Only 10....cum on, you know you want to!!!!

[shell]

Spoiler: show

*looks in stunned this game is still going on* One of these days I should ask Dream to let me try.... Though I wasn't a fan of the last time she gave me 10+ orgasms in a day

*grin* Want me to ask her for you? *wicked smile*

Of course Miss Shell, if you like the idea / find it entertaining, you should ask her. I of course am happy to stay her denied boy, until she decides otherwise, though I'm sure if she says yes, she'd make me regret ever posting in here

There's only once that she's pushed me to have that kind of number of orgasms... I was tied in a spreader bar, legs spread wide, hands cuffed together near my head, as a hitachi with a masturbation sleeve (http://www.amazon.com/Hummingbird-Wand- ... roduct_top) around my cock. She made me beg and beg to orgasm, then I got in trouble for turning it off without permission to avoid an orgasm without permission, and was told I was not to turn it off until she said. She made me edge with it on low then turn it to high, and forced me to have my first orgasm, and then multiple ones after that. It got to the point that the pain from the post orgasm torment of that sleeve's little nubs tormenting my hard, throbbing, sensitive cock, would push me over to another orgasm, which became a vicious cycle of ruined and full orgasms. Me incoherently begging, before finally getting permission to stop, having spent over 15 minutes stuck with it tormenting my cock. It left me sore and wanting, and of so so desperate. *squirming* although I have issues admitting it, I must be like she calls me, a painslut, to have ended up having enough orgasms to loose count, many from the post orgasm torture, of it on high, on my cock.

Anyway... Would happily partake if it's something Mistress would enjoy doing, or enjoy having me do with my fiance and provide a full report.

And thank you for the kind words Della.

--Dream's Turtle

I have to say that I agree with Banquo here....(EDIT, and Della....)....I think you should ask your Mistress...make that beg her....even tell her that you will do things she knows you don't like, just for the privilege to do this task. *wicked smile*
You would do that............wouldn't you???? *wicked smile grows*

[DoxysTurtle]

Of course Miss Shell, if you like the idea / find it entertaining, you should ask her.

You mean you aren't going to ask.....beg Dream to let you do this challenge. You could still stay denied if you ruined them all.... Here is something to spur you on so to speak, I know you love a good bum!

Spoiler: show

Banquo

Oh course I'm not going to ask or beg. I like not knowing anything other than my fate is in the palm of her hand, to control and do with as she pleases... And as for 10 ruined orgasms in one day, I couldn't handle that. About 5 ruined orgasms was pushing me almost to the point of needing to safe word, so although if that was what she set forth, I would try my best, I simply am too much of a wreck from ruined orgasms to consider asking to do 10 in a day, or attempting it, unless specifically told to.

I have to say that I agree with Banquo here....(EDIT, and Della....)....I think you should ask your Mistress...make that beg her....even tell her that you will do things she knows you don't like, just for the privilege to do this task. *wicked smile*
You would do that............wouldn't you???? *wicked smile grows*

I would more than willing beg to do it, were I to know she wanted me to. I'm happy to allow her to have the decisions of what (if anything) I will be doing with my cock and orgasms. I prefer letting her decide, though if any of you want to talk to her, to influence that decision, well that's out of my hands.

[froodly2005]

froodly.....before anything........*I move up in front of you and slowly and carefully wrap my arms around you, pulling you to me.............I hug you for a very long time....my warm, soft fingers gently caress your back and then as the the embrace begins to end...my fingers come up to your face and I look at you, knowing your instinct will be to look down...I force you to look at me.......and see my bright smile. I speak softly and you can hear the pleasure in my voice....you can see it in my eyes and my smile*

I am so, very proud.......so very honored..........so pleased............so amazed!

*shiver* *quiver* *grateful smile* *beginnings of actual happy tears* (involuntarily nonverbal at a moment of intense positive emotion)

Thank you for this gift of your report. Thank you for doing the tease/task. Thank you for being safe!!!! Thank you for all of the compliments you gave me. Thank you for being an amazing submissive!!! *bright smile continues*

I enjoyed it very much, Ms. Shell. (As you may perhaps have figured out by now from reading my report, no? ) It always attracts me to see partners who play with each other intensely but respectfully, put safety first, and manage each others emotions with kindness. That was in fact what drew me into this task, seeing you had mastered this art of painful nurturing.

As for "amazing submissive": thank you, that's a compliment I've never received before. You are very gracious. I do not think of myself as naturally submissive, and indeed do not behave so in real life. Though I freely admit to being a honkin' big masochist, who longs to be enjoyed as such. It is an extremely joyful feeling to be so appreciated.

I have done many spread sheets for many things. One that I have done the most is for when I have a certain amount of spankings I need to do and where they are going to be and how long the scene took, when I was done. So it was really cool seeing someone else do that. *Smile*

It appears we have a number of unexpected traits in common. As well as the expected ones.

