My first post here

[Madden]

Woke up this morning with sore legs, especially the front of my thighs, I guess it really was a workout. I drank half a bottle of water, and pushed play on the VCR. Today’s workout is 10 minutes on the arms. I didn't get winded at all, my arms are still in pretty decent shape, so at the end, I've only got a slight burning sensation across my shoulder blades. I feel pretty good, and can't wait to see what tomorrow brings.

I drank some more water and ate a banana, while I cooled down, they loaded “Days of Denial with Amy day 2” The first thing you are instructed to do is shave off all your pubic hair. I normally do this in the summer anyway, so it was not that big a deal. For me the hardest part of being bald down there is the feeling that you're walking around with a secret. One that you don't dare tell to anyone else. The remainder of the tease consists of stroking, edging, and abusing your nipples and balls. I think, after the second day, my nipples are more tender from the clips, than my balls are from the squeezing, smacking and punching.

I'm really starting to feel the denial now. During the exercise video, the instructor, who was wearing only a sports bra, had her nipples become erect. This caused me becoming erect, and it's really hard to do pushups with a throbbing boner.

Madden

[Madden]

Man I'm tired, I didn't sleep much last night. My legs are still sore from Monday's workout. I'm horny as hell, and around 3am we had one of the worst thunderstorms in ages blow through. The kind with lots of lightning and slow rolling thunder, that rattles the windows.

I was dead tired but wide awake so I got out of bed at 7:30am. Grabbed a bottle of water and did the next 10 minute workout session. Today's focus was on the butt. Now it feels like my lower back, right where it meets the butt cheeks is alive and angry.

After my workout, I ate a banana and drank a bottle of water. I loaded up “Days of Denial with Amy day 3” This tease is a brutal workout consisting of pushups, situps, knee bends, and running in place. The workout is broke up by rest stops for stroking, edging, and more ball abuse. I haven't done situps since high school, and that was a long time ago. I imagine that by tonight the rest of my body will ache as much as my thighs. No pain no gain, right?

While I'm sore from all the exercise, I'm also excited. The wife has been wanting to drop our phone service, and use the savings to upgrade to high speed internet. Yesterday, I spent 45 minutes talking with a man in an Indian call center. Tomorrow they will be installing our new broadband connection. Wahoo, welcome to the future.

Madden

[Madden]

2/20/14

Woke up the morning feeling fine... I really did too. I Went to bed around 1:30am, and woke at 7am lying in same position as when I laid down. All the soreness is gone from my legs. The cable installer is supposed to be here around 1pm, so I needed to rush to get my workouts in and get the computer desk pulled away from the wall.

The workout for today is abs. By the second exercise, my gut is burning and I'm gasping for breath. I manage to survive the entire 10 minutes, but foresee some serious muscle cramps in my future. This was the final workout on the tape, so tomorrow it's back to working the thighs.

Loaded up “Days of Denial with Amy day 4” and ran into my first “hard limit” I was instructed to go to the store and purchase a matching bra and panty. I wouldn't ordinarily have a problem with something like this, but not having a job, I can't afford to go spending money on things I don't really need to have.

In compromise, I rooted around my wife’s drawers, and found a tan bra, and pair of rose colored panties, they're worn out enough to fit me. I've never worn a bra before, and this only the second time I've had on woman's underwear. At first I felt ridiculous standing there. The bra stuffed with socks is digging into my back and sides.

Stroking however, feel incredible, The tease said to reach inside the underwear and stroke. As I did, the head of my dick would rub against the silky material. In no time at all, there was a wet spot the size of a silver dollar on the front. When edging, I had to be especially careful, afraid that the added sensations from the cloth would send me over.

The tease ends with the instructions to wear the outfit all day, not to shower, and to sleep in it. This sucks because it's 70 degrees, moving furniture around is making me sweat, and the panties, not being made of cotton, are clinging to my ass. I refuse to be a dirty, sweaty pig, so might have to compromise and take a shower later, but rewear the old undergarments.

