shell wrote:On that day, you are to orgasm 10 times in a 14 hour time span.
Rules....simple
1. SAFETY FIRST!!! If you are too sore to continue, stop. If you feel sick, stop. BE SAFE!!!
2. Drink plenty of fluids and eat plenty of protein. An extra snack here or there is a good idea.
3. Write a detailed report -NO PM'S - here, of your endeavor. Pictures are welcome, but not necessary.
Hello, Ms. Shell.
I hope it is not too presumptuous of me to attempt your 10-orgasms-in-14-hours challenge at this late date. Frankly, I'm quite impressed -- and somewhat amazed -- that this challenge is still going on for so long. Or perhaps I shouldn't be so amazed, given the natural interest in orgasms, and a bottom's interest in sexual torture! You are obviously a very clever domme to have so enticed the interest of so many bottoms.
Now, I am not by nature a submissive.
Masochist, yes; through and through! But the notion of hostile control by another is more than a bit awkward for me, for a number of psychological reasons that I'm sure would be too boring to enumerate here. Nor do I do very well with the prospect of an angry or bored top, for similar reasons. However, the idea of
collaborating with a domme who is respectful of limits, empathetic with the feelings of her bottom, and gleefully happy about the chance to play
hard with my body -- well, that's just
intensely attractive! In that circumstance, it almost feels as though I'm the one fulfiling the fantasy of the domme, by being her plaything. So what brings me here is your demonstrated attentiveness to safety, respect for those with whom you play, your love of intense play, and the warmth and kindness with which you imbue that play. You have earned my respect.
(And yes, I acknowledge that this is mostly inference on my part, based on rather thin evidence on the forums. I recognize that your profile says you are a switch, and partnered at that. I respect this fully. I also respect the domme persona you project here at Milovana.)
You mentioned that it would please you best is if most orgasms, perhaps all but the 10th, were ruined. I recall you saying to a previous participant that his description of a "miserable" 9th ejaculation pleased you greatly. I have to confess that I'm not that great at ruin or denial. Delay orgasm, yes, of course: make me edge 50 times in 1hr and I'm writhing in joy and frustration at your feet, trusting that you will
eventually take care of me. So I can't ruin all 10 for you; for this I am sorry. However, I did ruin the first 9 ejaculations ("first 9 ejaculations"?!) because (a) I could regard ruins as a rather extreme form of the edging that I love, and (b) you have shown pleasure at seeing others attempt this in the past.
I hope to give you some pleasure with this grateful and detailed report of my experience with your challenge and how it made me feel. You said these reports made you happy, so I am attempting a level of detail to be as accomodating to your happiness as I reasonably can be. So please be happy? It would soothe me and make me intensely grateful if you were.
Also, I must apologize for the self-centered nature of this post. I'm not normally so self-absorbed -- I
think! -- but you did ask to hear detailed reports about the experiences of those of us who take up your challenge.
First, I decided to elaborate a bit on your rules. I hope you don't mind that I imposed the following additional conditions on myself, in addition to the usual physical and psychological safety bounds:
- All wanking must be done completely naked. No clothing, not even a wristwatch.
- During (not after!) each ejaculation, I must say rather loudly, "Thank you Ms. Shell!" and express my thanks profusely. This applies to both ruined and full ejaculations, and I should attempt maximum gratitude for both. Silly, I know; but it's important to me to express appreciation in lots of aspects of life, including play.
- All sperm must be collected, and the volume measured as precisely as possible so you can see the extent to which you are draining me. I gather you might enjoy knowing the physical evidence of how hard you are making me struggle in this regard. :)
- No toys. (This one makes me a bit sad, because I love, love, love intense electrical and anal play. My favorite butt plug is the large bed-knob buddy, with a 3in diameter. I missed the ability to use it, but I also deeply want to demonstrate my sincerity by adhering to your rules. Since you said earlier that part of the challenge was to make it simply about sexual self-torture by stroking, I reluctantly forwent the use of toys. I was also considering a Hitachi to make the last orgasm into a bit of post-orgasm sensitivity torture, but did not in deference to your wishes.)
- I must keep detailed records for each round of the start time, stop time, duration, porn used, ejaculatory volume, and my feelings, to be reported to you here. (In fact, I actually kept a spreadsheet to record this information in real time. That's because I'm a big ol' nerd who overdoes that sort of thing. Hazard of personality, I suppose.)
- I am not allowed to look away from the porn used on each round at all. Also, I am not allowed to stop stroking, except perhaps very briefly to change position. I find this sort of fixed gaze and inescapable stimulation intensifies my masochistic feelings, both physical and emotional. I hope this is in accord with your wishes.
I attempted your challenge this past weekend, when I was faced with an empty house and an annoyingly intense libido. (Though, admittedly, the latter is more of a constant feature of life.) It was my intent not to touch myself all day Friday, so that I'd be ready to explode during the trial on Saturday. Alas, I regret to report to you, Ms. Shell, that I failed in this. I had an orgasm on Friday morning, which was not so unusual. I was thinking Friday night that maybe I could at least edge a bit, but that got away from me too. So I had 2 orgasms the day before your challenge.
While I am sorry to report this, 2 things I offer in explanation, if not defense. First, your challenge had me deeply and persistently excited for several days! Second, I thought this might amuse you a bit since it would make the struggle to complete your challenge that much more difficult, having cum twice the previous day. Perhaps the prospect of a bottom struggling so
hard to grind out that last orgasm would please you, especially since part of the difficulty is my own fault. At least, I hope so with deep and warm sincerity.
