to both? Then you may be bisexual.

Your preferences in the bedroom don't solely determine your orientation. Plenty of men are on this site and into sissyfication or cum eating, and have no interest in ever doing anything sexual with another man. You may have just enjoyed the objectification of it and the not having any choice, which is more than fine.

I can't really help or comment beyond that, as your kink is not my kink and that's okay. I've only been snowballed once, and didn't enjoy it and so wouldn't want to repeat it. Someone calling me bitch would be a turnoff for me, but I can think of plenty in the kink scene I know who enjoy both those things and are of various sexual orientations.

[Ms. Julie]

No worries, swallowing you own cum does not mean you're gay. You were aroused by her dominance over you. That is the real source of your excitement. You felt real submission, maybe for the first time in your life, and it blew your mind. It was her domination that aroused you so much, not the cum itself. That experience fucked with your mind and made you fantasize about that scene over and over in your head, but it has nothing to do with cum other than being forced to eat your own cum is a very submissive act.

[dubble]

While I am not in the medical field, not a psychiatrist or psychologist, I think your friend is an idiot for thinking that you are gay just because of this experience. You may be bi, mind you, but not from this experience. Only you can answer that on the inside. If you are attracted to men, then you might be bi.

First off, if you are & were aroused by this woman & this experience, you enjoy women. There is nothing gay about your experience. Many men enjoy things that are often considered 'taboo' in our society: cum eating, bondage, chastity, strap-on sex....and much more, but it doesn't label you as gay. There is an excitement about losing control to another. She was in full control. You obeyed her commands. You seem to have loved it. So did she! There is also a humiliation factor as well, a (probably) physically stronger man being at the mercy of a lady, being told what to do, & you did it because SHE wanted you to. You wanted to please her & make her happy, didn't you? Welcome to the cusp in the realm of Dominance & submission.

She wanted control & took it. You wanted to give up control & you did. Embrace this experience. Go out with her again & tell her your thoughts on what happened, no matter how difficult or seemingly embarrassing you may find it. There are 1000 guys out there who'd be willing to be in your place right now.

[dragoul]

You are not gay. If you were, you'd new it. And I think Ms. Julie explained it perfectly.

But you are hell of a lucky guy, for having such a kinky girlfriend!

[Protein]

You are ok, your girlfriend is amazing

[MrLobo]

Thank you so much for your answers, you give me the encouragement to speak with her about my feelings.

She said me, that i was overthinking, if i enjoy something, then i should be happy, not worried about it. While we're in the bedroom nobody judges us and we must do all that we enjoy, no matter the taboos.

I think that i was worried for nothing.

You have helped me a lot, this community are awesome.