I'm really struggling since I finished the pornfree pledge - I'm kinda watching nonstop sissy porn while I script now and it makes me soooooo horny.
Mistress Blake was so wise to invent it . . . on the other hand, the longer I'm horny and caged the more ready I become to explore other forms of pleasure. . . .
I'm feeling really really horny, i can say yes to everything.
This locktober experience is the first thime i made it over the first 3 days,
this week is very hard for me since i'm not into much of the sub things i got propose but i want the full sub experience. I start to feel naked without the cage and it's more confy. Every time i get out i feel the urge to stroke and cum and i'd like to get back under control as soon as possible my determination is still strong enough and i'm looking for a full 24/7, maybe next monht, never say never.
i wonder when and if im' going nocturnal discarge since sometie whne squeezeing out last pee drops it appears to be like full of precum.
it's the 10th day i'm happy for the goal but I want to fuck anything and it's only 1/3 of the run.
+5 writing
+10 porti it
Name: JetBlack
BS:16 CPO: 338 CPE: 15 CPT: 369
pledge active:
purchases [+30 -15] in progress
Get-in-shape (31/10) [+60 -30] in progress [03/05/07][09//][//][//]
Yes,Ma'am (14/10) [+50 -25] in progress [09/10/11////]
SlenderSissyNewbie wrote: Wed Oct 11, 2023 8:43 pm
Just to get this out here:
I'm really struggling since I finished the pornfree pledge - I'm kinda watching nonstop sissy porn while I script now and it makes me soooooo horny.
Mistress Blake was so wise to invent it . . . on the other hand, the longer I'm horny and caged the more ready I become to explore other forms of pleasure. . . .
Tell me about it. Mistress Blake really caused me to push my boundaries. I was plugged and locked for solid 5+ hours today, even went out for a 30mins walk and dinner with it. I wanted to do some chores when I got home, but at that point I was really at my limit with the plug. Afterward I was fucking my ass for a bit watching hypno (have been doing this everyday this week), trying to get any form of relief I can. Unfortunately (or maybe fortunately depending on your perspective), nothing came out of my pathetic dick just yet. Maybe it's all the captions said, once you are locked masturbation is more about the process not the result. Can't wait till my larger dildo and plug get here, maybe then I can really milk myself.
update 459 points. (401+18+10+10+10+10)
Because I am a big masochist I earned all the points of today. I just had a little accident with the ballbusting one where the last hit trapped my balls between the metal of my cage and my apple. But this session was fun overall.
1/10: Daily: +20pts+5pts. +20 pledge, +40 pledge. No baseline cagepoints. Searched chastity and hypno themed thingies. Did one of Shattered's teases, looked through some chastity captions, listened to some audio by Shibby, watched a 10 minute vid. Took Pornfree and Hypnoslave pledges. Shared image.
2/10: Baseline +20pts. Task +20pts. +60 pledge. Maintained "No other porn" pledge. Listened to a 20 minute hypno chastity file. Went down to the gym and did leg day a day early (hour and a half). And took the excercise pledge cuz its a gimme with my existing routine.
3/10: +20 baseline. +??? Task - got booted back to the main menu super fast after the timer, so not sure what the task was. Seems to be an issue that's been caught, maybe I'll have another look at it tomorrow. Listened to a 20 minute audio while jogging.
4/10: +20 baseline, +5 task - maintained excercise, hypno and no porn.
5/10: +20 baseline, +20 for being shaved. Had a really nice bath at home. +10 cagepoints. Kept up with pledges.
6/10: +20 baseline. +15 for cleaning + tasks. Got the names wrong. Maintained other pledges.
7/10: +20 baseline. Went naughty shopping - got a lovense vibe on order. +10 points. Skipping the pledges.
8/10: +20 baseline, +25 from the task, skipped the pledge, marked hypno and porn free pledgesas complete. Some good fun this one, really looking forwards to this week now
9/10: Baseline +20. Task +15. 24 hour pledge (20pts). Excited for the bondage task tomorrow!