Madden

[Madden]

2/21/14

Well the frigging cable installer never showed up yesterday. I called around 4pm and they told me that I was scheduled for a 4pm install on Saturday. If that was the case, why did I write down Thursday the 20th at 1pm? My wife and I go out for lunch and groceries around 2pm on Saturday's so there's no way I would have made that appointment. Stupid bastards. If they allowed competition in the cable business, half the companies would go out of business.

I went to bed, horny, frustrated, and sweating, wearing the same pair of panties and bra I'd worn all day. It's humiliating, but I found the only way to avoid urine stains on the underwear was to pee sitting down, and then to blot the tip of my penis with a piece of toilet paper. Talk about getting in touch with your feminine side.

Woke up this morning, and did my work out. Today was the thigh workout that I thought was going to kill me on Monday. I made it through only mildly gasping for air, with my thighs only slightly burning. Other than the minor aches, I feel great. I loaded up “Days of Denial with Amy day 5” for my daily round of abuse. It wasn't too bad. Lots of stroking, edging, and ball squeezing. The last two days, I've actually been worried that the tease would allow me to cum. I know I vowed not to until I've lost 5 pounds, but it seems like forever since my last orgasm. I'm not sure I could not do it, if given permission.

Anyway, I think I'll treat tomorrow as a day off, with no workout, and no tease, and start back on Sunday. I can't wait to weigh myself again. Yesterday, I wore jeans, mostly to protect my legs while I moved the furniture around, but also to cover up the fact that I was wearing woman’s underwear. The belt was in the last hole, and still felt loose. So at least part of me seems to be getting smaller.

Last night, the wife went to her bible study class, leaving me alone for dinner. I didn't want to make a big meal just for myself, so I checked the garage freezer. Inside was a frozen doggy bag. It had a half a piece of lemon pepper chicken, some rice, a small scoop of mac n cheese, a small scoop of squash casserole, and a dinner roll. The dinner roll, was the first real bread i've eaten in 3 weeks, it was so good, I almost cried. The chicken was the only thing that is on our food plan, but sometimes you need to reward yourself. That plate was 15 mouthfuls of pure ecstasy! Guess I'll have to eat real healthy for lunch tomorrow.

[Madden]

2/22/14 – 2/24/14

Saturday morning, I woke needing to orgasm really bad. I laid there edging for a while, and then made a cup of tea. The cable guy was scheduled for 4pm. Not wanting to tie up the phone line, I couldn't do anything online, so I played some games.

I spent the rest of morning cleaning up my hard drive. It was down to less than 1 gig of free space. I deleted a bunch of junk, and moved some of the older stuff I wanted to keep over to the external backup drive. While I was doing this, the power went out. This is an issue, because, if my computer crashes or the power goes out, it has to sit for a couple of hours before it will restart. I'd be just my luck the cable guy will show up, and my computer won't be working.

I broke out my NOOK, and read for an hour, and then took a little nap. Around 1pm I tried the computer, and it fired right up! Finished cleaning up the hard drive ended up freeing 5 gigs of space.

At 2:30, the cable guy called telling me that he's running ahead of schedule, snd would it be OK if he comes early. Please, I tell him. He arrives, it only takes about 30 minutes to run the cable to the computer room, and just like that I've joined the modern world!

My wife come home, we go out for a quick lunch (I had a nice grilled chicken wrap) and then over to Best Buy, for a wireless router. Then we go to the grocery store, where I'm my usual horny self, getting turned on by every woman I see.

We get home, and it takes me about 25 minutes to get the router installed, and her laptop configured to use it. I then sit down for my usual Saturday night. Two episodes of “The Virginian” followed by “That Metal Show” and “Austin City Limits”.

Sitting with my feet crossed, up on the coffee table, I notice a feeling in my groin, like I'm approaching an orgasm. I sit still and it fades, but I discover that by squeezing and releasing my thighs, I can edge. By the time “Austin City Limits” comes on, I've got a huge wet spot on the front of my shorts. Not wanting to watch “Radiohead” perform, I go use the computer for about an hour, before going to bed, quivering in frustration

I wake early, Sunday morning, eager to weigh myself, and see if my period of denial will be ending... No! I've lost some weight, but came up 1.8 pounds shy of my goal. Looks like at least another week of T&D frustration. I measure my stomach, and it hasn't changed, but I know I've lost something, because when I put my belt on Saturday, even in the last hole, it was loose enough to slide around.

