1/10: Daily: +20pts+5pts. +20 pledge, +40 pledge. No baseline cagepoints. Searched chastity and hypno themed thingies. Did one of Shattered's teases, looked through some chastity captions, listened to some audio by Shibby, watched a 10 minute vid. Took Pornfree and Hypnoslave pledges. Shared image.
2/10: Baseline +20pts. Task +20pts. +60 pledge. Maintained "No other porn" pledge. Listened to a 20 minute hypno chastity file. Went down to the gym and did leg day a day early (hour and a half). And took the excercise pledge cuz its a gimme with my existing routine.
3/10: +20 baseline. +??? Task - got booted back to the main menu super fast after the timer, so not sure what the task was. Seems to be an issue that's been caught, maybe I'll have another look at it tomorrow. Listened to a 20 minute audio while jogging.
4/10: +20 baseline, +5 task - maintained excercise, hypno and no porn.
5/10: +20 baseline, +20 for being shaved. Had a really nice bath at home. +10 cagepoints. Kept up with pledges.
6/10: +20 baseline. +15 for cleaning + tasks. Got the names wrong. Maintained other pledges.
7/10: +20 baseline. Went naughty shopping - got a lovense vibe on order. +10 points. Skipping the pledges.
8/10: +20 baseline, +25 from the task, skipped the pledge, marked hypno and porn free pledgesas complete. Some good fun this one, really looking forwards to this week now
“Hey Sub, . . .
. . . would you believe it has been a week of Locktoberfest already.
I hope the first week helped you accept your locked status.
In fact: Let us make sure.
So, sub, tell Mistress Blake:
Were you nice and chaste and did you obey the rules?”
> I failed, Mistress. <
Choices
I have come to accept and acknowledge what this rule breaking is all pointing to, in that, it is hard to truly admit to myself, as I get older, that as far as being turned on, in touch with myself, my feelings, my sexuality, my kinkiness these were all my initial reasons for my acceptance for being in chastity in real-time with the tease.
However, what I have now undertsood and accepted is that I can experience more - if I let myself, in being given this safe, sane, and consensual space and allow myself to be what I truly am - submissive. Yes, ultimately, it is my choice. That is, if, I want the intense feeling of becoming ridiculously happy and at peace in being able to satisfy the subsequent urge that being submissive brings (my wants), along with the sub/ Domme dynamic that causes me to experience this (my needs), by refraining from all sexual, kinky activity that is considered by Mistress not earned according to my state of having consented to being a chastity submissive of Mistress then I must submit and trust Mistress to guide me.
“I trusted you.
Let us see, if you have an excuse”
Fears
There was no excuse. Sure, playing this web-tease in real time is triggering all sorts of things within me – all positive regarding my innate submissiveness, but the new thing that I have learned from the week of acceptance just gone of Mistress Blake is, “Real chastity starts when you want out,” and I have only learned this by making that choice to ‘want out’ of chastity myself, knowing that I am breaking the rules I agreed to. I pushed and tested the boundary of Mistress, and Mistress has punished me for it, as well as suggesting what to reflect upon – ‘self-control.’
“So, did you fail more than once?
> No, Mistress, it only happened once and never will again <
I hope, that will prove true.
For your sake
So, now get out of my sight, you dirty horny slut . . .
. . . and think about what you have done.”
Hopes
Having reflected on this since I broke the rules, I now understand that the best way to please Mistress is to fully submit and commit to my sexual, kinky urges being physically and metaphorically locked up – out of my control. The control over my cock and what it does and feels is now the property of Mistress Blake. The chastity device is there to remind me of that fact physically. If I ‘want out’ sexually, kinkily it is no longer my choice! Mistress Blake decides my sexual, kinky release and I accept that now for what it truly means. I must earn the title and meaning of sub offered by Mistress by trusting her, submitting to her, and embracing and expressing who I really am sexually, kinkily through her guidance…. A submissive chastity slut.
For this reason, and to remove any further temptation and ability to break the rules anymore i am going to change my cage type, fitting, and mode to a small/tiny metal cage 24/7. This cage was one of my purchases online. (photo to follow once all my purchases have arrived)
I am sorry Mistress and I hope this pleases you.
Last edited by Drewstix57 on Sun Oct 08, 2023 1:46 pm, edited 7 times in total.
Locktoberfest has been such a wonderful pleasure so far. The thought and effort put into crafting this experience has been very impressive. I eagerly anticipate what the future holds for all of us denial subscribers.
The introduction week leading up to locktoberfest was an exceptional idea. A month in chastity is such a big leap for so many people interested, the lead in was wonderful to create the reassurance that this was what I really wanted and that your guidance would lead me on a beneficial and rewarding journey this month.
I did worry being locked long term would be an issue for myself, as I had never committed to such a long term lock up before. However the option for 'Privacy Mode' has been perfect. Being locked up securely while at home prevents me from any real chance to break the rules and touch myself, while the ease to unlock for public tasks is such a relief. Playing this denial game is soo hot for me, but I hate to think of involving anyone not interested or impacting on work or friends negatively.
I did wear my cage out of the house today though, just a walk to the shops but the knowledge that you owned my cock while I went about every day tasks was very exciting. I had to focus not to start straining hard against my cage as I walked down the street. I worry this is a sign of the challenges to come in a few more weeks, but secretly I am excited to feel the snug embrace of my cage while my body cries out for release that it is yet to earn.
I look forward to strengthening my inner cage with your help as things progress. I am sure the cumming weeks will be challenging, but I look forward to the teasing and teaching to come.