Usually when someone says they are adding things to a tease of mine....I get frustrated, because I think, "what was wrong with the way I did it?" But I didn't feel that way with what you added. The things you added were perfect!! *Smile*

Yes, I think I understand and sympathize with your point of view here. After all, you've gone to some effort to design the scene, putting in a great deal of thought about the logistics, what's possible and what's not, what are the potential safety issues, what sort of person will get something out of it, what the emotional dynamic will be as it progresses, and probably a thousand other things. Then some clown comes in to your event and draws all over it with crayons -- that must be deeply frustrating for you.

So I knew any alterations would be a risk, and I'm glad they worked out. I appreciate the grace with which you treat my alterations.

I very carefully adhered to your "no toys" rule since you made a specific point of mentioning it, though it wasn't what I would by nature have done. Similarly with ruins instead of edges and full orgasms, since ruins aren't part of my usual masochistic vocabulary either. I felt that if you were going to go to the effort of asking for something specific, then I should at least go to the effort of listening to you and giving it a try. If I couldn't do it, well, that's one thing; but to ignore you would have been at best ignorant & rude. I may not always be able or willing to comply, but I am always willing to listen.

The remaining modifications were things I added only after thinking about it for a few days. Thinking rather obsessively, as it happens.

• The nudity was calculated to intensify the feelings of vulnerability.
• The thanking you was calculated to ease the feelings of loneliness and despair that are the unfortunate attendants of ruin.
• The collection of cum was calculated to appeal to your requirement for documentation, giving you hard numerical evidence of how thoroughly and successfully you had drained me.
• The not looking away from the screen was calculated to intensify desire and frustration.

So I'm quite happily tickled to hear that you approve of those modifications. *happy quiver*

There were two things that I really enjoyed about your orgasm, by orgasm, report. I liked watching to see how long each one took, and how long you waited before you started again. You pushed yourself, not giving yourself very much time between a good many of them.....and that fasinated me.

Ah. Well, that was a bit of a surprise. You see, Ms. Shell, I have at best limited experience with ruins. It turns out that since they do not relieve one of mental or physical desire, it's actually fairly easy to go back to work quickly. Now, if those had been full orgasms, well... the refractory period would eventually have reared its inconvenient head. And therein lies a suggestion for a future trial, no?

Another point is that I was somewhat afraid I would not be able to make it to 10, so I wanted to get in as many orgasms early in the day as seemed reasonable. This fear was well-founded: I hope you noted that orgasm #9 took over an hour to achieve! I was seriously beginning to sweat it, wondering if #10 would have been feasible in the remaining time.

The bottom line seems to be: an hour's break after several orgasms is fine, as illustrated by the break between #7 and #8; more than that lets my body relax back into a nonsexual mode from which it's difficult to be roused, as illustrated by the ginormous times required for #9 and #10.

The main indicator of difficulty, how hard I was trying, is the elapsed time for each round. The longer ones were a lot of effort, especially at the end.

I'm deeply grateful to you for telling me that this entertained you. Please understand clearly: that is not subspeak exaggeration in a scene, it is sincere. I am actually grateful to you for showing me your enjoyment.

I am sorry that you struggled emotionally and that no one was there to embrace you and encourage you. I do hate that about this world. In the outside world, there would have been a lot of touching, to remind you that you were doing so well. *gentle smile*

Yes, reality has a number of well-known defects such as this, does it not? Absent the ability or opportunity to be there, I appreciate your kind words. Indeed, the hope of eliciting this sort of kind and nurturing response from you is a big part of the reason I had sufficient respect for you to attempt your trial.

I have not had a chance to look at all the videos you shared....but I will and will comment on them seperately........when I have watched them all.

I hope you enjoy them.

If not, please just remember that people have a wide variety of tastes and individual quirks. These reveal a rather embarassingly large amount about my psyche. For example, I love the idea of a happy domme who grins and enjoys playing with the gift I offer her of unrestricted and painful access to my body. It makes me feel useful, wanted, and good -- hence the phrase "painful nurturing". So a large amount of the video themes center around that.

Thank you for the picture of your cum. *bright smile*
If you said it, and I missed it, forgive me.......I am curious...........what did you do with the cum you collected? If you got rid of it...I would enjoy knowing how you felt when you were doing that.....
If you drank it....again...I would enjoying knowing what was going through your mind at the time. *smile*

I didn't say, but in fact I disposed of it. I had considered drinking it for you, but there were at least 2 issues in the way of doing this:

• First, I had already presumed somewhat on your design of this trial by adding several "personalizations", and I didn't want to push that. After all, I don't really know you, so I decided to err on the side of respect for your intent.
• Second, as you can see this was collected over a period of many hours. As a safety issue, I had to think about bacterial contamination. So it was either repeated trips to the refrigerator just as I was about to cum (doesn't sound likely, does it?) or tolerate the bacterial growth at room temperature and forgo drinking it. I suppose I could have used 2 containers: one to cum in, and then after each orgasm take a trip to the fridge to accumulate the goods, but that seemed an extra complexity that would distract from the nice, simple, clear nature of the trial which was to see if my sexuality could take a beating and enjoy it.

