THERE IS A TL;DR BELOW IF IT HELPS
Sorry if this is the wrong board, not been around in years, I'm mostly looking to prod the thoughts of anyone with experience or opinions on this topic.
Before I left Milovana, I had been single, very much reckless in my kink pursuit, wanting to explore this that and the next thing. Since those days, I'm now in a relationship, engaged with the woman of my life who I'm lucky to be able to indulge my kinks with. On the kink side of things, I'd consider us switches, but both inherently submissive.
It pains me to admit, but as of late, I've been wanting to experience more nasty situations, having this craving to go even lower, to eat dog food if I have to, down to the point of my pre-existing moral boundaries... Milovana was admittedly one of the places I could turn to for shameless enjoyment. I enjoyed my time, loved the sense of randomness, not knowing what to expect, being asked to do something I would never expect, and feeling like "trash" in a way that I found appealing.
I have a barrier that stops me from asking my partner to make me experience cruel, disgusting, shameless situations because at the end of the day, she's my wife to be first, and kink partner second. While tease and denial is a part of our daily life, and I realise I could possibly ask for more, I feel hesitant through a sense of responsibility and respect that I can't make myself crack. We have positive experience in bondage, so we're pretty packed in terms of materials
My partner knows very well that I have used Milovana before, and about my urges, how I enjoyed participating and lurking forum games and webteases, but one problem I have with most webteases that I see, is that the teases themselves make you the slave/pet/object of the author of the webtease, not so much through the angle of "I've been sent here by my partner" or even with the "person" cut out. I feel temptation from the content, but if it's not for my fiancée, I just can't do it, because I cannot betray her, and I cannot ever worship, serve, or act submissive towards anyone else. In response, my fiancée thinks this is kinda romantic, and is interested in looking around the website with me, in hopes of making some progress.
So I was hoping to ask, are there any webteases on here that remove the role of serving another person, or any thoughts?
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I'm sorry it took ridiculously long to get to this point, had this on my mind a lot, it's been.... frustrating, I don't want to just be told I can fap or not these days, but it just doesn't feel right for me to push for anything drastic.
TL;DR
- Last visited Milovana years ago, now in relationship
- Been craving experiencing more than just tease and denial, such as pain, humiliation through things like disgusting foods, other disgusting thoughts.
- Searching for webteases where I don't serve a person in the webtease itself, or for advice and opinions on the above.
thank you for this! While not perfect, tease and denial is a large part of what I love. Unfortunately I'm a grower and all of the chastity devices I've tried just don't want to stay on, so we have a more "hands off" chastity, like my partner's word is the key? It took a long time to be able to drill this into my mind, but I feel that it's been worth it.