Jana's chastity boy

[Quiet Linda]

You can do it. again.
Jana is worth the effort.
You will be better.
Do it.

hugs
little girl

[erotusmaximus]

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You always encourage me little girl!! I thank you for that!!!

Here for a small report… Today I was desperate to stroke my cock but there was no session… it was really hard to just close the website and go back to bed for a while moving around in horniness… I also couldn’t help thinking that the time with Jana is coming to an end in only 7 days and that made me feel empty and sad. The sadness went beyond the sessions with Jana as I got the news that next year I will be changing my place to live. So although I will have the possibility to have a private space and do some more teases, the truth is that I will be so busy that I don’t know if I will be able to come to Milovana in several months. I know they will be longing months but hopefully I will be able to come back sooner than expected… we will see, it also depends if I get the private space I would really love to have.

Anyway, just some mixed feelings and thoughts…

Is sunday and is all very peaceful… I will continue to ache through the day hoping I can improve my naked time considerably as it is still low

[erotusmaximus]

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Uffff I survived today’s session!!!! Damn I hate Mazes!! I can never go out of them!! I was so so so so lucky to have found the way out after only 40 minutes… I am soooo lucky. I'm usually to excited to remember what I clicked. Only one other time I finished a maze by luck but every time I try one I never never get to the exit. Then the last video!!! I was sooooo worried that if I didn’t got enough edging I was going to be sent back into the maze!!! I was edging like crazy, dripping, and panting like a dog being electrified with all the shocking and frustration spasm!!! My cock was so freaking hard the whole session, it looked like frankensteins cock with all the veins about to pop… It was really difficult to stop the session, get soft, let some more drip come out of the penis like a tear of my cock begging to cum and just have repeat to myself as I look at my cock… “this is not for us, is for Jana little guy”

Oh boy, this was tough… I’m glad I survived. My balls not only feel like they have reached their maximum capacity of cum, but it feels as other places are being filled with cum near my prostate. Is as if cum is overboard and it has become increasingly difficult to retain the liquid. The only thing that is helping me is the PC muscles I keep doing as I don’t know what else could be stopping the flow. To get to the edge I only needed two fingers, barely touching, and only one way… It was almost as holding the edge for the length of the video… It was insane!

I am desperate to cum and hope I will have some release soon… I get spasm during the day if I get to watch a girl at a simple video or magazine, not even porn. For example I got to this video browsing casually in youtube and I was contracting like crazy… I think she says she has a big dildo? my god, I found it to be so feminine!

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Gj5L9SYhoSE

Ok, will try to distract my mind a bit, during the weekend I was able to gather 2.5 hrs more of naked time so I believe I’m half way thru… I feel sooo owned… and I love it Thank you Jana!!!

EM

[erotusmaximus]

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Sessions are only getting harder and harder… today tasks were incredibly arousing and frustrating. The first task was a great warm up, by the degree of excitement I had it was like staying at 9.5 the whole time. Then the math assignments!!! I have trouble remembering doing divisions on paper, yet to say on my mind while having edged!!! I don’t know how many times I repeated that task but it was tough already. Unfortunately that was nothing for what was about to come!! damn, I got it so wrong!! First I did 30 seconds thinking I could test a bit the dynamic of the game. Then I tried 1 minute but it was too short. Then I had the brilliant idea to think: “Wait! I know how I can do this! I will hold it until the flash tease will jump a bit and that should be the indication that a new page is coming so I will be over!” Yep, what a great fucking idea I had… I was heading 5 minutes pounding, heavily breathing, twitching, begging, moaning, and there was no indication of Jana’s picture doing anything funny. I kept motivated saying “This is a test, Jana wants me to last longer!” So I hold up until 10 minutes! My cock was numb and I was sweating! Still nothing!!! Shut!! “What is this?!!!” I kept saying to me in desperation. I went all the way to the 15 minute mark!!! I could barely hold my cock I was exhausted as hell and I had to call it off. Stop. What did I got? “You edged too long!” I couldn’t believed my theory was wrong. When will I ever find that specific moment?!!! I had a sudden anxiety attack and had to concentrate, calm my breathing and think of Jana while closing my eyes: “This is not for me, is for Jana”. So this is not too long, I did 25+ minutes of edge holding!!! I dripped sooooo so so much precum it was starting to turn a bit cloudy!!! I can feel the cum to be just a tiny bit behind my cock exit, as if it is ready to just blow up at any moment. Is so frustrating!!!!!! During all the edge holding as I said, my cock even got numb, as if it died or collapsed in stimulation!! I had to stroke faster and concentrate more on the head but it was so difficult!! It required a huge concentration effort and complete devotion to my Mistress Jana. Only that way I was able to hold that long. I never even thought that was possible!!! Damn this is crazy stuff for me. Still several days to go, I don’t know how I can physically hold this longer. All what is in my mind is “Yes, I can do it again!”.

[Jana]

Why no update, boy? You just assume I'm not paying attention?

[erotusmaximus]

My dearest and beloved Jana!!!

