Not the effect i wanted?

[mcjoel]

Hello,

I'm having a really weird problem with all these teases.
The problem is i want to like them and do some of the stuff in it and so but everytime
I want to do it, something in me tells me that I may and will not do that.
Why is this? Even simple tasks like kneeling don't even work out.
The reason why this is really weird is because I want to do it before i start the tease,
but once i'm doing it, i can't.
Atm i'm also looking for a mistress, in the hope she would be able to get me there.
But i'm afraid it won't work out or she should have a very strong willpower and voice.
Anybody else having the same problem? Or perhaps an idea to solve this?

note: I've already been thinking on giving information to someone, so I could be blackmailed,
but I won't be able to do that and even if I do, i can be seriously (sorry for my language) fucked.

greetz,
Mc

[Nezhul]

Weeeel maybe you aren't that much submissive? If you look at me, I like quided masturbation and edging, but I'm not that submissive at all. I just like some twists. I'd let a girl dom me just for fun and play it out as a good and obedient slave of her, but after the game I'll be myself, not submissive at all.