Diary: Days of Denial with Amy

[Nezhul]

no it's just that pain, especially self-inflicted - is a hudge turn-off for me. Maybe, and even then only MAYBE, I could enjoy a real breathing girl I love to torture me. But hitting my balls myself just blows all of my arousal away.

[Tobias23]

Day 4
http://www.milovana.com/webteases/showflash.php?id=4701

Oh god, what a day. So many things happened, I have to start somewhere. Ok from the start, I woke up two hours before my alarm went off, with my cock pressing painfully against his cage. I went to the toilete but no way I could back to sleep afterwards, with Amy on my mind - "start day 4 first thing in the morning, i have a task for you".

I eagerly booted up my pc and started day 4, I was so excited I can't find words to to describe it properly. And the task wasn't at all what i expected. To sum it up, I had to go to a store and buy panties plus matching bra, check them out for at least 10 minutes, and answer with "I'm looking for something for myself" if I get asked if i need help. Well that kind of hit a limit set by me -> public outing.

Well just going to the store wouldn't be a limit, as much as I wanted it to be, so I had to do that at least. So I went to a store, out of town so I couldn't bump into anybody. And looking around for 10 minutes can be soooooo fucking long, I set my handy's stopwatch and put it in my pocket. I was sooo nerveous, I felt creepy lingering around the girly lingerie. I didn't get asked, luckily, or probably nobody wanted to address that creepy dude :). But I would have said "I am looking for something for my girlfriend", as a compromise with my limits.

And it felt good feeling the vibrations of my handy, finally allowing me to get out, FAST. Yes I got out without buying anything, as that was another limit set by me. I got panties and even a pantyhose at home, no bra, but still. I buy too much stuff for my sexual fetishes, and I told myself 'no more this year' and I intent to be honest with myself, thats why I put up that limit, so I won't get tempted by a tease.

Writing about it now doesn't to the task justice. It seems so simple, go in, look around, go out, BUT my heart was raising the hole time, butterflies in my stomach as I left my house, knowing what I was about to do. I can't describe the unbelieveable excitement and stress it put on my mind. ahhhhhhh! And finally doing it, having done it, I drove home with a rush of adrenaline you can't belive. I was so pumped up!

I went straight home, wanting to continue the day with Amy. I was on the edge so fast when she allowed me to stroke! I had to wear my panties and stroke inside them, and then today whe wanted me to hold edges! Ohhhh my panties got a nice wet spot from all the precum leaking out. Ahhh I was going crazy with lust. And Amy being Amy let me feel the arousal she feels when hurting me, spanking not only my balls but my cock and butt as well.

I felt so frustrated when the sesssion was over, and it was time to lock up my cock again. I wanted more, more, more and I want to orgasm, I am so horny! Awwww, I have to leave on my panties and not shower till tomorrow evening. Yes EVENING, I have to wait till the evening until I am allowed to start day 5! And I fear it'll be a no touching day as a peperation for the final day 6. Gosh I wish it would be day 6 already and I get to cum.

[Pontos]

Congrats to your trip! Maybe you should add a "Spoiler Alert" in your opening post.
I know what will happen on day 5 and 6. Thats why I'm really looking forward to your report

[Tobias23]

I did edit a spoiler alert in yesterday, but at the end of my post. I guess I'll make it bigger for new readers, as I really want to keep talking about what happens, and not put everything in a spoilertag :)

Thanks for mentioning it.


(edit) Put two spoiler warnings in my intro post, that should be enough i hope.

[sub3604]

Just in case anyone is wondering I got unlocked this morning and did part 2 of surrender which was difficult but I got though it. I am now relocked by carlilock till I can do part 3 however I can not tell you what my dice rolls were as someone else ended up setting it up for me.

[Tobias23]

Having a really hard time sleeping right now, took me a long time to finally fall asleep. And now I just painfully woke up from a sex dream, eagerly licking a girl from one orgasm to the next.

I guess without my chastity cage I would have had a wet dream. I am sooooo TURNED ON right now. I wouldn't mind eating a girls pussy until my jaw goes numb. I can't stop thinking about sex. One fantasy after another in my head! But each time my cock presses painfully against it's cage, I have to think of Amy, and her strict eyes as she stares me down. AWWWWWWWWWWW!

