Well, as one of first testers of the integrated experience (Video + Estim), I have to say wow, this one left me breathless (and not only because of holding breaths to remain in orgasmic ecstasy for eternity).
I thought I spoiled this for me while working on estim, and when I planned my hedonist session, I thought I will test this as warmup and then playtest one of more mature estims I am working on. Underestimating this video was
the most beautiful mistake of my life. When it ended I was in a place where porn does not make any sense anymore, this was THE SESSION and there is not more that my mind can experience right now. Or anytime soon. I had
beyond porn experiences before, but never as beautiful as this one, never as impactful and meaningful as this one. It is for sure the most religious experience of my life, and one of top 5 most meaningful.
Thank you so much!
Before starting with spoilers, it is worth saying this is something you want to experience on psychedelics. Definitely. Actually I have never experienced anything that was better for psychedelics than this.
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I came into this thinking "another Liya rework", yes it is better done, nicer graphics, better quality, but I thought that I already had the plot twist spoiled because I worked on estim for it, and I thought "I'll just make sure that estim signals are good". I had the time to have one of hedonist sessions and I consumed a dose of 2cb and smoked some weed, expecting to spend comeup watching/testing this and then enjoy another of the creations that I have estim to test for.
Of course, it did not turn out like that. You already read that underestimating this video was most beautiful mistake of my life. After some 5-6 rounds the substances took hold and I was drawn in, I realized we are now in world of imagination, and everything is possible here. I think knowing Rillo and playing his previous creations was huge source of trust that allowed me to "let go" here and get drawn into the vortex without reservations. I already knew how it ends and I did not like some of the wording, but that was distant worry and it did not stop me from trully giving into hypnotic trance. Giving up control I am realizing that I am not giving into a porn video, she is divinity, the goddess of beauty, love, life, Liya is one of her manifestations and this is turning into a religious experience. I am connecting with her, and then slowly I start to experience what she experiences, I become her. This was first time in my life that I had experience of becoming a female (deity). I did experience becoming pleasure, but I did not dream that I am Liya is something that can happen. This lead to one of most intense and beautiful orgasms of both body and the mind.
We were already far beyond porn here. But that is not where it ends. And this time everything was perfect, when I worked on estim and spoiled this, I did not understood it! The second orgasm was different. It felt like it is not me orgasming, it was her. But I was her. And it hit me: I was her because I am everything. Everyone. Everywhere. Always. And I love you all! I felt presence of divinity touching me from inside and outside, while it is touching everyone else, transcending existence, I was bathed in that uncoditional love and I felt how I love everything and everyone, realizing that loving everyone is just accepting myself since everything and everyone is one.
I am so honored to have been able to experience this, and even more that I was able to contribute something to it. To me this experience is easily worth thousands of euros/dollars, if its value could even be converted into monetary (probably no), and I hope all of you who play this realize it too!
@Rillo please create an XMR wallet, there is no reason to not accept anonymous tax-free donations, maybe you are not motivated by money, but you still have to pay bills, and creating more of such experiences is better than working to pay them!
P.S. I used standard triphase configuration(s) I always use and you can do the same if you have your favorite config when using restim.