Mercy or Merci ?

[SexualChoc]

Well this morning I did several edges (15)
while watching some porn Xhamster

I figured I was done for the day and had stopped for over an hour
when My mistress suprised me by teasing me some more, interactively
I can not give to many detials,
But it did envolve over 30 minutes of teaing
and a Ball gag (for me)

Ahh Just what I needed!

Oh I am still orgasm free.

[SexualChoc]

Well today I did a challenging set
First I loaded up one of my favorite videos:
http://xhamster.com/movies/369287/the_m ... art_1.html
Then I put on a vibrating cock ring on pulse/vibe
and slipped myself into my Stoking machine:
http://www.roboticblowjob.com/index.php?page=buy

I kept the speed down to avoid going over
But still, it drove me crazy
I wanted to cum soooooo bad
I took off all toys when I got close to the edge
To easy to go over with these toys.
And then did 6 edges
Which may not sound like much but My desire to go over was very high
Was difficult to resist, but I did.
Still orgasm free

[SexualChoc]

Well today I am not working
So I checke out the Chat room
DD22 was there
ansd we traded Tease challenges.
I have done this before, So I know myMistress, even though she is away would not mind
DD22 gave me
Cocksucker3
http://www.milovana.com/webteases/showtease.php?id=9978

Well I had a problem, I don't own a dildo.
But I got creative and used my Chastity cage
and licked that
I watched the little "hyno' slide show
and did the video
all while cleaning my cage with my toungue

Now after all that and the mantra's

I still, in fact am not a real cocksucker
Just not gay enough, literally.
I was briefly curious years ago
but I have discovered I am Hard wired Hetero
I guess I get the punishment for failing a task since I didn't have
a dildo to start with
But since I am orgasm free until January, three days from now
I will still be orgasm free so not much punishment,

Still glad to see Plp in chat
Hope my latest tease inspires more plp to write teases with chat interaction.

I also edged a little more today to this VERY hot video
http://xhamster.com/movies/466630/jerky ... arrie.html
Think I did at least 15 edges this evening.

[SexualChoc]

Well for my last tease in Chat I was given the challenge to do:
http://www.milovana.com/webteases/showtease.php?id=5023
Little Devil
Well I had to quit
at page 12
I really could not even make the holding breath edges past 12 seconds.
And the Pinching of ballsWhile edging
well the pain actually almost sent me over!
Which is why I quit before I finished
Perhaps If I had not edged several times today I might have... no I don't think I can do this tease
was fun to try Did several edges.

Thanks Grunge

[SexualChoc]

Well this morning I have done 6 edges watching:
http://xhamster.com/movies/415361/missi ... p_2_d.html
and later in the day did 6 more to:
http://www.spankwire.com/Ojou-sama-wa-H ... deo228525/

[SexualChoc]

Todat I did something different

I hung around an empty chat room

I also occasionally did some edging
but I did it differently today.
After each edge I waited until I was totally completely flacid before I would try and do anouther edge

So each an every edge today has been exquisit
andquite difficult to stop
but I must not go over,

Feeling I feel a slight tingling in my feet, balls, cock,
My whole body feels warm
Each edge brings me back to agony and extasy of denial
I made sure to drink plenty of water so that all my leeking between edges was quickly rplaced

Have done over 8 edges this way this morning
waiting in an empty chat room.


Also I found the waiting the most excruciating
part of my day today.
Very intresting and intense.

[SexualChoc]

EDIT:

Well after many hours finnaly got a game together
for Denial Circle
Played with Lesub
Mascot1
and myself

Fortuenaly for me Mascot lost
Otherwise I would have been toast
He followed all punishment
and then I edged 3 more time
I almost lost everything on that fourth held edge
But am gald to say I am still orgasm free!

If I play again today I am NOT participating.

[SexualChoc]

Sigh I have a long day of work ahead of me.
Woke up extra early
and Horney as hell

Damn it was a real rush knowing others were orgasming when I am in denial.
I think my brain is so mushy now from lack of orgasm and constant teasing
My boundries are a little low, will have to be careful about that.

Anyway did 12 edges this morning to porn
Hentai porn on Xhamster. Some okay new videos up on
Hentai catagory today. I think that is all I can handle this morning.

