Not wanting to cum???

[Tobias23]

Have you ever been teased by a partner (online or real) for some time and them still hoped he/she doesn't let you cum? No? Because to be hones, I have ... and i feel kind of strange about it.

Sure my fetish is to be teased and denied, but when the teasing starts the urge to orgasm should reach a point where you want to cum, where you want your partner to give you the permission. And if you reach that point, being told no (or maybe yes) is much more mind shattering, i think?

The Problem with me is, i like to beg. Begging a Mistress for something gets me aroused, well more aroused in the heat of the moment. Well if she doesn't like it, i obviously can't do it, but most seem to like it (in my experience). But even when i beg for an orgasm, there is STILL a little thought back in my head, who wants her to say NO. Why?

I feel more like I'm playing a role of the greedy sub who wants to orgasm, and sometimes (shame on me) i just want to see if i can get her to let me orgasm if i beg hard enough. But on the other hand i could kill the mood, imagine the situation: You've been on the edge for hours and she asks you with a sweet voice: "Awww poor boy do you want to cum, hmm do you?". And you say: "Uhm well actually I'd prefer if you tell me no again!" .... well yeah mood killer *laugh*.


So what am i asking of you dear Milovana community? Well probably only if you ever felt the same way. Do you always secretly wish your partner tells you no? Be honest, think about it. Or have to reached the point where you want your partner to give you the permission?

I haven't obviously reached the last point, the point where the thought in the back of my head also begs her to say yes. But i don't think its a matter of time, because i have been denied for 3 weeks, and i still wonder what might have been if she said no on the last day ....

Am i crazy?

[Tobias23]

Oh did i write too much so everybody got confused :(

Thanks for the answer Indigo, but i don't think you got my point.

I'll try to shorten it as much as i can:

I enjoy teasing and denial -> during Teasing i enjoy begging for an orgasm, but in fact i want to be denied longer. So i beg for something i don't want?! I don't say I've ever had an bad (normal!) orgasm, but i never had the feeling that i wanted one with all my heart and mind, when i begged for it.

???

[dark]

Oh did i write too much so everybody got confused :(

Thanks for the answer Indigo, but i don't think you got my point.

I'll try to shorten it as much as i can:

I enjoy teasing and denial -> during Teasing i enjoy begging for an orgasm, but in fact i want to be denied longer. So i beg for something i don't want?! I don't say I've ever had an bad (normal!) orgasm, but i never had the feeling that i wanted one with all my heart and mind, when i begged for it.

???

A good example: Sometimes I got the decision to cum or not and this was always very confusing (of course there were conditions). I never was able to decide if I want to cum or if I don't want. Often it ended in Her made the decision and denied me for some extra days, because I couldn't decide and bored her.

The reason is: when you beg so much and make a complete fool of yourself just for getting to cum and then she smiles and denies you even longer it's such a great feeling of helplesness and devotion. You are totally stucked in this moment of lust and desperation. A moment when crying can be pure sexual arousal. It's a strong moment with the strongest expression of her power over you. In this moment you really feel her power and your own devotion.

That's why you like being denied, although you beg. The problem is, this moment is only very strong if you really want to cum and if you don't expect a no from her. So it's her duty to really make you think you need to cum and you will cum IF you beg enough. You need to relax and think less! If you always think "don't let me cum, or maybe i wanna cum, hmm i can't decide", it's only half of the fun.

Don't think too much! Don't worry too much! Don't hesitate too much!

It will be more fun for you

And a personal note: it seems your top really gives you too much orgasms