10/10: +20 baseline, +20 from task. Good bit of fun this one! Looking forwards to Thursday!
11/10: Baseline 20, +5 for journaling, don't feel like posting.
I don’t have testicles to smack… uhh… unless you count the silicone gel prosthetic thingies that I got with my bottom surgery, but I don’t think that’s quite the same as what you were chasing with ball spanks. So I just completed the day a second time, doing 10 points worth of the other three tasks a second time. I’m tentatively marking this as “10 points earned” but won’t add them to my total until I get approval from you, or a different task you’d like me to complete instead.
Loving this event so far, and I’m kind of missing the daily hypno I was doing during week 1 .
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And if you want, what goes against continuing your hypno.
In fact, I'm doing it, not daily, but allmost every night I listen to Princess's Faes sweet whispers.
Every time I sit at the computer, I can smell the smell of horniness. So exciting. Yes, I want out. No, I know I cannot have it! And.... let's see if I can make it, it's going to be interesting to stay locked up! I for sure am ramping up! Since the shopping day, I'm checking every day about shipping update, other products, either sexy knickers or even sexy bras.... and up to that day, I have never been that into it. Mitress Blake, I think I'm learning to enjoy being your submissive!
I also have to report, I may have gone a little overboard with body writting! I redid the task the next day, and now, 72hours later, I'm still covered in writing, being careful not to rub it off when taking a shower. Seeing it on my feet when I get dressed, seeing it on my thighs everytime I got to the bathroom, having to be careful with my short slives, I like it, and it pushes me to underself completely naked at random times in the day just for the thrill of having all that embarassing writing on me. Mistress, I hope you approve of the state in which you are putting me. I'd love to beg for permission to unlock, but I know it won't be coming!
Prep: 12
Daily base (18) till the 11th
1: 5 extra
2: 10
3:
4: 15 (posting reflections)
5: 30 (20 for being good, +10 scented bath)
6: 10 for 6 leaning tasks
7: 10+10 for shopping
8: 20 (Yes Mistress Blake, I will do everything except showing my chastity to the world)
9: 20+20: full body writing, kept it for 24, redid it so still have it 48h later
10: 20: over 10 minutes of bondage with blindfold, chest hardness, drooling from gag and footcuffs.
11: 5 + 10 writings:
Total: 337
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Day 10 & 11 main post with all info
previous CP: 347 Day 10:
12 (from baseline)
20 (bodywriting pledge)
20 (lasted 13 minutes) Day 11:
12 (from baseline)
15 (sharing)
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current CP: 426
I didn't have time to update, wrote it yesterday, but had to proofread, so two days in one post .
So I don't know if it's what's described as sub-frenzy, or maybe Mistress Blake made me understand that I enjoy not only how bondage looks (especially shibari art, I also really liked Nana To Kaoru manga when I was younger ), but also how it feels on me .
I bought a basic BDSM kit (with a collar, cuffs, rope, and paddles) months ago but didn't really use it before, and maybe I wanted to use it on someone else . It's nice to finally try it and enter subspace with it.
Also, can we talk about how bad YT videos about self-tying are (even the "beginner" friendly ones do cuts, skip steps, tie in the back and only show the front, assume you know the knots, and half of the videos are an onlyfans promo :/), I was looking for 20 minutes to find a good one (it didn't help that I only had one rope), while drooling gagged and with my ankles cuffed, praying that one of my flatmates doesn't decide to knock on my door and ask me for something .
I researched after the session, and I might try to follow some blogs like Rope365, hopefully with better results. (What helped was not only searching on Google but adding "reddit" to the search bar; it usually brings results from real people with experience and not some AI-written bull**it.)
At the end, I was patient enough to last 13 minutes, but I didn't really know how much time had passed, so I wanted to push as much as I could. There were a lot of thoughts going through my mind: I did some reflections that would be helpful for the next day; I meditated about how I feel, where in my body I am tense, what body parts feel uncomfortable in this position, etc.