Since you asked how I felt upon disposing of the cum: kind of mixed emotions. On the one hand, this is just some now bacterial medium that needs to go in the trash; so, yuck. On the other hand, this is the product of my body extracted under great effort over a long period of time, the longest I have ever thus spent in my entire life -- and I'm now throwing it away? On the (lend me one of your hands?) third hand, I was kind of disappointed that it was only 7ml. Probably had I had the self-control to avoid orgasm the day before, I could have done a bit better for you, and presented you with more evidence of how hard you played with me, draining -- literally -- every drop of seminal fluid and every erg of sexual energy. So I kind of wistfully wondered about how it would have been if I could have done that, perhaps to earn a bit more approval.

*I lean forward and lightly touch my lips to your left cheek........lingering for a moment..............you feel my lips smile as I pull back*

*quiver* *shiver* *grateful smile*

BTW, I regret that I won't be able to do this very often. I only infrequently have the extended privacy needed; the rest of the time my home is a low-privacy environment, at least for this sort of thing. However, I do have the next 2 days, Thursday and Friday, off work and in an empty house with nothing but me and my libido for your entertainment... I just thought I'd mention that in case you had any suggestions as to how to spend my time.

[shell]

I would more than willing beg to do it, were I to know she wanted me to. I'm happy to allow her to have the decisions of what (if anything) I will be doing with my cock and orgasms. I prefer letting her decide, though if any of you want to talk to her, to influence that decision, well that's out of my hands.

Then, as always...your fate is in Her hands. *smile*

[shell]

froodly wrote:

*shiver* *quiver* *grateful smile* *beginnings of actual happy tears* (involuntarily nonverbal at a moment of intense positive emotion)

*brightly smiles* I like positive emotion!!!!

I enjoyed it very much, Ms. Shell. (As you may perhaps have figured out by now from reading my report, no? ) It always attracts me to see partners who play with each other intensely but respectfully, put safety first, and manage each others emotions with kindness. That was in fact what drew me into this task, seeing you had mastered this art of painful nurturing.

As for "amazing submissive": thank you, that's a compliment I've never received before. You are very gracious. I do not think of myself as naturally submissive, and indeed do not behave so in real life. Though I freely admit to being a honkin' big masochist, who longs to be enjoyed as such. It is an extremely joyful feeling to be so appreciated.

*giggles* Yes, I did sorta figure that out, all on my own!!

I have thought many times over the last 24 hours, about this "painful nurturing" ?thing? that you have mentioned a few times now.
I hadn't seen myself doing that....but now.....well, now I do....and frankly.....and embarrassingly said.....I am rather proud of myself for being the way I am in this area. *blushing smile*

It's a shame that no one had given you that compliment before, however it left me the honor in doing so. *bright smile*

I very carefully adhered to your "no toys" rule since you made a specific point of mentioning it, though it wasn't what I would by nature have done. Similarly with ruins instead of edges and full orgasms, since ruins aren't part of my usual masochistic vocabulary either. I felt that if you were going to go to the effort of asking for something specific, then I should at least go to the effort of listening to you and giving it a try. If I couldn't do it, well, that's one thing; but to ignore you would have been at best ignorant & rude. I may not always be able or willing to comply, but I am always willing to listen.

I think that was one of things I liked a lot. You went out of your comfort zone to not use toys, something you were not use to doing. And it actually worked out for you, teaching you something about yourself. *warm smile* It gives me pleasure knowing that I was a part of this learning.

I'm deeply grateful to you for telling me that this entertained you. Please understand clearly: that is not subspeak exaggeration in a scene, it is sincere. I am actually grateful to you for showing me your enjoyment.

*brightly smiles and receives your words and thoughts in the manner in which they are presented to me*

Videos -

I hope you enjoy them.

If not, please just remember that people have a wide variety of tastes and individual quirks. These reveal a rather embarassingly large amount about my psyche. For example, I love the idea of a happy domme who grins and enjoys playing with the gift I offer her of unrestricted and painful access to my body. It makes me feel useful, wanted, and good -- hence the phrase "painful nurturing". So a large amount of the video themes center around that.

