Porn-Induced Erectile Dysfunction

[TiedAndTender]

Hi all. I have been a fan of this site for some time. My adventures started when i was probably 17 or so. I am now 19. About 4 months ago, i had a sexual relationship with a woman i met. The greatest part, it seemed, was her kinkiness. She wanted rough sex. I was inclined to oblige her. She loved it when i choked her, slapped her (especially her pussy, which no one else had done to her before) and tied her up with a belt. I had never had the opportunity to live out these kinky fantasies before, and yet here i was.

I had had vanilla sex one time before this, when i was sixteen, before i began to masturbate frequently. Since then, all i have done was masturbate (CBT especially; i loved to tie up my cock till it throbbed) It was usually a combination of this site (and its great instructions) accompanied with all kinds of videos. Plenty of artificial visual stimulation.

So, whats the problem? I couldnt get a full hard-on. I couldnt even maintain the semi-hard dick i got when i fucked her face. This is what i have been fantasizing about: one hand holding her by the hair, pushed up against a wall, the other hand at her arms which were tied back, while i fucked her from behind. But i couldnt get hard. Despite my impotency, my apologies, telling her it wasnt her and that i didnt know what was wrong with me, I made this women orgasm multiple times by other means. She was reassuring, and smiled, telling me that she had an awesome time, and wanted me to come back for round 2.

However, I felt ashamed. It was hard for me to see, not to mention talk, to her after that, but eventually we set up another 'date'. (which was actually about 3 weeks later)

The SAME GOD DAMN thing happened. I was miserable. I left her feeling great, not regretting my inability to ACTUALLY fuck her (or so she told me). I, however, left with blue balls, and when i got home, it didnt take me long to open up some porn, GET HARD AS A FUCKING ROCK, and rub that now painful ache out.

Despite having this naked and EAGER woman submit to me (and my perverted sexuality) i could not take advantage of it. The thing i had once masturbated to i was finally living; and what was my body doing? Nothing.

I have now concluded that had developed Porn Induced erectile dysfunction.

Since an adolescent, my brain (and penis, i suppose) have been hardwired, almost nightly, to respond to certain stimuli: sitting on my own soft blanketed bed, lights low, and candle lit, and a screen covered in near perfectionist sexual images. Leather, latex, and unrealistic, yet somehow incredibly sexy poses caught in still images made my heart skip a beat. I could get lost in a STILL IMAGE's eyes if she looked at me the right way. Fast paced Cockhero videos flashing between ten different perfectly curvy women were incredible to me (my hat goes off to the editors of these all of these videos, by the way! what amazing work they do for the rest of us!)

But now, i have realized what i have become: A porn addict. My body responds to these overly stimulating images more than they do to real women, however stunning they are in person, or for that matter, whether or not they were grabbing my dick and whispering in my ear how bad they want me to tie them down and fuck them.

It is not something i would have ever imagined could happen, and if i hadnt had this wake up call, something i would never believe could be be true.

I pledged to myself that i would quite masturbating after this and (although i relapsed several times, always opting to find amateur, low quality, porn, as well as using a consciously loose grip) after about the first month i began to notice a change. Although i do not recall how frequent (if at all) i got night time boners before, i started to wake up with hard-ons quite consistently. This encouraged me, because, as my psychology professor once told me "If you can get hard in your sleep, than erectile dysfunction is psychological, and not physical" I began to see the light at the end of the tunnel.

Now, in about the second or third month, things have not changed much. I only get randomly hard when i sleep. Although i can manage to get semi-hard by rubbing myself through my underwear (something i used to do for fun, before the real business), without clothes on my cock feels limp and barely responds to my pc muscle contraction. Interestingly enough, typing about my sexual encounter made me half-hard in itself.
My mind still urges for the kind of things i used to do. My mind lights up when i see suggestive pictures and commercials. Opening this website up for the first time in months and seeing that list of teases was almost painful; i had to click to the forums quickly.

However,It is a long road to recovery.

I have spent limited time browsing this (http://yourbrainonporn.com/erectile-dys ... n-and-porn), and other sites, to read about people experiences, but i am very interested to know what the inhabitants of this porn based community (which i will always have a great respect for; im looking at you, tease creators! Despite my predicament, much love for your hard work and artistic vision!) think.

I made this page, and told my pathetic story, to start the conversation here. Has anyone else experienced this? Has anyone recovered from it? After reading my story, are you worried that, with your habits, this will develop in you? Or do you think that my problem might stem from some other unique physiological or psychological aspect of myself that i have not thought of?

Please share with me, and the community, anything you feel is relevant to this topic, whether they be personal experiences, articles, other forums, or whatever!

I will most likely (unless the feedback is negative) continue to keep a limited journal detailing my recovery on this thread.

Thank you for your patience! (boy, did i have alot to get off my chest)
I am looking forward to any feedback ya'll have!

[jackstock]

No need to think so much. You're fine.
Meditate.

[frankendude]

Porn induced ED is real. You're doing the right thing. Know that it doesn't happen to everyone. I can still use porn regularly and have no problem getting hard with a girl. The difference, for me, is when I go 3+ days without an orgasm, sex with a girl is amazing. Orgasming from porn feels good, but leaves me energy-less and down. Orgasming with a girl after 3+ days of abstaining leaves my entire body in bliss. It just is what it is. I have nothing against people who want to enjoy porn, I know I still do. If I had any major issues with women because of it like you are experiencing, I would stop. Good luck to you. I recommend a complete reset from all orgasms except nocturnal ones for a minimum of 90 days. See if that solves your ED issue. If not, you may have something else going on like hormone dysregulation.