Milovana: My Creative Team

[tjacobs222]

I have a fantasy I would love to live out someday and I have no idea how to go about this. Maybe some of you with alternative lifestyles, more familiar with the "other side" can get creative and suggest ideas for how I can turn fantasy into reality.

I am a middle aged male living in a somewhat southern major city. I'm in decent shape and attractive enough to appeal to most women my age. I have a dynamic personality and able to strike up conversation and "connect" with most anyone. And I'm just about as hetero as a man gets. Let me explain what will to some appear as a contradiction with that last statement.

There is nothing more beautiful and sexy, to me, than a confident, intelligent and attractive woman who takes care of herself. I'm into great backs, shoulders, arms and legs. Yes, a great ass and breasts are wonderful but a woman with a great back...ooh la, la.

Over the past few years, HOWEVER, I've discovered I have this insatiable desire to taste a man. I'm confident enough in my own sexuality to admit (at least to myself) that when I see an attractive wet cock, I have this overwhelming desire to tease it and drain it. Long and slow. Here's the contradiction. I find everything else about being with a man repulsive. I don't ever want to kiss a guy. I don't want to penetrate him or him penetrate me. I don't want to get cuddly with him or ever be in a relationship with him. In fact, I find highly effeminate men repulsive. Last year, I quietly went into a gay bar and struck up some conversation with a few men, not being sure where it would lead, but the more effeminate men turned me off. But the idea of sucking a man drives me crazy on occasion.

Here's the other part of the fantasy. I want to put on a private exhibition for a bunch of people I do not know and hope to never see again. I want to get really high and sit in the spotlight where an incredibly sexy woman strips for me, seducing me in front of this group of people. In a perfect world there would be both women and men watching. After she seduces me, I want her to control me and command me to stroke myself for the group. The room would be dark except for a light on me.

I then want her to escort a well groomed, clean and fit guy into the room who is wearing nothing but a towel. He has just come from the shower and knows what the group and I have planned for him. In front of everyone, they are quiet and mesmerized by the performance, I want to slowly tease him, causing him to drip for a long time as I slowly remove his towel only to discover a well hung delicious piece of manhood. Hopefully the group will feel open to pleasing themselves as they watch.

They will know I am there to lose my bicurious virginity that night. I want to slowly suck him off to completion, drinking everything from him. It would be an bonus if while I am doing this, one or more of the women decide to finish me off with their hands and mouths.

The excitement of the exhibition along with having my first taste of a man's gorgeous, wet cock would, I hope, be one of the most erotic experiences of my life.

What is the best way to meet a guy who would enjoy being my cock for a night? How would I approach this guy about having his friends, guys and girls come watch? Any suggestions? I've spent zero time in the LGBT world and wouldn't even know how to begin.

[kinkyswan]

Have you considered visiting a BDSM/fetish group or swingers group? You'd have to be willing to invest some time getting to know people in the group, but anyone you meet in any type of sexual-oriented group is going to be open to talking about sexual fantasies. And while the person you happen to be talking to at a given moment might not have any interest in helping you fulfill your fantasies, he or she might point you towards others who would have an interest.

Also, check out events like Dark Odyssey (http://www.darkodyssey.com/).

What you're looking for is going to require the participation of a group of people, so why not start by seeking out people in a group or at a group event? One possibility, anyway....