Oh, trust me....I will not judge or frown upon any that aren't appealing to me. We all have different kinks and things that we get pleasure from looking at.
If I find one that doesn't suit me....I will X out and move on to another one. *Smile*
I look forward to looking them all over. *Smile*

I didn't say, but in fact I disposed of it. I had considered drinking it for you, but there were at least 2 issues in the way of doing this:
First, I had already presumed somewhat on your design of this trial by adding several "personalizations", and I didn't want to push that. After all, I don't really know you, so I decided to err on the side of respect for your intent.
Second, as you can see this was collected over a period of many hours. As a safety issue, I had to think about bacterial contamination. So it was either repeated trips to the refrigerator just as I was about to cum (doesn't sound likely, does it?) or tolerate the bacterial growth at room temperature and forgo drinking it. I suppose I could have used 2 containers: one to cum in, and then after each orgasm take a trip to the fridge to accumulate the goods, but that seemed an extra complexity that would distract from the nice, simple, clear nature of the trial which was to see if my sexuality could take a beating and enjoy it.
Since you asked how I felt upon disposing of the cum: kind of mixed emotions. On the one hand, this is just some now bacterial medium that needs to go in the trash; so, yuck. On the other hand, this is the product of my body extracted under great effort over a long period of time, the longest I have ever thus spent in my entire life -- and I'm now throwing it away? On the (lend me one of your hands?) third hand, I was kind of disappointed that it was only 7ml. Probably had I had the self-control to avoid orgasm the day before, I could have done a bit better for you, and presented you with more evidence of how hard you played with me, draining -- literally -- every drop of seminal fluid and every erg of sexual energy. So I kind of wistfully wondered about how it would have been if I could have done that, perhaps to earn a bit more approval.

Thank you for not assuming I would want you to do something. I respect that. *Smile*

I agree that drinking it, after the extended period of time would have me concerned for a few days, until it was proven that it had not harmed you in any way. So I am grateful that you did not do that. *Smile*

I did indeed wonder, if you threw it away, if you would not feel, like....you were throwing away all of your hard work. I think, if I was a guy...that is what I would have felt in doing that.

As for the amount that was collected...just like the size of one's cock...there is not a right or wrong amount/size.
I would expect some measurable amount on the first orgasm and maybe the second. But honestly, the pleasure I feel inside.....in the depths of my womanhood, when I see...."there was nothing coming out, this time....." or "there were only a few drops"......God, that fucking excites me!!!! *moans*

BTW, I regret that I won't be able to do this very often. I only infrequently have the extended privacy needed; the rest of the time my home is a low-privacy environment, at least for this sort of thing. However, I do have the next 2 days, Thursday and Friday, off work and in an empty house with nothing but me and my libido for your entertainment... I just thought I'd mention that in case you had any suggestions as to how to spend my time.

I got so tickled when I saw you put that little part in red, drawing attention to it. *giggle*

Well, then......you asked.....so I am giving. *Wicked smile* It would please me, if you would please do my web tease at http://www.milovana.com/webteases/showt ... p?id=13216

If you are unable to complete it, knowing already that you are unavailable after Friday......then no touching until you hear from me. Post on the corresponding thread.............and I will give you further instructions. *wicked smile*

[froodly2005]

BTW, I regret that I won't be able to do this very often. I only infrequently have the extended privacy needed; the rest of the time my home is a low-privacy environment, at least for this sort of thing. However, I do have the next 2 days, Thursday and Friday, off work and in an empty house with nothing but me and my libido for your entertainment... I just thought I'd mention that in case you had any suggestions as to how to spend my time.

I got so tickled when I saw you put that little part in red, drawing attention to it. *giggle*
Well, then......you asked.....so I am giving. *Wicked smile*

See... now, this is what absolutely ensnares me about you, Ms. Shell: an amazing depth of generosity. Here I'm thinking of myself as maybe looking too needy, not wanting to bother you, and you're being generous with your time and energy and affection, probably curious how much of it I can take. *quiver* This is an amazing emotional experience for me, to be actually wanted for my masochistic side.

It would please me, if you would please do my web tease at http://www.milovana.com/webteases/showt ... p?id=13216

A tease?! You've written a tease?! I had no idea! Really, no idea, or I'd have done it already. How could I have missed a thing like that? Obviously, I should have checked your profile for links. If you don't mind, I think I need to flog myself this afternoon for not thinking to check if you'd authored a tease.

Ok, here's my plan:

• In my time zone, the day is already a bit far gone, and I already have plans for this evening. (FYI: deep-tissue massage from a wonderful massage therapist who isn't afraid to work to the point of pain and beyond. I'm sure she doesn't understand why I like it, and I would never burden her with my reasons. But I definitely appreciate the intense grabbing of back muscles that leaves me pleasantly sore the next day. And both my spouse and my therapist encourage this, so... plans for the evening.)
• Also, I've already kind of used up today's energy. Remember those 3in thick butt plugs I alluded to? Yeah, those.
• So I propose to attempt your tease tomorrow morning. I assume it's something that I can complete in a morning? I'll attempt to keep some detailed notes on how it makes me feel, physically and emotionally, because it means a lot to me that you appreciate this. It's nice to be appreciated!

