"To anyone who has stood at someones side and looked into the abyss and found both charm, attraction and love, for we are not made up only of our light and happiness but also our darkness and sorrow. To deny the darkness of yourself is to deny half of who you are, and when you love, truly love, you need to love the whole person not just the part that smiles and waves, but the part that thinks murderous thoughts and knows that pain is both pleasure and temptation, but still thinks puppies are really cute" -LKH
"I am Nature's arm. Her spirit. Her will. Hell, I am Mother Nature, and the time has come for plants to take back the world so rightfully ours! 'cause it's not nice to fool with Mother Nature.- Poison Ivy
"I pray you pass out drunk with your best friend and wake up with his and her tattoos"- Jared and the Long Road to Love
"You do what we want, or I will peel your mind away like the layers of an onion. You DO believe I can do that, don't you?"- Nikolaos
"To anyone who has stood at someones side and looked into the abyss and found both charm, attraction and love, for we are not made up only of our light and happiness but also our darkness and sorrow. To deny the darkness of yourself is to deny half of who you are, and when you love, truly love, you need to love the whole person not just the part that smiles and waves, but the part that thinks murderous thoughts and knows that pain is both pleasure and temptation, but still thinks puppies are really cute" -LKH
"I am Nature's arm. Her spirit. Her will. Hell, I am Mother Nature, and the time has come for plants to take back the world so rightfully ours! 'cause it's not nice to fool with Mother Nature.- Poison Ivy
"I pray you pass out drunk with your best friend and wake up with his and her tattoos"- Jared and the Long Road to Love
"You do what we want, or I will peel your mind away like the layers of an onion. You DO believe I can do that, don't you?"- Nikolaos
Della,
I apologize that I have not been more active and reported more often. Work, as previously mentioned, and then my computer crashing have taken a toll. I have been able to make a little progress using my cell phone. Even though it has been slow I have crossed the line from happily horny to craven, needy, and desperate. The inability to scratch the itch seems to only make it worse. After a half page I am panting and having impure thought of going over, even if it is just a ruined orgasm. Having to do two ladders each day I play is excruciating. I definitely spread those out. Unfortunately, with limited play time they may be the only twists I complete that day.
I am also becoming extremely submissive. More then normal. When I see a well dressed beautiful sexy woman I don't think about having sex with her. I dream of worshipping her. Of pampering her. Of getting on my knees and begging her. I am so horny, but I don't want it to end. I throb, ache, and have a constant semi erection. I am caught between wanting to go over the edge, to really screw up and have a glorious full orgasm, and to be locked in chastity so this feeling doesn't go away, and I don't mess it up with my selfishness or an accident.
I am so horny and submissive right now. This morning while humping a pillow I fantasized about having a mistress (I wish) that took me lingerie shopping while I was locked in chastity. After she picked out some lingerie for me to wear she asked if it was alright for me to put it on in the changing room. While I changed she showed the saleswoman my chastity lock. When I was done she gave the key for my lock to the saleswoman to hold. I had to leave with my mistress and she said I could back another day to convince the saleswoman to provide me with the key.
To be involuntarily kept in this wonderful frustrating state is amazing.