When I thought that it was nearly 20 minutes, I stopped. I guess time doesn't go as fast when you don't have all of your senses attacking your awareness, as I was wrong by 7 minutes. Oh, and after the task, my hands felt numb; I couldn't really type those thoughts out, so I am doing it before doing the Day 11 task.
I felt slightly scared about the toys list for Day 12. I am ok with slight pain for punishment, but *really* don't like it (I much prefer, even through also dread, psychological punishments)
It will probably be a long text again, but I really want to express myself and put my thoughts into words. I will probably keep a journal like this one (but maybe not only for NSFW stuff) after Locktober. I feel it's really therapeutic and makes me reflect on who I am and what I like. I guess I don't do too much thinking about myself without context, like journaling.
Day 5:
Surprise inspection, well, surprised me; there wasn't a lot of hair, but at the same time, I wasn't proud of myself for not keeping up the appearance or for my laziness. So I did shave and have a nice, relaxing spa day.
It was also the first time I shared photos of myself as a sub with a stranger (and how many at once!, site says they were seen 600 times; if only 10% of these are real people, than I am kind of shocked, thought It would be more like 15; it's exciting, scary, and humiliating at the same time, hard to put into words.
Day 6:
This day taught about the power of submissive acts of service. I greatly enjoyed tasks I wouldn't have otherwise, just because I was doing them for somebody and I wanted to please them.
And I got reminded how bad I am with names; I instantly forgot them .
Day 7:
Not all the items from the shopping task have yet arrived, and I pledged to show all of them in use. Kinda excited, but also I want to look good in these photos (meaning shaved, and now I got a bad razor burn ), and I don't yet know how I am going to show the biggest dildo (larger version of one I already had) I have in use. I really didn't think this through, as it probably won't fit without a LOT of preparation.
I like that Mistress thought of buying both sexy and naughty things.
Day 8:
I took the yes, mistress pledge, but it didn't really change my life much. I guess I was already helpful to women around me, and I do (though sometimes begrudgingly) help with small stuff.
This is also when I made an additional pledge from the event to use my pink lip balm three times a day, and Mistress Blake added that one of those must be in public. I really enjoy this task; it's a nice little thing to remind me of by my submission thought the day, and other people don't think about it (although I do too much), and I feel like my lips are in better condition already . I also go for a relaxing walk to do this task if, on a given day, I am working remotely. This also makes me sleep better.
Day 9:
This was the body writing task, and again, it's something I only did a few times before; I don't know why. I was really horny for the whole duration; on any other day, I wasn't leaking as much; I had to keep a towel under me when writing. Also, I realized how hard it is to write upside down and that I made some mistakes. The writing was uneven, and what I wrote felt perfectly humiliating at the moment, but not so much when horniness died down.
I kept it for 24 hours, because regardless, it wouldn't fade away after the first shower. I had to scrub with a loofah after 24 hours to really get rid of it. I also had to be extra careful to not go out my room in my shorts or without a shirt like I sometimes do
I also shared photos of this task; I don't know why. It wasn't part of the task, but I've seen someone else do it, and it felt right. It feels so nice to see other slaves also doing the same task—their thoughts, their pictures, their progress—so I wanted to contribute to that too.
Day 10:
I wrote a lot about my experience of day 10 in the update post, but it was a great exploration of what I like, and I feel I understood a little better what rope-bunnies find so fun, relaxing, and deep about it. It's also good that I did some yoga exercises (for my weekly workout pledge) before this task, so I was stretched and warmed up.
Overall:
Once again, another great week and many new or revisited experiences for me. I feel like i am growing under Mistress Blake and that's the most important. It's only been 10 days, one third of the way, and this tease already makes me feel that I should prepare and when I am educated enough go search for a dom in my local community. I am researching how it all works and really leaning not just fulfilling a kink .
Thank you, SlenderSissyNewbie for your work and bringing us here together!
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. I also go for a relaxing walk to do this task if, on a given day, I am working remotely. This also makes me sleep better.