Sorry for not posting more in the past week. I have been rather busy with work.
Which is good because it is really hard not to stroke more than I'm allowed to
This is probably the hardest part of this game...waiting for your target to appear so you can have an edge.
It's been almost two weeks now and reading through others posts I can be quite lucky to have a target that seems to appear rather often.
I edged 15 times so far, so I'm halfway through before I can beg you for a release.
It get harder day by day not to touch when I shouldn't and stopping after I did my strokes...
May I send you a PM Della? There might be three more targets for me but I'm not sure if they count.
Sam: you can go ahead and PM me, I do not mind messages from my players.
"To anyone who has stood at someones side and looked into the abyss and found both charm, attraction and love, for we are not made up only of our light and happiness but also our darkness and sorrow. To deny the darkness of yourself is to deny half of who you are, and when you love, truly love, you need to love the whole person not just the part that smiles and waves, but the part that thinks murderous thoughts and knows that pain is both pleasure and temptation, but still thinks puppies are really cute" -LKH
"I am Nature's arm. Her spirit. Her will. Hell, I am Mother Nature, and the time has come for plants to take back the world so rightfully ours! 'cause it's not nice to fool with Mother Nature.- Poison Ivy
"I pray you pass out drunk with your best friend and wake up with his and her tattoos"- Jared and the Long Road to Love
"You do what we want, or I will peel your mind away like the layers of an onion. You DO believe I can do that, don't you?"- Nikolaos
Della, I am so sorry. I failed this morning. And, it wasn't just a ruin. I failed to control myself. While doing my 14th edge I gave in. It was feeling so good and now I am so mad and ashamed. I am sorry. You are amazing and have always been so generous, and I return that with selfishness. I feel horrible. Please don't banish me. Please give me another chance. Please let me make it up to you. I am sorry. I am not going to make excuses. It was my choice and my fault. Please, please, please forgive me.
goodman wrote:*Crawls into thread with head hanging*
Della, I am so sorry. I failed this morning. And, it wasn't just a ruin. I failed to control myself. While doing my 14th edge I gave in. It was feeling so good and now I am so mad and ashamed. I am sorry. You are amazing and have always been so generous, and I return that with selfishness. I feel horrible. Please don't banish me. Please give me another chance. Please let me make it up to you. I am sorry. I am not going to make excuses. It was my choice and my fault. Please, please, please forgive me.
I'm sorry to hear that you 'failed', Goodman. Don't feel too bad about it though - there always is a point, where to body triumphs over the mind (Check interogation methods of any kind )
I'm pretty certain, Della will find a path towards a happy end for you after all. The path may just be a trifle stony though.
I'll keep my fingers crossed.
(ok - that's not really me. But she's on your side as well, I'm sure)
Apologies for not posting more this past week, I've been crazy busy and haven't had much time at home. In fact, I haven't been able to check the thread since Monday, so I'm still catching up on things.
goodman wrote:*Crawls into thread with head hanging*
Della, I am so sorry. I failed this morning. And, it wasn't just a ruin. I failed to control myself. While doing my 14th edge I gave in. It was feeling so good and now I am so mad and ashamed. I am sorry. You are amazing and have always been so generous, and I return that with selfishness. I feel horrible. Please don't banish me. Please give me another chance. Please let me make it up to you. I am sorry. I am not going to make excuses. It was my choice and my fault. Please, please, please forgive me.
Sorry to hear that goodman, I'm confident you can negotiate another crack at things.
And now since I've been silent for a bit, pictures:
goodman wrote:*Crawls into thread with head hanging*
Della, I am so sorry. I failed this morning. And, it wasn't just a ruin. I failed to control myself. While doing my 14th edge I gave in. It was feeling so good and now I am so mad and ashamed. I am sorry. You are amazing and have always been so generous, and I return that with selfishness. I feel horrible. Please don't banish me. Please give me another chance. Please let me make it up to you. I am sorry. I am not going to make excuses. It was my choice and my fault. Please, please, please forgive me.
*sits on the floor next to goodman* I can never pretend to understand what goes on in someone's mind after something like this happens. A ruin is one thing, that is an accident but you seem to have made the conscious decision to go against the principles of the game. It has happened a couple times before. I normally assume that that player was not cut out for longer denial. However you goodman are one of the longest players, I know you can handle the denial, you keep coming back for more. So I am not mad or disappointed. And I will most definitely not be throwing you out of the game. I just am a little confused as to the Why of all this.
I would like for you to think about it and get back to me.
In the meantime, you are hereby released from your current round of the game.you will start fresh on Sunday with the same target and any added things I may have given you up until this point. Who knows I might add more. You will restart from your current position where you last stopped.
See you Sunday,
Della
"To anyone who has stood at someones side and looked into the abyss and found both charm, attraction and love, for we are not made up only of our light and happiness but also our darkness and sorrow. To deny the darkness of yourself is to deny half of who you are, and when you love, truly love, you need to love the whole person not just the part that smiles and waves, but the part that thinks murderous thoughts and knows that pain is both pleasure and temptation, but still thinks puppies are really cute" -LKH
"I am Nature's arm. Her spirit. Her will. Hell, I am Mother Nature, and the time has come for plants to take back the world so rightfully ours! 'cause it's not nice to fool with Mother Nature.- Poison Ivy
"I pray you pass out drunk with your best friend and wake up with his and her tattoos"- Jared and the Long Road to Love
"You do what we want, or I will peel your mind away like the layers of an onion. You DO believe I can do that, don't you?"- Nikolaos