Payback is a SISSY Bitch!
Payback is a SISSY Bitch!
Man-O-man did I love to fuck my girl in her Ass. As I said before, no girl I'd ever been with had ever let me fuck their ass, but my true love did, and I don't think this was normal with her either, her asshole was so-o-o-o tight! Now after I learned how to do it properly, playing with her pussy first, working on the little hole step by step, lubing and sliding it in slowly, working it little by little until the hole thing went in to it's max, then slowly in-out, in-out. Then when it was ready, fast jabs, slow deep penetration, then fucking the shit out of her until I almost cum, then I'd stop and wait a minute to come down, when I was ready again I'd start the hole process over again. i'd do that several times over a long period before I'd finally let myself cum by grabbing her ponytails (she'd beg me to do this)pulling her hair hard and fuck her as hard and deep as I could, GOD! that feeling! was so incredible! I'd finally cum as hard and deep as I could force my cock into her, It seemed like I'd cum for ages. Then we'd lay their with my cock inside her, me on top of her and usually fall asleep this way. It felt so speacle, like her ass was mine, and she'd given it to me for my personal pleasure, to do as I pleased, for I new she enjoyed it, but then sometimes she didn't because I was so big that night and she was so tight, but I'd still do as I pleased and fuck her silly even if she said it hurt her. That's why I feel bad sometimes, you have to understand this was a very beautiful, sexy, mature woman, very feminine and fragile too, not the type you'd think would let you, or would enjoy anal sex, but that's what made it even better, fucking this fragile flower so hard in her pretty ass, forcing this flower to take it no matter what she felt that night. She seemed to enjoy it most when she felt she had done something wrong, like it was her punishment for that, I never really figured it out, but I do think her previous husband had sometimes forced hard sex on her when she did not want it, and maybe beat her to, he was a fucking bastard I know that. And I loved her with all my heart, and she new this. I could never hurt her physically or mentally,, that's why I had a hard time complying to her wants sometimes, she'd want me to hold her down, fuck her harder, pull her hair, tie her up, fuck her in the ass. And at first I had a really hard time doing these things, but then after awhile I really got off on them and wanted to do these things to her, even more. I'd tie her up over a stole, force her to suck my cock, and if I wasn't happy how she was doing I'd start whipping her soft ass with my belt, that would sure motivate her, it hurt and she didn't like that,so she really try to suck me off faster, but I wouldn't let her, I liked spanking that ass hard and red, so when I finally fucked it, it be red and tender and that much better. She'd still be tied down and I'd eat her pussy out to make her cum before I went to work on her ass, it helped relax and soften her up for the hard work to come. But then I'd always had an anal fetish, for my own though, I loved fucking my ass with a dildo, but never thought I'd like to fuck someone else with my cock. She new about my desire to cross-dress and ass fuck myself sometimes, so we just incorporated it into our game sometimes, but I was only able to get her to let my dress-up and have her fuck my ass with a strap-on one time, she played it to the hilt and fucked me like I sometimes This was my first time like this and it made me cum so hard without my cock even being stimulated, but after she was done I felt so ashamed and confused that I cried in her arms uncontrollable for a long time. But that was the one and only time she ever fucked me, I believe she was to uncomfortable as the dominate role and me in the passive, it screwed to much with her sense of order in the relationship. I was allowed to dress-up and fuck myself in front of her while she played with herself, and that was enough for my desires to be fulfilled. I think she made the right choose about not fucking me again, it was such an odd and confusing experience for me that I don't know how I'd have reacted to more of the same role reversals. This is not the only or main way we had sex, we did a little of every thing, I'm just telling and focusing on it because I think it helps explain my desires to be treated and fucked the same way as i sometimes did to her, because of my overwhelming feelings of guilt I had after the fact, I want to be paid back for this by having someone else do it to me the same way. That's it for now, sweet dreams and good night my angel in heaven, I love & miss you so much still.