I decide to reward myself with a nice cup of coffee (when I lost my job, I made the decision to not sit around the house drinking coffee every day. I switched to sitting around the house drinking tea. Every once in a while, however, I like to reward myself with a good strong cup of coffee.) While waiting for the coffee to brew, I started a load of laundry, and decided to do an edge or two.

On the second edge, I had a bit of a mini ruined orgasm, I twitched once, felt nice and tingly, and two drops of semen came out. I stopped edging, and rode the wave of frustration from there.

Spent the rest of the day either watching, of waiting for the rain to stop, so I could watch the Daytona 500. It finally ended around 11:30pm, so I took a shower and went to sleep.

Woke up this morning, and following the instructions from last weeks “Days of Denial” tease, drank a bottle of water. I drank another, after my morning workout. When I felt the need to go, I started “Days of Denial with Amy day 6”

For the record, I'd like to say that I've spent most of my life trying not to pee myself, but since joining Milo, I have been tasked to do so twice. It's amazing how hard it is to override, your body's habits and just let it flow.

The tease ended with instructions to not cum, and to start the “More Days of Denial with Amy” series tomorrow. They will get me through till Friday, I'll take Saturday off, and hopefully on Sunday find that I have regained control of my orgasms.

Madden

[Madden]

2/25/14 – 2/26/14

I did my workout and “More Days of Denial with Amy day 1” tease yesterday, but just didn't feel like writing, so took the day off. I'm getting close to 30 days without a real orgasm, and I've officially reached the “What the hell were you thinking point.” I spend way too much time thinking about how nice it would be to get off. Every edge is an adventure, I can feel that I won't have to go over by much, to orgasm.

The webtease, has instructed me to start taking cold showers, and I have to say that this truly sucks. I like to take a shower where the water so hot that it leaves your skin pink, when you get out. The last two days I've gotten out of the shower, shivering. It feels like hours before I feel warm again.

Did my workout this morning, and my abs are still burning,but my stamina seems to be improving. Today’s webtease was chock full of stroking and edging. It is so tempting to go just a little bit too far, and end this denial. From here Sunday seems like an eternity away, but I shall endeavor to be strong.

Madden

[Madden]

2/27/14 – 2/28/14

I woke wide awake at 3:30am. I laid in bed cat napping till 7:30. Got up, and tried a yoga workout for the first time. It must be pretty effective, because halfway through the tape, I had to stop. I was out of breath, and my arms and legs kept cramping up. I'll have to try it again in a day or two.

After cooling down with a banana and a cup of tea, I did “More Days of Denial with Amy day 3” Because I'm unemployed, I had no place to go, so instead I went to Chatroulette, and confessed to 10 strangers, that I was being denied orgasms until I lost 5 pounds, and that today I had to wear woman’s underwear and compliment every person I met. I was amazed at the number of guys, especially from the Middle East that just want to show their dicks or masturbate on camera.

Did I mention that I'm tired of taking cold showers? Well I am, especially after taking 3 yesterday.

This morning around 3am I awoke as I was having my first ever “wet dream” I don't know if it counts as a full orgasm or a ruined one, but I do know that my balls are much smaller, and there was a huge puddle running across my thigh and all over the sheet beside me.

I feel like crap today, think I'm coming down with a cold. So I didn't do a workout, instead I washed my sheets, and then remade the bed and took a nice long nap, in the still warm from the dryer sheets.

Because, I'm not sure if it was a real orgasm, I still feel incredibly horny, and have been leaking all day, I've decided to treat the next two days as “No Touch” On Sunday I'll weigh myself, if I've lost the rest of my goal, I'll say it was an orgasm and start over. If I’ve failed to lose the weight, I will resume the denial webteases for another week.

Madden