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Is there any way of forcing myself to do it everytime I masturbate,
without chickening out and without the help of a mistress (since they are
hard to find)?
And how is it possible to not feel guilty about it afterwards?
For the first question, use an online mistress if you can't find one locally. Cruel Natalie herself will probably do that. If $ is an issue, appeal on Milovana for someone to be accountable to. If all else fails, be accountable to yourself. Keep a record of each time you masturbate and how you dispose of your cum. Grant yourself a reward for a certain amount of success, and a punishment for failure. If you'd like help setting up a program, pm me.
As for your second question, I have no answer without more information. I think you mean that you feel guilty after eating your cum. Is that correct? Or do you feel guilty after masturbating?
Since I don't have enough time to live my whole life how a mistress wants and propably can't reach up to her expectations since I am new and everything and don't want to spend money I try to get myself to do the tasks like eating my cum but it's too hard to achieve if there is nobody telling you to.
Yes I talked about feeling guilty after eating my cum.
Sometimes I am in a state of mind where I just want to cum while watching something vanilla,
and sometimes I have a desire to cum by fucking myself, watching girls using strapons on sissies
and eating my cum afterwards and after I did all that I feel humiliated, exactly what I wanted before
I came, but after I came it's not that nice anymore. I guess you understand what I am talking about.
Dom/me(s): Not currently serving a Superior. I'd love to negotiate a contract to encourage my writing, as I've done in the past. Any genuine females interested?
Well, I came a few minutes ago and, true to my promise, licked it all up. I can still taste it. Not bad at all.
Do you actually feel guilt or just a let down?
Here's a suggestion. Make masturbate and edge several times and don't cum for a few sessions.
Then when you let yourself go, you'll have a big release, plenty to lick and you can feel happy and proud, not let down or guilty. That's what I did today and that's how I feel.
Is there any way of forcing myself to do it everytime I masturbate,
without chickening out and without the help of a mistress (since they are
hard to find)?
And how is it possible to not feel guilty about it afterwards?
For the first question, use an online mistress if you can't find one locally. Cruel Natalie herself will probably do that. If $ is an issue, appeal on Milovana for someone to be accountable to. If all else fails, be accountable to yourself. Keep a record of each time you masturbate and how you dispose of your cum. Grant yourself a reward for a certain amount of success, and a punishment for failure. If you'd like help setting up a program, pm me.
As for your second question, I have no answer without more information. I think you mean that you feel guilty after eating your cum. Is that correct? Or do you feel guilty after masturbating?
micheleFFS
Thanks for responding
I feel guilty for not eating it when I get so excited thinking about it
That happens more often then not
When I'm told to
I do and I enjoy it
About 8 years ago I started thinking harder about what I'd taste like. I brought up the idea to my wife at the time and she thought it was very erotic. I am not sub or dom btw. I tried it one night after Cumming on her face. Instantly hooked. I've been tasting and or swallowing my cum pretty much every time since that day. I've been divorced for three years and have spent a lot of time alone in my room with my toys learning amazing things about myself. I've slept with 8 girls since my divorce and mentioned cum eating to every one of them. They all absolutely loved it. ( their favorite is me Cumming inside then looking in their eyes as I slowly give her oral to get it in my mouth. I've been told I have awesome tasting cum and it's not common to have such a pleasant flavor. I've found many ways of getting it from my dick to my mouth and have enjoyed the process. I do it because it's arousing and I like tasting both of us. I hope you enjoyed this
b.freeman1973 wrote:About 8 years ago I started thinking harder about what I'd taste like. I brought up the idea to my wife at the time and she thought it was very erotic. I am not sub or dom btw. I tried it one night after Cumming on her face. Instantly hooked. I've been tasting and or swallowing my cum pretty much every time since that day. I've been divorced for three years and have spent a lot of time alone in my room with my toys learning amazing things about myself. I've slept with 8 girls since my divorce and mentioned cum eating to every one of them. They all absolutely loved it. ( their favorite is me Cumming inside then looking in their eyes as I slowly give her oral to get it in my mouth. I've been told I have awesome tasting cum and it's not common to have such a pleasant flavor. I've found many ways of getting it from my dick to my mouth and have enjoyed the process. I do it because it's arousing and I like tasting both of us. I hope you enjoyed this
Thank you that was awesome!
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Dom/me(s): Not currently serving a Superior. I'd love to negotiate a contract to encourage my writing, as I've done in the past. Any genuine females interested?
Luv this thread! Thanks for starting it, Cruel Natalie. Yes, B. Freeman's post was terrific.
As for Imhunglikeagnat, you feel guilty if you desire to swallow but don't follow through and you said if someone told you to, you'd do it.
I had a similar experience, but without a feeling of guilt. I'd plan to swallow, but lose interest.
My behavior has changed. I wanted to do more of my erotic writing and to be more submissive to my mistress without inconveniencing her. So I wrote a contract that gets me writing more (I earn masturbation or other sex privileges by writing) and which requires I eat my cum 100% of the times I ejaculate.
I began following the contract before I showed it to Mistress and so far have written 100% of the days and licked up my messes, with enthusiasm, 100% of the time. Accountability made the difference.
Get someone to be accountable to and see what happens.
It's no big secret I do domination phone sex. I can't even tell you how many guys want to do this for various reasons. Some view it as an act of subjugation while others just want to get naughty. Most get all excited at the idea of it then lose interest after they shoot. They enjoy the idea of being forced but does anyone really force you? After all I can't see you. But most of the time I can tell. There are certain postures and sounds men make that I've learned to pick up on in the 8 years I've been doing phone sex.
I tell them that if they can just get beyond that moment and there is no delay they will be so glad they did it. Like many things within the realm of bdsm you play it in your head over and over. Especially acts of subjugation. You can't put any thought into it other than "I need to do this for her." Doing it for someone is what really makes it hot.
I'm going to make an audio directed towards encouraging this.
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Dom/me(s): Not currently serving a Superior. I'd love to negotiate a contract to encourage my writing, as I've done in the past. Any genuine females interested?
Cruel Natalie, other dominas, and subs who draft their own contracts,
I would like to suggest a refinement to cum eating.
We realize that many men want to eat their own cum but "lose interest" after ejaculation. (Face it, it's not losing interest, it's properly called "chickening out.")
I bet that many of the men who do eat their cum immediately wash the taste away. Bad! The slimy feel lasts a while and the taste commonly lingers for 1/2 an hour to 45 minutes for me. I love this. It's one of my favorite parts of cum eating. Each time I am aware of the taste, I'm reminded of mistress and my commitment to her.
I suggest an addition to cum-eating contracts of a prohibition of no food or drink (note I did not say "nothing by mouth ;-} ) for one hour if the sub is unreliable or until after all aftertaste is dissipated for advanced, trusted subs.
I didn't write this into my own contract because it is my practice, but I will add this before Mistress and I sign it.