Just to get a message from you gives me a sudden rush of excitement!

I’m very sorry, but I won’t give excuses. I was just lazy this last days on reporting.

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Here’re some updates about my last sessions:

Last report missing I believe was the day when I uploaded some pictures to the forum. I didn’t took a look into the other pictures. Just went and posted 5 of them. I did saw it was several pages already of pictures so I was worried what could happen next day. But deep inside of me I was confident that whatever it was I was going to do it anyways. Difficult or not I was going to do it for you, so I just hoped I was able to hold my cum. That has been my worry for quite some time now. I feel so full like never before. Probably the stimulation I get at night from sleeping with a thong and pantyhose is subconsciously too arousing and keeps producing cum during my sleep with the help of the dream enhancer. This have been such an struggle every night. Twisting and twitching as I feel my legs rub each other with the silky pantyhose and my ass barely touches the tight thong… ufffff just thinking that the night arrives I start to get all excited and horny.

Ok, the next day I found out how many pictures they were: freaking a lot. I have no idea how much I stroked but I do know I had to stroke very… very… veeeeery slowly. So many great pictures. So much lust. It was a huge struggle to keep everything inside. But boy I was happy I could do that for you Jana. Is one more challenge I was able to tell myself, exhausted, with my cock just begging to explode: “how the hell did I do that? I can’t believe I finished the gallery… ufff… my god”

Then today it was very very hot to see you with Kim!!! The video I saw already from last time you told me I was able to do so and it brought me sweet memories! The slow stroking was pure bliss… what a strong sensation of excitement and submission. I kept admiring, concentrating, breathing, and again admiring… over and over.

I don’t know what is going to happen this next days but I know I have to be really concentrated. I must pay attention to my balls as the edges have become increasingly sharp and deadly! Like a knife that could kill all the fun! (feeling poetic ) We will see…

Till next report.

EM

[erotusmaximus]

I just want to add one extra report… guess next report arrived too quickly

The report about getting a message in the forum from my Mistress Jana! At first I couldn’t believe what the notification email said. I just saw there was a new posting in the forum but I was thinking that maybe Little Girl was coming by to support me which I have loved all the way!! But wait?! is… is… Jana?!!! Jana wrote a message!!!! I couldn’t believe it and rushed immediately into the forum. I was shaky and had to contract my PC muscle yet again to gain control of my long built urge!

Of course after reading the message I just concentrated on doing the report immediately and then continued to finish some stuff I was doing when I read the message.

Ok, just wanted to share this as the whole reporting thing has been in thankfulness of this amazing experience you have allowed me to have Mistress Jana, my Dominant. I was hoping you would read it someday after some deserved vacations from all this series. Thank you for your care and attention!! I treasure them very much!

I will continue to report!

EM

[erotusmaximus]

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So tomorrow is the big day!

Today’s session was a great invitation to reflect on all what this journey has been, and it has been a fantastic one!!! Tomorrow won’t be an easy session as Jana’s words at the end are to be taken seriously. I’m just kind of sad that this will end but in the other hand I know that all what I learned I will be able to put into practice just like Jana said. I don’t know if I will go into a relationship right away to holding orgasms, but I’m sure I will eventually… as Jana said “Is biology!” It will be like a dream come true! We will see as for now my plans after the last session are to move from this place I live, get into a new environment, I don’t know till when I will have internet or be fully adapted. There are projects to come, a whole bunch of task I must complete before leaving this place, etc. It will be a very busy 2014 so I don’t think I will be able to concentrate on girlfriends or anything. I will be lucky to come to Milovana in a couple of months maybe. I will of course continue with the good habits like drinking water, making the bed, shinning my shoes, pressing my shirts, eating healthy, doing exercise, cleaning my place and my persona, etc. Wow, to think on all what has happened just gives me a big smile. I’m anxious and my balls feel like exploding… but who knows, maybe tomorrow is the day?! I really reaaaaaaaaaaaally need a release but you never know with Jana!

Till then…

EM

[erotusmaximus]

I just found out I can edit my posts!! I inserted all my posts related to the tease in spoiler tags so visitors are warned before reading. I did some changes in the post about my bleeding balls just so people that are interested to know how that happened can benefit from this experience when choosing/using a chastity device.

[erotusmaximus]

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Wow!!!! What a session!!! I’m still tired mentally and physically from several hours of frustration, anxiety from not knowing what is going to happen, guessing, concentration, hoping for some tasks not to be repeated!! I was exhausted!!!! Had to sleep some hours before posting this.

But oh boy, oh boy, this has been quite a journey! and the ending?! What can I say?? Better don’t say anything as other might see this message even though it has spoiler warnings all over it I will help protect the secret.

What I do can say, and I can say that for every single session: expect the unexpected. And this was no exception. The last pages took me like a full minute to digest and nop, there where no timers having me waiting to continue, just a button I had to click. But still. I just couldn’t believe what I was reading and read it at least 3 times each. I guess the first reaction to such moments is denial. I surely was denying it and probably still am. I had so much mental preparation for this day and yet… things were not as I “wished”.