If you are unable to complete it, knowing already that you are unavailable after Friday......then no touching until you hear from me. Post on the corresponding thread.............and I will give you further instructions. *wicked smile*

Here we may have a negotiation point.

I'm not especially worried about being unable to complete your tease, because your obvious respect for safety has made me trust you a great deal. That means I'm more willing to try some new things for you, or enthusiastically repeat some old things if that's what's in there.

It's the open-ended no touch business that kind of scares me. As you've perhaps figured out, being ignored -- emotionally, physically, or sexually -- is kind of my personal psychological weak spot. Or pain spot, would be more descriptive. Open-ended periods of isolation like that are likely to be very, very painful for me, almost certainly beyond what you intend. We're talking anti-depressants and years of therapy, here. Combining that sort of depressive isolation with the sense of failure at not completing your tease would very likely have ugly results. I want to trust you as completely as possible, but I'm pretty sure you don't understand the depth of misery in the abyss into which you're asking me to peer.

So, some suggestions as punishment for failing the tease:

• 7 rapid-fire full orgasms, as fast as possible, with no pauses. Force me to take what I want, but in much larger quantity than would be enjoyable. Maybe post-orgasm sensitivity torture. Maybe require all of them to be ruined, since I've learned from you that this can be done safely.
• "No touch" until the next morning, upon which the 7-rapid-fire thing above happens, first thing in the morning.
• "No cumming" for a couple days, but edging is permitted and encouraged.
• Spanking and/or flogging. I have handy a ping-pong paddle (just 1, it's never been used for ping-pong ), a stingy flogger, a thuddy flogger, wooden spoons, and so on. Butt cheeks, balls, cock, thighs are all nice targets.
• Electro-torture: ErosTek 312, with various cock, ball, and butt attachments. Careful with the anal ones, though: they're more of a reward, for me.
• Suggest another tease, long on punishment, to be done by way of apology.

I don't think this will be an issue, since I really, really like you and really, really want to earn your approval and really, really want some nurturing pain. But I feel I must be honest with you about the dangers in my particular quirks.

I could attempt a day or two of complete and utter non-touching, but it would take a lot of psychological support. So if you really want the "no touch" thing, well, you're gonna have a very needy, unhappy bottom on your hands. And I may have to safeword. Sorry. Believe me, I really don't want to be like this.

[froodly2005]

I have thought many times over the last 24 hours, about this "painful nurturing" ?thing? that you have mentioned a few times now.
I hadn't seen myself doing that....but now.....well, now I do....and frankly.....and embarrassingly said.....I am rather proud of myself for being the way I am in this area. *blushing smile*

If you wil consider a bit of advice from me: you should be fiercely proud of this side of your nature.

Kindness is a rare skill, and should be admired wherever it occurs.

[Banquo]

Froodly (and anyone else who this might affect) I have a message from Mistress Shell for you. She is unwell today so will not be able to respond to things. She would like you to know that the "no touch" rule is no longer in effect and that she will be in contact as soon as she feels better.

Banquo

[froodly2005]

Froodly (and anyone else who this might affect) I have a message from Mistress Shell for you. She is unwell today so will not be able to respond to things. She would like you to know that the "no touch" rule is no longer in effect and that she will be in contact as soon as she feels better.

Thank you very much for telling me. I hope she is healthy and happy again very soon. Perhaps she wil be slightly cheered up later today with the report I'll write on doing her tease.

[Banquo]

Froodly (and anyone else who this might affect) I have a message from Mistress Shell for you. She is unwell today so will not be able to respond to things. She would like you to know that the "no touch" rule is no longer in effect and that she will be in contact as soon as she feels better.

Thank you very much for telling me. I hope she is healthy and happy again very soon. Perhaps she wil be slightly cheered up later today with the report I'll write on doing her tease.

I'm sure she will be feeling better soon *smiles* and I'm pretty sure she will enjoy reading your report. I hope you enjoy doing her tease, stay safe froodly.

Banquo

[shell]

Hello boys......*gentle smile*

This probably won't be as long as I normally reply, but I did want to come say a little something. I am not at 100% yet...but please no one worry.....I will be just fine. *Smile*

First.....Banquo....thank you, my sweet boy, for relaying my message here for everyone and especially for froodly. *smile* *kisses your lips softly* You are such a good boy!!! *bright smile*

froodly wrote:

If you wil consider a bit of advice from me: you should be fiercely proud of this side of your nature.
Kindness is a rare skill, and should be admired wherever it occurs.

