Considering taking my denial the next step...

[inferiorwhiteboi]

I'm writing this to get my thoughts on paper (okay, technically this is the electronic equivalent of it). Anyway, if anybody has any thoughts, I'd appreciate it.

Like most of us, I learned about & started masturbating when I was a teenager (I'm 35 now, so that was about 20 years ago in my case). About 8 years ago, I caught the "T&D" bug and have been enjoying denial ever since. These days, I'm a lot happier than I was back then. Hornier, but happier.

A few years ago, I made a "life" decision related to denial. In late 2007, after giving it serious thought, I decided that I wanted to never have sex again. No more blowjobs, either. This too, made me hornier, and more importantly, happier.

Yeah, I know...sounds crazy. Now then, here's where the next level comes in...

I've been thinking about taking things one step further. What's next? Orgasms.

Five or so years ago, I started experimenting with ruined orgasms. I've grown rather fond of them since then. One day, I was thinking, "What if all of my orgasms got ruined?" So I started wondering what it would be like to never again have a full-blown, spunk shooting orgasm. Not too long after that, I looked at a calendar & started counting the months. In October of 2015, I'll turn 40. Assuming that my next orgasm is next month (May, 2011), and that I have no more than 1 full-blown orgasm a month, I would have 54 more satisfying orgasms before my 40th birthday.

Yes, I would be sprinkling-in my fair share of ruined ones between now & then.

Part of me thinks it would make a great 40th birthday gift to myself. Part of me thinks I'm crazy, and that this is too extreme. Nothing set in stone here, I'm just thinking out loud. Shouldn't I shoot a load at least once a year? Probably.

So, at the moment, that's what I'm pondering. Thanks for reading. If you have any thoughts, please do share 'em.

[dix]

Is this all just self denial or are you being denied for someone?

Dix.

[inferiorwhiteboi]

This is self denial

[dix]

This is self denial

If it's self denial it's really all up to you as to whether you want to do it or not. If it's something that you enjoy then I'd say go for it, just remember to milk yourself with ruined orgasms or prostate milking every so often.

I'm afraid I don't really have much else to offer other than to say that, the choice is yours.

Dix.

[inferiorwhiteboi]

No worries there, I'm rather fond of ruined orgasms These days, I ruin about half of mine. Ruining them all just seems like the next logical step.

[dix]

No worries there, I'm rather fond of ruined orgasms These days, I ruin about half of mine. Ruining them all just seems like the next logical step.

It would be a lot easier and a lot more fun if you could find a Mistress to help with your fantasy. Even if it was just someone online who kept you in check so to speak.

Dix.

[inferiorwhiteboi]

I've thought about that. Might consider it some day.

Giving oneself to another is a rather big step. An honorable path, but not one that I necessarily see myself on.

[dix]

I've thought about that. Might consider it some day.

Giving oneself to another is a rather big step. An honorable path, but not one that I necessarily see myself on.

A curious response given your interests. Commendable though.

Dix.

[inferiorwhiteboi]

Commendable though.

Thanks!

I guess I'm just too much of a loner.