As a matter of fact...yes, I am aware of the control I have right now...and am enjoying it. *smile*N.E.D. wrote:You read me like an open book, I am embarrassed. I grow less confident in my ability not to everyday. I find myself wishing that I would just give in. wishing that you might just tell me those words and make me do it, like I wish Jessica would do to me. I really dont know how I got to this point, but, I really want to be made to, to hear that laugh, to see Jessicas face as she makes fun of me.... and you dangle it in front of me, teasing me, your like her, your words are like her commands. I keep telling myself that if I wet myself it will make a mess, it will not be fun, but the thought of you seeing for yourself, my embarrassment, just like i feared and hoped for if she were to see me do it. I dont know what I want...or do i. I have to fight the urge not to right now, it's so strong. Do you know what kind of control you have right now, every reply you post almost makes me have an accident. I cant stop reading them lol
I have talked to Master about this, making sure I am not crossing any lines with this thread. He is perfectly fine with my speaking to you in the way that I am. *smile*
You say that I am like Her.....and to a point, perhaps. But there is a line I won't cross. I won't humiliate you in areas that I am not comfortable with. Some people enjoy humiliation and need it, crave it. I will give in slightly, but when I reach that invisible line, I won't cross over it. I am letting you know about this, so that you totally understand the dynamics of the cat and mouse game I play with you. *warm smile*
Now.....I have to say, there was a bit of disappointment when I opened up this thread this morning....and....there was no picture waiting for me......or no explanation of that you tried to take a picture and wet yourself and then realized that you couldn't take a picture like "that".
And here I thought you would act upon that slight suggestion I made...but alas.......I find that you "hope that I order it of you"...........it's to bad that you did not see the words I spoke as much of an order or "forcing" you to do it, like you did with being...."forced" to be totally honest. Such a shame Ned....such a shame.
I could be sitting here, smiling......looking at a picture you took of yourself..............the front of your pants wet...with water or urine, I'm still unsure of which it would have been.......but no...............
*sighs very loudly..........so loudly that it reaches through the screen of your monitor....into your ears.........and deep within you............................*