Thank you for your commitment to Locktoberfest
Razorsedge
I took the "Yes, Ma'am" pledge.
I completed the porn-free and hypno pledges successfully (altough I would like to take the hypno pledge longer than a week, really started to like those and they used to bore me before, without chastity).
I really liked the nipple play part, made me strain against my cage. Made me feel really submissive towards Mistress.
Day 8 Update:
250 + 12 + 15 = 272
I got the Baseline Points +12 and 15 Points from the Questions.
I stopped when Mistress asked me if i would suck cock, I don't think i'm ready for that, even if i sucked my dildos in the past.
Last night when i took off my cage for sleep, i noticed that i didn't get hard immediately. Usually when my dick senses freedom, i get at least a medium strength erection. I became a little worried, and opened reddit to look at images from CensoredForBetas and CensoredForFeet. Normally that gets me hard pretty quickly, but nothing happened. I pushed my dick around a little with my fingers but it only flopped about limply. Tensing my muscles made it twitch a little from the inside of my body, but it stayed small and limp. Now i panicked a little. After trying to think of something else and going to the toilet, i tried something else and watched a video of our sexy Mistress Blake, while lying naked on my bed. Slowly i noticed something happening, fortunately. After a few minutes (no touching of course) i had medium boner. I paused the video and went to sleep.
This morning then i was curious and resumed the video. I was happy to see that i could get a full erection, a really hard one actually when i pushed my dick away from my belly. Happy and relieved i waited for the erection to swell of and put on my metal cage again.
edit:
I also translated some of my thoughts for the day 4 task. I don't know if i still get points for it, but here it is:
It's now been four days since i locked my penis into the metal cage and five days since i stopped masturbating. My balls feel quite full now. Since i cannot play with my dick, i have the constant urge to touch my balls or pull on my ballsack. It feels quite nice though.
The last two days the tasks and teases were rather calm. I hope, sometime in the next days Mistress Blake will start to tease me more. I wish i could stroke under her supervision, even knowing that i'm not allowed to cum. The thought alone of Mistress Blake telling me to stroke my boner makes me very horny.
The longer i'm locked in the cage, the more i wish i had a girlfriend who would dominate me like this, at least sometimes. She could keep me caged for a few days in a row, while frequently ordering me to eat her pussy during that time.
I'd also love to worship her feet with my mouth and tongue, sucking on her toes, licking her soles or kiss her from the feet all the way up her legs.
One big fantasy of mine would be if she was riding my face with her pussy and ass, me eagerly licking her to several orgasms. She would play with my caged dick. After a while of her lightly slapping my balls and using a vibrator on my cage, i'd surely cum, while she'd laugh at my predicament and then feed me my cum from her latex gloves.
This is how i'd imagine a long weekend of sexual submission, with the hope that i'd satisfied my Domme enough for her to gift me a full orgasm. Wether i'd be allowed to penetrate her using a condom, or (more likely) stroke under her supervision until i cum on her feet, i'd gladly lick up my cum for her pleasure.
On normal days and in public though i wish for my girlfriend and me to be equals, and that we may show our affection both ways. I don't want to be recognized as her slave or as a beta publicly. In return i'd strive all the more to be a good sub for her during our sessions.
Points Total (baseline + daily tasks + completed pledges): 1530
Basepoints: 12 -> 15
Cage: normal metal cage (switching to small one if privacy is needed)
Mode: privacy -> standard
Points update previous points 226 plus 18 base points (244) +25 from points from today (269) plus porn free task completion 20 cage points (289) and hynoslave task completion 40 cage points bringing total to 329 also took on the obey all woman task
+25: i said yest to everything but i didn't really read everything i was just horny
i hope it won't backfire later. i took the pledge as a yes man since i aready proved a poitn
Name: JetBlack
BS:16 CPO: 255 CPE: 25 CPT: 296
pledge active:
purchases [+30 -15] in progress
Get-in-shape (31/10) [+60 -30] in progress [03/05/07][//][//][//]
Yes,Ma'am (14/10) [+50 -25] in progress [//////]
I've done day 8, and it's been the most impactful day so far. Not that much of action (don't get me wrong nipple play was extremely hot, and just seeing a naked body is a lot at this point), but the words, they get to me so much. When I read some of the actions, like hitting my balls with a tennis ball in a sock, I was genuinely terified. Which makes no sense, since I'd be the one doing it to myself. Maybe I'm afraid I wouldn't be able to do it, but that shouldn't be scary, should it? Anyways, my cum-brain wasn't able to choose any other answer then "yes mistress". Twice I had to take a minute to calm myself down, to breath at a reasonable pace. I don't know if my feeble mind can take it like this for a whole month.
In horny fervor I took the yes ma'am pledge, thinking it sounded hot. Depending on how it was worded exactly (all I've writen down was "agree to all requests from women"), I already failed that. The question is should propositions count? When a woman doesn't gain anything from me accepting, or even is nice and tries to give something at her expense? Let's say for the sake of argument a woman offers me a candy, do I have to say yes? If so, I failed that one. Not even because I disliked what was offered, I just totally forgot about the pledge. I have a feeling that even if I remembered, I would have failed it sooner or later. That's what you get for not thinking. Although I actually spent a minute or two "deciding", but I wasn't in a mental state in which my considerations were grounded in reality. Mixing my fantasies with so called "real life" doesn't seem to work for me very well.
Pornfree and hypno pledges would normally end at this point, but I should go two more days to compensate for doing 3 days in 1 at the beginning. I've got 130 cagepoints, +12 baseline, +25 for "correct" answers, 167 total (if starting 2 days late is acceptable, I fully understand if it isn't).