It's kind of like each day I feel like my desire to orgasm is somehow greater than the day before
but each day I feel like I almost don't want any more.
And Yet somehow I do. If that makes any sense.
May post again late tonight.

[SexualChoc]

Time to write is always limited on these long work days
so I just barely have to to stroke or edge before I am out the door.

Yesterday I did 7 Edges
Did use porn.
and this morning I only did 5

I am trying to give myself a bit more time between edges
So I don't have time to do a large number.

However, Just out of curosity I counted my strokes today
I was able to go from completely flacid to on the edge with 100 fast strokes
fantasizing about being forced to orgasm.

So I would say that my resistance is low.
I think I am getting to the point that I can almost get the Physcological feeling of an edge
without any physical stimulation.

[SexualChoc]

Well I found a video I really like to wank to this morning
http://xhamster.com/movies/473131/itazu ... n_-_2.html
I am spacing out my edges again.
Which makes me drippy.

I did what may seem a whimpy 3 edges this morning using the wait-to-I-get-soft method
By the second one I was ready for my Chastity belt
after the third one- My mistress got involved
and Well

I begged for my chastity belt!
So I am locked up today

As she said, what better costume could I ask for for all Saint's eve (halloween)
I wonder when I might get unlocked.....

[SexualChoc]

EDIT

This post has been taken down at my Mistress' request
Just this one post, not the thread.

[SexualChoc]

Soo confused
My wife
The love of my life got very upset
about my chat sessions
Said, "It's cyber sex, I am your only sex partner. Fantasy is fine but NO cyber sex. We had talked about this before."
see: http://www.milovana.com/forum/viewtopic.php?t=2592

I really do love my wife,
and I don't even want to think about cheating on her
She really is the best thing that has ever happened to me.
So I don't know what I am doing today other than Denial.

Perhaps I should just not look at Milovana for a while (yaah right)
or stop porn, <FYI she is okay with both of those and has been for a while>
Just hate for her to feel like I betrayed her.
Note , Yes I did get permission to go to chat, and do "a tease in chat"
but she said she was tired and not thinking clearly when she said yes.

So I don't know what to do
Go back to doing random teases I guess.

[les]

SC
You are one lucky hombre.
If you want advice chat with "all2true"

Meanwhile stop being a greedy selfish bugger

then madam will let you chat for fun and inspiration.
Not to get your rocks rolling.


les

[SexualChoc]

Yesterday I was working On tweeking My Latest tease
http://www.milovana.com/webteases/showf ... p?id=10078
So I was doing a lot of testing
and Previewing

I ended up doing about 10 edges
Over the corse of Two hours

I really like the tease I created,
I made it just for me
So I can have a Unknown factor
And Yet still enjoy Denial teasing.

[SexualChoc]

So I am doing My own tease
http://www.milovana.com/webteases/showf ... p?id=10078

That is after all Why I made it
First got the Ice path
But realized that I was getting the same instrucions, again and again
So I looked at it, stopped stroking
and Then went to work adding 4 Pages
To make it more random

Went back to the tease
And got my favorite path
Double Vibrators
One under ass other on balls
Got stroke 4 times a second page 5 times in a row
Was about to stop to see if it needed editing too
When I got Medium strokes Once every other
Made it to the next page Once every 3 second Strokes
And Edge

and got a HOLD the edge page
Eeak, with vibes?
Oooooo

Was tough didn't cum
Did one more run after taking off Vibes
and got the slow path
Well I was still very excited so I edged quickly again even with slow strokes
So I quit.

Very fun!

Alright I'll fess I did anouther 2 rounds ON my own Tease
Quiting in between, Guess I am a bit of a piggy/ glutton for punishment
The first I got Was Medium strokes path where it stays on Medium strokes
But I did make it past the first minute like that before I edged

Took a break
And then did the tease again
Got Vibe under balls on pluse and Vibrate
And then got slow strokes for the first 2 Min, One every 4
Graon and Edged on Stroke One every 3
Then I got anouther Hold Edge 15 sec hold
Oooooo
made it

Still Orgasm free
Now off to work!