day 4 - hopefully my last day of ruining. please dont ruin my next
my morning ritual, i retry my initial stance with face down. but my neck is getting worse. i go and stand up. Legs wide, arms behind me and face the mirror. I tell myself i will drip this extra day just for you as i have treated you badly and i need to punish myself.
after that i give myself one edge (which i dont particularly like but i do this only to please you) i get in the shower make myself nice and neat again just for you.
I put on the tightest underpants i have so my junk touches the cloth at all times and i can feel myself when just walking without touching it with my hand. This is going to be a hard day (in multiple ways of the word hard ;) )
when i get at work i think my colleague who is sitting acros my desk is waiting for the sun to go down to earth as the is having major cleavage. lucky me i can see her all day. The thought of getting the picture scares me and i wonder if i can do it. I can ask someone but with what reason? i dont know. everyone talkes a lot at our office with each other about allmost anything so this would certainly get back at me at some point. so i elect not to try, at least not in the morning.
before its 11 o clock i cant contain myself. my dick is tingling all over the place, even dripping without touching it. i need to cum. i need to get it. im desperate.
i go over to the stall, unzip, my rock hard dick falls in my hand and i go nuts. i am enjoying it. its very very nice. when im some time in i remember i need to drip and get a little sad but my dick things otherwise he wants, no, he NEEDS to get going and so i do. I allmost cum but wait. ride the edge without touching, touch some more and then a door opens. HELL no i think to myself. and yes again, someone is going to be a long time next to me in the stall. im highly doubting to finish myself and go for the drip but after thinking about noises and such i put my fairly loaded gun back in my pants... im frustrated now. beyong any border.
i go out and take a small walk outside as im not thinking straight anymore.
when i get back i hit another level of the company where its much quiter and get my dripping over with. i offcourse (smell issues) eat it.
at this point i dont know what to do with myself. i cant cum im afraid of the picture not working out for me so i could fail my task. :(
time to get my gameface on. i shall be strong. i shall please you.
I get to work again... there are a lot of troubles by phone (thank the mighty god lord in the heavens) and by the time the rush passes its 5 o clock.
everybody went home. no pictures :( only me and my frustrated dick and balls. I need to get to practice soon so i go and drain again... allmost as a cow thats heading to the slaughterhouse. when will this stop. this day is so hard.
when opening my pants my dick instantly gets hard again. my underwear all sticky. Still im determent to please you so give you an edge because i think you deserve it. again i ride it. then re-do myself into dripping.
no-one enters the restrooms for the first time in ages it seems, that i can ruin myself without disturbance.
When driving home (about 30 minutes) i think about the wonderfull times i was allowed to have full orgasms. spraying my juice all over the place or in a hot thight pussy. even after cumming going on and getting every last drop out and some more, my dick can cut diamonds the whole trip home. (and typing this gets me rock solid again)
sports training again. my calves are already killing me so i take some vitamines to counter this, which tend to work wonders this time. I go and do my best but am still too haevy so i cant keep up the 1.5 hours for a full 100%
Now im home. sitting here, needing to drip one more time. And i hope one last time. But, this is up to you...
as for my letter, i will include it in this post;
Dear mr. Banquo,
You have made me do something i never thought i would have done. im very sorry i have been disappointing You with my reports not being daily and not taking the picture you asked me too. I can understand you need to punish me a bit more. I can however tell you that i try the best i could. I hope my best was good enough for you this time.
This is my first time doing something like this and i beg of you. have mercy on me, please. Please release me from my contract. At this time i dont even care how, where or when i can cum fullout. but i really want to fullfill your contract. I want to cum for you, but only if you want me to. I will cry out your name when i cum if you want me to. I will do anything.... but only if you tell me to.
Tonight, i will do another tease for at least 45 minutes. ruin myself, put it all over me, then lick it up.
I will be checking with this forum to see what you have in store for me next. if you decide to take control longer i will do my best to obey, but please be gentle. Please have mercy on me.
yours truly,
Duran Duran
always thinking about it,...