*blushing smile* Thank you. Master has been working with me to accept and be proud of things about myself......so.......thank you....I am proud of my kindness and the fact that I seem to have this ability to dominate, but do so with a soft spirit. *smile*

***
I am going to put the rest in a spoiler *Smile*

froodly wrote:

Spoiler: show

See... now, this is what absolutely ensnares me about you, Ms. Shell: an amazing depth of generosity. Here I'm thinking of myself as maybe looking too needy, not wanting to bother you, and you're being generous with your time and energy and affection, probably curious how much of it I can take. *quiver* This is an amazing emotional experience for me, to be actually wanted for my masochistic side.

*warm smile* Well...*giggling*...I guess if my nurturing gets to much, you can call out a safe word...and I will attempt to be mean. *giggling*

Speaking of safe words....most people that know me, know of the words I use for safety. They are the safe words that Master has given me.
Red is Stop.....what ever is happening, it stops completely.
Yellow is Pause.....what is happening stops until the submissive or Dominate wishes to continue.
Green is Go......when Yellow is called, and it is "safe" to continue.....Green is called.

Ta-da! *smile*

A tease?! You've written a tease?! I had no idea! Really, no idea, or I'd have done it already. How could I have missed a thing like that? Obviously, I should have checked your profile for links. If you don't mind, I think I need to flog myself this afternoon for not thinking to check if you'd authored a tease.

So I propose to attempt your tease tomorrow morning. I assume it's something that I can complete in a morning? I'll attempt to keep some detailed notes on how it makes me feel, physically and emotionally, because it means a lot to me that you appreciate this. It's nice to be appreciated!

Yes, *giggle* I wrote one...months and months ago. I was going to start another...sorta did...but I am not fond of the flash thing....so, I will probably start from scratch and do another regular one.....if I ever find the time. *giggle*

As to whether you can complete it in a morning...that remains to be seen. Although it is a 45 minute task...*wicked smile*....Several boys have discovered that it takes more then once to get through it. *wicked smile grows* I can't help but wonder how you will do........

Here we may have a negotiation point.

I'm not especially worried about being unable to complete your tease, because your obvious respect for safety has made me trust you a great deal. That means I'm more willing to try some new things for you, or enthusiastically repeat some old things if that's what's in there.

It's the open-ended no touch business that kind of scares me. As you've perhaps figured out, being ignored -- emotionally, physically, or sexually -- is kind of my personal psychological weak spot. Or pain spot, would be more descriptive. Open-ended periods of isolation like that are likely to be very, very painful for me, almost certainly beyond what you intend. We're talking anti-depressants and years of therapy, here. Combining that sort of depressive isolation with the sense of failure at not completing your tease would very likely have ugly results. I want to trust you as completely as possible, but I'm pretty sure you don't understand the depth of misery in the abyss into which you're asking me to peer.

So, some suggestions as punishment for failing the tease:
7 rapid-fire full orgasms, as fast as possible, with no pauses. Force me to take what I want, but in much larger quantity than would be enjoyable. Maybe post-orgasm sensitivity torture. Maybe require all of them to be ruined, since I've learned from you that this can be done safely.
"No touch" until the next morning, upon which the 7-rapid-fire thing above happens, first thing in the morning.
"No cumming" for a couple days, but edging is permitted and encouraged.
Spanking and/or flogging. I have handy a ping-pong paddle (just 1, it's never been used for ping-pong ), a stingy flogger, a thuddy flogger, wooden spoons, and so on. Butt cheeks, balls, cock, thighs are all nice targets.
Electro-torture: ErosTek 312, with various cock, ball, and butt attachments. Careful with the anal ones, though: they're more of a reward, for me.
Suggest another tease, long on punishment, to be done by way of apology.
I don't think this will be an issue, since I really, really like you and really, really want to earn your approval and really, really want some nurturing pain. But I feel I must be honest with you about the dangers in my particular quirks.

I could attempt a day or two of complete and utter non-touching, but it would take a lot of psychological support. So if you really want the "no touch" thing, well, you're gonna have a very needy, unhappy bottom on your hands. And I may have to safeword. Sorry. Believe me, I really don't want to be like this.

First, when I said,

If you are unable to complete it, knowing already that you are unavailable after Friday......then no touching until you hear from me.

I should have been more specific with that. For that I apologize.
Other then my getting ill today, I had every intention of keeping tabs, to make sure that the no touching was not longer then was reasonable.

With that said.....darlin, we all have our limits. And I, better then most, understand yours. I have an ugly past that keeps me from doing some things that I know Master would really enjoy trying. We are working through those things, one thing at a time, very, very slowly.
I don't wish to be the way I am either....but acceptance of what is, and always striving to overcome....that's the key to not being bogged down by what you can't do, but being proud of what you can do.

Once you have completed the web tease......sucessfully......I want to try something.......
At any time......."Yellow" or "Red" is right there for you to fondle and caress. *soft smile*

I want you to start a new thread. The name....I wish for you to create. *Smile*
We are going to start out with no touching, once a day....for one hour. The only way it gets increased is for you to beg it of me........and of course, there will be little rewards along the way. You like rewards don't you??? *grin* I like giving them..... *wicked smile*....a lot!!!