Is like that movie Saw I. It is a horror movie indeed and the ending leaves you just thinking “What the heck happened?” And as the guy rises you understand that Jana was there the whole time! watching and guiding you. The message of the movie is strong: to live life as uniquely and powerful as you can, and so were this two months closing with the last words of Jana today. You feel trapped but at the same time the decision is and was given to you the whole time.

This seems philosophical but of course I had this thoughts during the morning as it has been passing by I have been able to let the session and Jana’s words sink in. Trying to make sense. Slowly but nevertheless is sinking in. I believe the mix of this two months prepares you for this quite well. The first month is a very strong deep mental and instinctive relationship with Jana. The second the development of new powerful physical skills so you are able to accomplish a new way of life. Well, at least I see it that way because the motivation for Jana helped me overcome many of the limits presented in the second month as I continued to say to myself “This is for Jana, not for me”.

Of course now that Jana has opened the door to let us fly free, it still feels safe to stay. But it is necessary to go on and put into practice what we learned by our own. My next girl will surely have lots of fun just like me!

I want to thank Jana (which I will keep with me) and Decker for this fantastic journey. I do hope many other people try it and explore themselves deeper than ever. I cannot thank you enough.

My plans for the future? well, I would say to continue the teachings of Jana and live a life that I enjoy and desire.

Until my left nut starts hurting, I will continue to tribute Jana and my now given back desire. If my nut hurts I will ruin it and then continue without cumming. I won’t say how long will I go because I learned that during the month I only concentrated on 1 day at a time. So I will do that. I don’t want to worry too much if I can or cannot lengthy periods of time, I will only enjoy 1 day of denial at a time. Sometimes I will wear the chastity device so my balls stretch more, sometimes the pantyhose and thong at night. Both have proven to be extremely effective incentives to develop frustration We will see what happens. I still have maybe max 2 more weeks with internet and then I will be gone for some time so I will leave some posts whenever I can.

Till next time…

ME, EM

[Quiet Linda]

Jana still watches over her followers.
This mere fact warms my life.

[erotusmaximus]

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Keep it up Little Girl! Be assured Jana is always with us. She is in your bear, your chastity device, your upgraded routines, your hiking, everywhere you are! I know you know this but I just said it because we also have each other to support us. Just as you have always supported me! Thank you!!

Small update:

Yesterday I felt all beat up and tired. Couldn’t really concentrate through out the day. Today I got all fresh and rested but the morning was not the same without the daily session.

I decided to put on the chastity belt right after I got up from bed. My cock is already throbbing in frustration as it has been a long time since I don’t use it and yesterday’s session just left me a lot more desperate to cum.

Perhaps chastity during the day will help me be reminded of my new life and sexy clothes at night will continue to stimulate me during sleep. Hopefully this will continue to lead me into the road of frustrating agony and selfishness freedom.

Whenever I get a free time from my roommates I will do some teases or watch some porn so I can keep up with the high standards my cock has been trained for.

[erotusmaximus]

Hi,

I have very bad news Jana and I’m sorry… Unfortunately the urge was too big and I just went on and came…

Not!!! haha gotcha!! Only my delusions.

I just wanted to report that my chastity cage started hurting after a couple hours and had to take it off. I could see the marks where my skin gets pinched in the same place were ir ripped last time. My left nut was showing discomfort from the ring and began to hurt. So the H extrusion shapes seems to be the main issue in my case.

I will give it today some rest and get the small rash and nut swelling some healing. Tomorrow I will try a bigger ring as the lube didn’t help either even I kept applying to the zone that was pinched. If the cage feels like falling I will have to find some other chastity cage probably. We’ll see.

Ok, I will be around…

[erotusmaximus]

Small update...

Day went by very slowly but I must admit is not the same without the sessions or having Jana giving me instructions... it feels quite lonely and quiet... like a puppy just wandering around thinking... "What should I do now? Can I really please Jana in my head only?"... I don't know... maybe tomorrow with a different chastity ring things will be different. I needed today's day off for my balls to recover from yesterday. I'm continuing of course my healthy life regime, but the control part is somewhat missing... I will let some days go by, maybe is just longing from the sudden gear change from guidance to no-guidance...

Anyway my balls are so incredibly full right now... Never felt like this before as the minimum stimulation sends shivers all over my body.

Ok, off to bed now... I think tomorrow will be a brighter day!! Time to twitch some more in those sexy nylons thinking of Jana right next to me!

EM

[erotusmaximus]

Just a quick update as days will be becoming more and more busy… Nights are really hard to endure while resisting to touch and stroke. My balls feel incredibly full and I’m so horny the whole time. I woke up and put on my chastity belt right away with a bigger ring. It doesn’t seem to be too loose. I will see during the day, hopefully this will work for me on a longer basis than the smaller ring. My left nut hasn't stop giving me discomfort so probably I will have to ruin it in the coming days. God I wish I could just cum and explode!!! But that would be the end of it and I don't want that... this feels really intense!!