Any tipps on how to find decent sleep during so highly aroused days? During the day it is manageable, I can do things to distract myself, even if it's just playing a videogame. But a night, lying in my bed, I can't turn my head off!

[sub3604]

getting out of bed using a COLD shower on the cock and ball to get it down works when down go back to bed this disturbs sleep less than if you can't sleep because of the cage (each time you wake because of it back to the shower) also spraying baby oil on the ring and balls before bed can help prevent wake ups as it allows the ring to move a little without friction. If the size ring is right it won't come off. You then get some relief by just pulling the ball forward and the ring back

Nights get easier though once you get more used to the device wake ups get less and less

[Nezhul]

sleeping in a cold room generally helps me every time. It cant really be done in summer, but in winter if I cant fall asleep due to some reason I can just open the window a bit, wrap the blanket around and be sleeping like a baby soo enough,

[Tobias23]

Day 5
http://www.milovana.com/webteases/showflash.php?id=4702

Yeehaaa, I was allowed to stroke! It was such a torture waiting till the evening on a Saturday, and I was soooo afraid it would be a no touching day. The moment I looked at the clock and decided it was time to start the tease, my cock was pressing hard aginst it's cage. Such a relief when I was allowed to unlock it!

Stroking it never felt so good, and I was thanking Amy out loud and let myself fall deeper into the fantasy. I felt so naughty when she gagged me with my own panties. And when she went for my balls again, I hit them harder than the days before. I was so aroused, I am so aroused, willing to serve, willing to give my best!

Still I failed again at one command, as she wanted me to palm to an edge. My cockhead is just too sensitive. One Finger on the Magic Spot is fine, but palming the whole head with my hand is just pure agony. I took it until I was semi hard and then edged the normal way. Soon after I had to edge while squeezing my balls, it felt like I was squeezing out all that precum.

Only one thing was a bit dull today, her taunting about maybe letting me cum. I knew there was a zero chance of that happening, a day before the finale. But I guess when the series came out at first, people didn't know how many days it would be. I was just happy I was allowed to stroke, even though I wasn't allowed to cum. Just one more day before the (first) big final day.

I'm soo excited about tomorrow. She even told me to drink lots of water and start day 6 when I needed to pee. Gosh I love bladder control, it's just one more thing she can control about my cock. One thing that I am nerveous about is what she has planned for my cum. I like humiliating and messy things like giving me a facial, but I hate the taste. That'll be probably the hardest part for me in this whole series so far, if she orderes me to swallow.

Aww my cock hurts inside his cage, can someone please fastforward the time?!!!

[Tobias23]

Thanks for the sleeping tricks, I will try them tonight. I only got a few hours of sleep yesterday, so I am pretty tired, I guess that will help to fall asleep too ^_^.

[Nezhul]

Done. I can assure you I'm definitely a day ahead of you now, now I'll pause the time for a bit so polititians don't get too confused.

p.s. Warm milk with honey is a universal method too.

[Tobias23]

Hehe. Man waiting between sessions is so frustrating.
I mean technically it is Sunday over here, midnight was an hour ago hmhmm ...
But yeah that would be cheating, I know. Awwww.

It's like the closer I am getting to it, the more unpatient I become, to more eager and willing to play I become. I'm so loaded with sexual energy, if I had a Mistress in RL I would BEG her to let me lick her to orgasm. Meh now I can't stop thinking about pussy eating and facesitting. I'm never gonna sleep ... have to try that shower now, need to close Milo.

bb

[Tobias23]

Day 6
http://www.milovana.com/webteases/showflash.php?id=4703

"It's been so many days now... but you enjoy it I know!" - Mistress Amy


I don't know where to begin, it's been an emotional rollercoaster. I've never been mindfucked so hard in my life. Never. Ever. I've just been out on a walk for over an hour. Well more like 10 minutes and then I sat on a bench and let the chilly autumn breeze cool my head.

Let me start from the beginning. Sleep didn't come easy, I tried the whole cold shower thing on my cock, but getting out of bed, stripping naked, getting into the shower and drying yourself up kind of wakes you up too. Nevertheless at some point I was so tired, I finally got some sleep. And when I woke up, my cock was already more than ready to play!