I will keep the goal to myself................that way there is no fear to cloud you, each hour that you make progress with. *warm smile*

I do remember that you are limited in your online time.....so nothing I order.....you do like that word, right....*wicked smile*...nothing I order of you, will be time consuming, unless you have told me that you have such and such time free to do what ever I ask. *smile*

So.....whatcha think, boy....................wanna take a journey with me...........a journey that will be rewarding not only physically, but emotionally and mentally as well? *soft smile*

[froodly2005]

This probably won't be as long as I normally reply, but I did want to come say a little something. I am not at 100% yet...but please no one worry.....I will be just fine. *Smile*

Whew. Gladness.

Spoiler: show

So I propose to attempt your tease tomorrow morning. I assume it's something that I can complete in a morning? I'll attempt to keep some detailed notes on how it makes me feel, physically and emotionally, because it means a lot to me that you appreciate this. It's nice to be appreciated!

As to whether you can complete it in a morning...that remains to be seen. Although it is a 45 minute task...*wicked smile*....Several boys have discovered that it takes more then once to get through it. *wicked smile grows* I can't help but wonder how you will do........

I did my best for you; the tease took 4hr 22min for me to complete, with repeated icings. Sorry I couldn't do it faster; you'll find the report over on the thread for your tease. You can decide if I was successful or not, but personally I think I did all that you asked, and maybe a little bit more.

It's the open-ended no touch business that kind of scares me. As you've perhaps figured out, being ignored -- emotionally, physically, or sexually -- is kind of my personal psychological weak spot. Or pain spot, would be more descriptive. Open-ended periods of isolation like that are likely to be very, very painful for me, almost certainly beyond what you intend. We're talking anti-depressants and years of therapy, here. Combining that sort of depressive isolation with the sense of failure at not completing your tease would very likely have ugly results. I want to trust you as completely as possible, but I'm pretty sure you don't understand the depth of misery in the abyss into which you're asking me to peer.

...

I could attempt a day or two of complete and utter non-touching, but it would take a lot of psychological support. So if you really want the "no touch" thing, well, you're gonna have a very needy, unhappy bottom on your hands. And I may have to safeword. Sorry. Believe me, I really don't want to be like this.

First, when I said,

If you are unable to complete it, knowing already that you are unavailable after Friday......then no touching until you hear from me.

I should have been more specific with that. For that I apologize. Other then my getting ill today, I had every intention of keeping tabs, to make sure that the no touching was not longer then was reasonable.

With that said.....darlin, we all have our limits. And I, better then most, understand yours. I have an ugly past that keeps me from doing some things that I know Master would really enjoy trying. We are working through those things, one thing at a time, very, very slowly. I don't wish to be the way I am either....but acceptance of what is, and always striving to overcome....that's the key to not being bogged down by what you can't do, but being proud of what you can do.

Understood. I have some abuse issues that still follow me today, into late middle age. I can work around them, but my therapist and I doubt they can be eliminated, as they are now characterological in nature.

Once you have completed the web tease......sucessfully......I want to try something....... At any time......."Yellow" or "Red" is right there for you to fondle and caress. *soft smile*

I want you to start a new thread. The name....I wish for you to create. *Smile*
We are going to start out with no touching, once a day....for one hour. The only way it gets increased is for you to beg it of me........and of course, there will be little rewards along the way. You like rewards don't you??? *grin* I like giving them..... *wicked smile*....a lot!!!

I will keep the goal to myself................that way there is no fear to cloud you, each hour that you make progress with. *warm smile*

I do remember that you are limited in your online time.....so nothing I order.....you do like that word, right....*wicked smile*...nothing I order of you, will be time consuming, unless you have told me that you have such and such time free to do what ever I ask. *smile*

So.....whatcha think, boy....................wanna take a journey with me...........a journey that will be rewarding not only physically, but emotionally and mentally as well? *soft smile*

I am... intrigued. We'll need to talk a bit, though. First, my availability will be quite limited. Second, you really need to appreciate that you're waking a monster here. I've had severe depressive episodes in the past, with ugly outcomes from not feeling wanted. I won't burden you with the details, but I have good medical and psychological reasons to be afraid of abandonment and desexualization.

We'd have to figure out a way to make it safe. I don't know what that way could be, without knowing more what's on your mind.

