Diary: Days of Denial with Amy

[Tobias23]

Yeah doing the series all over again is dull, and to be honest undoable for me, I couldn't emerge into the storyline anymore. If I can't get into the fantasy in my head, then I won't be able to follow with everything. Hard to describe, I just have to be in the right mindset to inflicht that much pain on myself (writing that down sounds even more strange, I hope you get what I mean).

And for the same reason I can't just go on and act like nothing happened, that would just ruin the fantasy. On the other hand hiding the key for the next few days, complete no touching, full chastity, is something I could imagine Amy doing to me. And it sounds horrible hard. And I am afraid Amy will keep me denied until the very end, thats another 9 days. I am afraid I'd loose my willpower to lock myself up at some point ... I crave an orgasm so badly even right now. AWWWW.

I still have till tomorrow to decide. Maybe someone has another idea that would work, and sounds like something Amy would do. *sigh* I wish there was a 'punishment for failing to follow orders from amy'-webtease.

[Nezhul]

Well I know something Amy would do. She'd double your next denial period, something like that.

[Pontos]

Don't be so hard on yourself. And my suggestion: keep locked three days with no action and move on with "More Days of Denial with Amy" and this diary...

[Tobias23]

Just had an idea. It seems pretty clear and resonable I have to keep locked up like this for a few days, without playtime or sessions. I hate that, but then again, it is supposed to be punishment. But how many days, you guys suggested three up to five. It's like an impossible choice for me, I am either too hard or too soft on myself.

So the Idea I had was to just roll a dice and go with it. Just a normal six sided dice. If I roll a one or two I was lucky, if it's five or six, well I don't really wanna think about that. So I have two numbers I am happy about, two I can ehhh deal with, and two I fear rolling. It sounds like a fair gamble. What do you think?

[Nezhul]

Seems good. A good old die is always a great thing for deciding.
Also you may use services like random.org where you can set the min and max numbers.

[Tobias23]

Nah I prefer a good old dice, I have been playing around with one for the last hour, afraid to do the deciding roll. And I have to admit the anticipation of the roll is quite ... hmm thrilling.

[Tobias23]

Day 7
- no webtease today -

So Pontos has refered to this thread as a diary, which got me thinking. It has become more than just a flimsy first attempt at this Webtease series, as I am right in the middle of it and intent to follow it through until the end. So I edited the front page to change the topic and I will be keeping an official daily entry, even if I am not allowed to do a webtease session that day.

And today is such a day. If any of my readers didn't read the posts between now and my day 6 report, no problem, I will summarize it. The facts are that I wanted to go on, but I had to get punished for my accident on day 6. Even if it was a ruined orgasm, cum did get out of my balls, and Amy didn't allow that. The conclusion was, that I would be locked up in chastity for a few extra days after which I would be allowed to contine my sessions with Amy.

But how many days? Well a simple six sided dice had helped many people before to dedice things, and as I didn't feel right to decide a chastity period on my own, I turned towards the dice for help. And a minute ago before I started writing this post, I finally let it roll:

Spoiler: show

Five ...

Well, I, uhm just have to accept that. Need things to keep me busy ... I will keep a daily entry here, and be happy for any feedback. Aww I was so hoping to get lucky.

[Nezhul]

hehe, I think that's what you hoped for deep inside after all

[Tobias23]

Nah, no. Pure chastity without anything to do is just dull, boring and frustrating. In reallife there are alot of things you can do to serve your Mistress even while in chastity, right down to the obvious things of licking her to orgasm. Even in an online relationship, you don't need to be let out of chastity to perform for her amusement infront of a webcam.

But with a webtease series, it's just waiting and waiting and waiting. Frustrating as hell.

I wanted to give myself only one day, but I do feel guilty about the accident in some way, and I do feel the need for punishment to free myself of that guilt. By rolling the dice I was free of that burden, absolving me of my guilt, and giving me the chance of a small punishment and still feel good about it.

[Pontos]

Five is huge! But definitely doable. Good luck.

[Tobias23]

Day 8
- no webtease today -

So second day of my punishment. I figured out that league of legends can be a good distraction. Also I downloaded two anime series to keep me busy during for the next few days. It just feels like time has suddenly slowed down and days are twice as long. *sigh*

[Tobias23]

awful night again, I feel like cheating, skipping ahead to the last day of the series and enjoy a nice session with cum instructions .... ahhhh

And then my pride kicks in. hmpf

[Pontos]

I hope the chastity and the bad sleeping does not affect your Reallife.

Cheating is not an option. Let me remind you, why we are here:

Why do I intend to write this public journal?

To be honest, to keep myself from cheating. I hate for people to see me fail, and after writing this big introduction it would be humiliating to admit failure and giving up. In that way it forces me to stick with this series until the end.

[Tobias23]

Yes, thanks, I know. I probably would have failed already if it weren't for you guys and this diary. Thanks!

And yes it does affect my reallife, of course. Some good some bad things. I can't seperate my kinky and my normal life. I mean just going to the bakery and buying bread from the nice girl behind the counter, feels different with a chastity belt on.

[sub3604]

Only 3 more days to go though before you can do next tease maybe Amy will let you cum on day 7 lol