I wasn't allowed to go for my morning toilete, as Amy told me yesterday she wanted to see me with a full bladder. My cock was so hard already, I had a hard time getting the tube off. And the rest of the session is a bit of a blur. Stroking and pain, so much pain in my balls. What I clearly remember is the point when she ordered me too pee myself in my panties...

Yes, I couldn't have done it if I wasn't so incredibly aroused. I got eight old towels out of my laundry basket, and then I just let go, right there infront of my PC. I felt so humiliated, submissive and slutty as my pee was soaking up my panties and running down my legs. And just when I thought I reached the lowpoint of my humiliation, I was ordered to put my piss soaked panties into my mouth. And NO it does not taste good in any way, it's disgusting.

I was humiliated and disgusted, yet I felt empowered for doing it, following her orders to the letter. Then more stroking, more pain, more edging. And then after holding an edge for what felt like five minutes, the page changed again...

Now I have to explain a bit, on a normal flashtease page you have the big black screen with the picture and text in it, and then on the right side a smaller pink frame, with either a button or a timer to continue to the next page. If you reach the last (!) page of a flashtease, the right side frame disappears, and all the background is in black. I don't know if it was intentional or not, but if it was, it was pure genius, because the last page of THIS flashtease still had the pink frame on the right side. There was no button or timer in it, as it was the last page, but it is not the first thing you look at when the page changes, so when the last page of this tease showed up, in my head I was under the impression there would be a next page. But there was no next page. Understood so far? Good.

So the page changed and it was in fact the last page of the tease (which I didn't know at that point). The first thing I read was 'Hands off!', and as I was fully emerged in the tease I don't think about commands anymore, I just do, so my hands went onto my back immediatly.

Then I read 'you don't get to cum!', which in head translated into something like 'you don't get to cum right now, you still have more edging and ballslapping to do before I let you cum'. Because as I said, I was under the impression there are still more pages, and I was sure I would be allowed to cum on my final day, it just would be on a later page.

And then I read on, and with each word it becomes more clear that she didn't lie just now ... I don't get to cum. 'Lock your cock and come back tomorrow for more days of denial with amy'. And then I realize there is no timer or button on the right side, and this really is it, this is the last page, no cumming, she really denied me for real. And that hit me so hard in my head. Such an incredible mindfuck.

That was the moment when I felt an orgasm rising, that mindfuck aroused me sooooo much in my head, it pushed me over the edge. My hands had been on my back for at least 10 seconds by now, my cock was just standing there in the air, and yet that mindfuck pushed me over the edge. The last thing I thought was 'this can't be' as my cum started to ooze out in an unbelievable ruined orgasm...

Now I don't know what to do, that is why I went for a walk. I feel guilty and bad for that accident, but I also don't feel responsible for it, my hand stopped early enough, I have been playing with edges for years, I know when to stop. I feel that I couldn't have done anything to prevent it at that moment, I didn't even know I could be pushed over the edge like this. And now I don't know what to do.

I can't confess to Amy and ask for a punishment and then go on. In surrender into chastity was a ruin section, where you could go if you had an accident. Not so with Amy. I want to go on and do day 7 tomorrow, I am still aroused, as it was only a ruined orgasm, but I can't go on and act like nothing happened. What to do

[sub3604]

Sounds like some sort of punishment be in order, here are two suggestions 1 start from the beginning again or 2 three whole days locked up reading though 2 days of the tease each day (one morning one night) unable to do any stoking due to the cb then when you get to day 7 you good to go.

[Nezhul]

not much you CAN do there.
You can start the series all over but I'm afraid it will be pretty dull.
You can try to PM the author but that would be pretty dull too, because he's not Amy.
You can just go on, because that wasn't your fault, but I can see why you don't like the idea.
You can punish yourself by, say, 3-5 days of no touching denial before you start day7. That will be horrible, but likely to be at least some kind of retribution, and will build up your lust to some extent.
You can mark this as a failure and try it again in a year, when your memory will loose most details, and it will feel more fresh.

That pretty much all I can think of.

Also that's the real problem with longer series. If you fail in the middle - starting over will be lame and the experience is quite ruined.