[shell]

Hello froodly *warm smile*

First....I have a habit of giving people nicknames......especially, if I have no idea how to pronounce their name, if I don't know "what it means", or if something else pops into my mind.
With you, something popped into my mind.......and if you get offended...consider yourself bopped. *giggle*
I thought of the name "Frodo". No, I don't see you as a short, hairy person. *blushing smile*
I always loved the tender, vulnerable, passionate, intellectual side of Frodo.....so guess what dude.....like or not...and you best like it... *grin*....you got nicknamed Frodo. *smiling*
Only if you ask me not to call you that..............will I stop. *warm smile*

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shell wrote:

This probably won't be as long as I normally reply, but I did want to come say a little something. I am not at 100% yet...but please no one worry.....I will be just fine. *Smile*

You wrote:

Whew. Gladness.

I have to say...I got a case of the giggles when I saw that. Was the relief cause it was going to be a short post, or that I will be fine. *giggling, turns into laughter.....as my eyes twinkle at you*

***

I did my best for you; the tease took 4hr 22min for me to complete, with repeated icings. Sorry I couldn't do it faster; you'll find the report over on the thread for your tease. You can decide if I was successful or not, but personally I think I did all that you asked, and maybe a little bit more.

I will check it out as soon as possible. The weekends are always iffy as to my online availability, so bare with me on responding. *Smile*

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Understood. I have some abuse issues that still follow me today, into late middle age. I can work around them, but my therapist and I doubt they can be eliminated, as they are now characterological in nature.

I am... intrigued. We'll need to talk a bit, though. First, my availability will be quite limited. Second, you really need to appreciate that you're waking a monster here. I've had severe depressive episodes in the past, with ugly outcomes from not feeling wanted. I won't burden you with the details, but I have good medical and psychological reasons to be afraid of abandonment and desexualization.

We'd have to figure out a way to make it safe. I don't know what that way could be, without knowing more what's on your mind.

I will tell you what....before you begin the thread...........we are going to take this to private........I will write you a PM and go from there. *smile*

[cam_cocked]

Hello Miss Shell,

I'm relatively new here so I'd like to take a few seconds of your valuable time in letting you know of my situation.Of late,I've been immensely turned on by thoughts of being controlled and used.In reality though, I always like to be in control of things and forever have been the dominant partner in all my relationships.
I've never handled teasing very well nor have I ever given up control to a partner in reality.
It hasn't been very long for me here on Milovana but I've been extremely lucky to find a kind and caring Mistress who understands my situation and is helping me to push my boundaries and see where I fit.
I haven't yet participated in any of the teases/games that are here but my Mistress was very eager that I give this a shot.I intend to give it my best tomorrow (i.e roughly in about 2 hours time).I'm very excited about getting started but I'm not really very confident.

Here's my basic POA:
1)Getting an early start hopefully by 4 AM,so that I can have 2 short naps and time to recuperate before I get to my third orgasm.

2)Short breaks between the first 6 orgasms so that I can space out the last 4.
Starting at 4 am,I hope to get 6 done by the time it's noon.
Then I have 6 hours to try and do the last 4.

3)Never had a ruin and I'm positive I won't be trying that '9 ruins-1 orgasm' approach.

In case you happen to be still following this thread Miss Shell,thank you for this opportunity.I promise to be back with updates that'll surely make your day.

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[Mistress I can see why you've picked this for me.I'm sorry for being horny all the time and begging you to allow me to pleasure myself.I promise to be less demanding and a better behaved pet once this is done.]

[shell]

Hello Miss Shell,

I'm relatively new here so I'd like to take a few seconds of your valuable time in letting you know of my situation.Of late,I've been immensely turned on by thoughts of being controlled and used.In reality though, I always like to be in control of things and forever have been the dominant partner in all my relationships.
I've never handled teasing very well nor have I ever given up control to a partner in reality.
It hasn't been very long for me here on Milovana but I've been extremely lucky to find a kind and caring Mistress who understands my situation and is helping me to push my boundaries and see where I fit.
I haven't yet participated in any of the teases/games that are here but my Mistress was very eager that I give this a shot.I intend to give it my best tomorrow (i.e roughly in about 2 hours time).I'm very excited about getting started but I'm not really very confident.

Here's my basic POA:
1)Getting an early start hopefully by 4 AM,so that I can have 2 short naps and time to recuperate before I get to my third orgasm.

2)Short breaks between the first 6 orgasms so that I can space out the last 4.
Starting at 4 am,I hope to get 6 done by the time it's noon.
Then I have 6 hours to try and do the last 4.

3)Never had a ruin and I'm positive I won't be trying that '9 ruins-1 orgasm' approach.

In case you happen to be still following this thread Miss Shell,thank you for this opportunity.I promise to be back with updates that'll surely make your day.

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[Mistress I can see why you've picked this for me.I'm sorry for being horny all the time and begging you to allow me to pleasure myself.I promise to be less demanding and a better behaved pet once this is done.]

Welcome Cam and your Mistress *warm smile*

I'm glad to have you give this a go......and the only advice I can give, is to please use plenty of lubrication so you don't become sore, if your Mistress allows it. *warm smile*

Have fun and be safe!!! *Smile*