illtaket42 wrote:DellaRoss wrote:Yes of course 42, you may cum. I understand the pleasure and pain of long term denial. And I second what way with words said. I love hearing how you guys are feeling. It makes me feel like my game is doing some good. I am not going to lie, there have been times over the last 3 years when I thought about shutting it die and letting it go the way of so many games on Milo. However posts like this from players like you remind me why I do this. 
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I find it hard to believe that Della managed to keep her game running for three years and more. That took a great deal of dedication, time and energy. All this just to keep us players happy ?
There's not much we players can do in the way of saying "Thank You, Della". But a little feedback shouldn't be too hard.
If all of us took just 5 minutes time to post what the game does for us or what problems or pleasures we have to deal with while playing for every hour we spend stroking and edging that wouldn't really be much of an effort.
Think about it
I agree and apologize for not posting recently.
I haven't actually been playing, but I haven't withdrawn. Maybe more accurately I am playing, but have been on prolonged denial. With very little time available, which was unexpected, I have avoided the thread. In similar situations in the past I have found that I try to rush and then end up messing up. Also, my mindset was all wrong. With little time, too little sleep, and stress I just wanted to get off. That is no way to play the game. So, I am going slowly and cautiously. I will have a little time this weekend and hope to find a few more targets.
Denial without actively playing the game has been a very different experience. Honestly, not my favorite, but worth the effort. It was really tough at first to avoid the thread. Usually I spent the whole time thinking of reasons why it would be ok to have an orgasm. I deserved it with how hard I was working. No one would know. It would just be an accident. Etc. Again, really bad mindset for playing the game. But, I like commitment and I knew if I really needed to withdraw I could ask Della, who has always been generous and sympathetic. I grit my teeth, went to bed, took a shower, and did whatever it took to get through those first few days. It got easier after a few days and felt good to be successful and not give in. It was very different than not giving into pleasure while edging.
So, a few week in I would normally be hyper sensitive and constantly horny. This is the part of the game I love the most. Everything is enjoyable. I feel so alive and wonderful. I am attentive to my emotions and those of other people. I experience events more deeply. However, this time I don't have those feelings. It is much more muted. It's not bad, just not the overwhelming euphoria it normally is. I am hoping to have a little more time this week to ramp it up, and being very careful to go slowly.
As always, thank you Della for your efforts. They are always appreciated, even when I fail to communicate that.
Goodman
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