Journal of an inexperienced Milovana member

[sense]

In this thread I will post the experiences i had following the instructions of Mz_Teneale. We have been talking to each other on the chat today and I´ve had the luck that she has taken the time and effort to give my instructions in discovering more of Teasing and Denial.

It all started with me telling her that I bought some sort of Icy Hot replacement. I got curious reading about it in many teases, and after I saw Mz_Teneale on the chat I knew she was the right one to get more familiar with the stuff (she has used it in a couple of her teases).

I asked her for the best tease to get to know Icy Hot, but she decided to give the introduction lessons herself. I was made to smear a bit all on my cock head and a bit more on balls. After that i was told to massage my balls, while I felt everything burning up more and more. I told Mz_Teneale that the feeling of my warm balls wasn´t even that bad, but that was a mistake of course. 10 stinging slaps on the balls made the nice feeling go away quite quickly.

She had already told me that it was just a warm up, and directed me to the wonderful tease Churn and Burn. I followed the instructions of the tease, enjoying the part of ice and icy hot on the balls, the edges and especially the way the tease was built. I completed the tease up to the point where I was asked to do it all over again and have a chance of cumming. At that stage my balls were actually churning and burning, so i decided to go back to the chat and tell Mz_Teneale my experiences.

After some more talk about Tease and Denial she surprised me by telling me that i could tease myself for her for the coming period.
I am to do 4 teases daily (2 in the morning, 2 in the evening). I´m only allowed to touch myself during those teases, but I must watch as much porn as i can without touching. In this thread I will document everything, with my thoughts and experiences.

I want to thank Mz_Teneale for the nice session in the chat, and would like to encourage everyone to join the chat to make it more fun.

subsense

[Fenris]

Just wait It'll get worse


much worse

[all2true]

what a great plug for the chat forum!

Perhaps it will encourage more people to chat?

4 teases a day?
that's quite a few
Is she picking out the teases?
Or are you going with the randomiser?
(Not sure which would be worse)

[Mz_Teneale]

I hope your enjoying yourself sense

You see. This is what happens to good boys, they get little teases from girls in the chat. But i want you guys to know. If you log into the chat and ignore everyone except me or another girl, and you can only focus on one thing, chances are we will ignore you to.

The chat is about everyone. And just cos its on a sexual site, that doesnt mean its a sexual chat. If you log in and there are only guys there, imagine all the things you can talk about! Meet new people who are interested in the same things as you!

I might have to design some chat rules designed by the mistresses to A) make the chat more enjoyable for everyone, and B) add a little sexyness to it

ps. Sense chooses the teases via the randomizer. Its all up to him from now until he collapses, i have no bearing on him

[deviant1]

Great post sense....and good luck!!

A few nights ago, we had a little game of truth or dare in the chatroom with Princess Raquel and I had the dare of rubbing Icy Hot on myself, I really loved it, so I think I'm off the check out Churn and Burn!!

It would be nice if we had some regular nights in the chatroom, that way everyone would know to show up, is that something that could be set up Mz_Teneale?

Ok, so now where did I put that tube....

Deviant1

[Mz_Teneale]

the point im trying to get across is to always show up.. not just on specific nights

[Fenris]

though some nights I prefer being the only one in there... I also stopped answering that "are you a m or f" question.

More fun to keep people guessing

[deviant1]

I see your point Ms_Teneale, it may just take a while for people to start hanging out there, I'm in right now, so if anyone would care to join me

By the way, I loved Churn and Burn....very hot!! No pun intended...

Deviant1

[sense]

First of all, thanks for all the reactions (both in this thread as in the chat, which was getting pretty crowded yesterday).

Following the chat I had with Mz_Teneale, I started our agreement and watched a couple of meninpain movies I had saved on my computer. It felt really unnatural and even a bit frustrating to watch them without any further stimulation, but i managed to hold myself.

After I came home from work yesterday evening (I work in restaurant during my weeks off from being a student), I started with the two evening teases.
The first one was Mike1978's Getting what you want, which had a lot of stroking and edging in it. I always prefer teases where I'm being told what to do (instead of the teases with a bit more roll playing in them, they don't really work for me) and this was really had me warmed up.
Next up was Emma's tease toy 3: Sara cutie turns nasty!, which was more of a cbt tease. I went through the tease until I was given the choice to go the store. It was nearly midnight at that stage so I decided not to go of course, but unfortinately that meant the end of the tease.

I went to bed with painful balls and a hard cock and luckily woke up with just the hard cock . I was pretty horny so started directly with the two teases;
So Near, Yet So Far
Can you obbey all our commands?1

So far I managed to complete all 4 teases without cumming, allthough it was pretty close a few times. It is starting to feel a bit frustrating, but I'm trying my best for Mz_Teneale. I'm going for an 8-day holiday to Portugal this sunday and am trying to deny myself until at least then.

sense

[cumhardy]

Nice journal sense, keep us posted :D
Sounds fun, I used to go in chatroom every night and wait around for someone to appear but most of the time people came in for 1 second then left without saying anything. Maybe now people will stick around a bit more I might start using chat again.

Sense, I was wondering... do you get to cum if the tease lets you or do you have to hold it in anyway?

[sense]

Short update

I was pretty busy yesterday so had little time to watch as much porn as i did the day before .
The most interesting of the last 4 teases i did was Your Receptionist Catches You. Plenty of edges again, which was pretty intense with a buttplug + balls pulled backwards. The 18 clothes pegs on my balls (which were still pulled backwards) were a bridge too far at this stage .

sense


-edit;
Today, in the chatroom, we had a nice game with the evil Miss Thompson. We had to guess a punishment that she had never thought of before. After a while she changed the rules and made us edge for each wrong answer :P. I had the luck of guessing something right, and the prize i got was: 'allowed to cum, but because your not allowed by Mz_Teneale, no prize .
I was allowed to at least ask Mz_Teneale i could cum because I earned Miss Thompson's permission. But since I'm trying to find out my limits, i won't :)

Another incentive for milovana members to join the chat though! It was fun Miss Thompson

[Mz_Teneale]

mmm, sounds like you had alot of fun Sense... Time for a new rule. I dont know if you followed Miss Thompson's orders, but from now on, you must do whatever a mistress on this site tells you to

[sense]

I'm a bit ashamed to be posting this, but today i accidently had an orgasm . I'm somewhat disappointed in myself for not lasting longer, allthough I did try to do the hardest teases and watched as many porn as possible .

It happened during the tease Summer check up, during one of the many edges...At some stage I guess I lost my self control, I tried to hold it in when I realized I was really close, but it was too late and the consequence was a ruined orgasm . Even with my balls tied up I somehow produced a pretty big load .

I hope I haven't disappointed Mz_Teneale too much (have no idea how long she expected me to last) and are now humbly waiting for any consequences.

sense

[Mz_Teneale]

Well Im glad that you didnt have a satisfying orgasm Sense. Im not at all disapointed because i didnt expect you to last too long. I knew with what you were doing to yourself you would eventually either mess up or cave in.

There arnt any punishments because i said you were allowed to cum at any time... This little game was only your benefit to see how long you could last holding back your orgasm while teasing your self 24/7. So i guess the only punishment you recieve is the ones brought on by your own disapointment and guilt.

Your now free to cum whenever you want. I hope you have fun on your holiday

[potveg]

just wanted to say thanks sense for sharing this thread & experience with us. it was brilliant to follow & you are one lucky guy to have 2 Mistresses taking an interest.
And thank you of course to Mz Teneale & the equally fabulous Miss Thompson for taking the time out of their lives to bother with any of us hopeless losers !!