I've delayed a couple of days in writing this report so I can gather wits, process my feelings, and take stock of the physical impact on my body. As I am a man of late middle age, the physical impact was significant. And I thank you for it.
Orgasm #1:
Orgasm #2:
Orgasm #3:
Orgasm #4:
- Start time: 10:48 am
- Stop time: 10:55 am
- Elapsed time: 7 min
- Orgasm type: Ruined
- Ejaculatory Volume: < 1 ml
- Porn: Femdom fisting; very deep
- Feelings: I really, really want to use some anal toys, but Ms. Shell specified no toys. So this is both gorgeous and stirs a deep need within me. She's being both hard & gentle; combined with the music it's kind of romantic to me. I long to be treated like this!
Orgasm #5:
- Start time: 11:00 am
- Stop time: 11:11 am
- Elapsed time: 11 min
- Orgasm type: Ruined
- Ejaculatory Volume: just a few drops
- Porn: Femdom strapon & fist: thick dildo, very deep, long hard fuck by domme
- Feelings: Ok, I love femdom anal in case it's not yet obvious; my particular fetish is very thick strapons & butt plugs (3in thick used very roughly is where it starts to be fun). This is not quite there, but it's very deep and she uses it in a kind of lovingly abusive way. Ejaculatory volume is now down to almost nothing: < 1/2 ml of seminal fluid only.
Orgasm #6:
Orgasm #7:
- Start time: 1:01 pm
- Stop time: 1:22 pm
- Elapsed time: 21 min
- Orgasm type: Ruined
- Ejaculatory Volume: just a few drops
- Porn: CFNM Femdom discipline: spanking, strapping with great force
- Feelings: She's angrier than I can take. But she throw some real muscle into the strappings, and they last a long time. That must hurt like hell, in the best way possible. It makes me long for this sort of intense female attention (but without the anger). Very exciting to imagine being him, but even my tightest grip is taking quite a while to cum now. Best take a break.
Orgasm #8:
- Start time: 2:39 pm
- Stop time: 2:46 pm
- Elapsed time: 7 min
- Orgasm type: Ruined
- Ejaculatory Volume: just a few drops
- Porn: POV BJ from extremely beautiful Asian woman; lots of happy eye contact and knob polishing
- Feelings: That short rest between 7 and 8 really made a difference; it was much less of a struggle, as you can see from the time to orgasm. Gorgeous woman; love the eye contact, happy face, knob polishing. Time to cum is back down to 7min, after an hour's break. Ruin is oddly easier; don't know why. Ejaculatory fluid is still mostly clear, but still limited volume. 9 hours left to go, and 2 more orgasms; only have to ruin 1 more! Still, it's becoming quite a strain. I'm feeling more like I'm being involuntarily drained than having an orgasm. It's lonely, difficult, and emotionally miserable to keep ruining like this. I actually feel like crying sometimes. I wish a partner could take joy in my suffering.
Orgasm #9:
Orgasm #10:
- Start time: 10:48 pm
- Stop time: 11:20 pm
- Elapsed time: 32 min
- Orgasm type: Full!
- Ejaculatory Volume: < 1 ml
- Porn: Femdom strapon, emphasizing rough buttfuck and Final orgasm to Sensi Pearl's amazing cocksucking
- Feelings: Still took a very long time, and a lot of difficult effort to get to orgasm. Made it with 40min to spare, though. Hard to get excited enough; just partial erection at best. Worked through several normally exciting femodom strapon vids; finally came to a Sensi Pearl fellatio video. Final full orgasm not much better than ruined ones. Legs & abdominal muscles sore; cock tender. Time to sleep!
Total time spent stroking: 188 min.
I captured all the sperm ejected in this trial; the total volume was only 7ml. So little volume, for such an effort! That sounds a bit low, but perhaps it has to do with the 2 orgasms the day before. Also, the colletion efficiency wasn't 100%, since I ejaculated into a small dish and poured the result in to the graduated container you see below. Because of the high viscosity of seminal fluid, some probably stuck to the dish. Not a lot, of course, but over 10 ejaculations that adds up! Finally, the ruined ejaculations don't fully empty the seminal vesicles like a full ejaculations does (which only adds to the discomfort and disappointment, alas).
You mentioned pictures; I hope this documentary evidence of the degree to which you have drained my balls is acceptable, or at least humorous:
An interesting thought: as you can see, most of my tests ran toward watching femdom videos. But occasionally, I also watched some videos that were about women gratifying men. That's a bit unusual for me, perhaps pointing to some atavistic part of my sexuality that I hadn't considered for a while. You've given me something to think about, Ms. Shell. Thank you.
In retrospect, taking the break after orgasm #8 was not so great an idea. I mean, yes, ostensibly, it made sense to have lunch, run errands, and go about my Saturday. But the ultimate effect was that my body wanted no part of getting back to work on your challenge, once the flow was broken.
Thus the last couple orgams were quite miserable: it took over an hour to get #9, and it was a horrible jerking, twitching feeling in my gut with no pleasure
at all; my emotions nearly drove me to tears. This is the place where having a partner physically present would have helped: seeing the joyful sadistic grin on a partner would have helped
enormously.
But by myself, it was very hard. The physical frustration of ruin is no surprise; what always surprises me is the sheer
emotional disappointment, abandonment, loneliness, and feeling of being hollowed out! It's deepy painful, Ms. Shell! It is only because of the kind words that you've offered other bottoms in the forum that I even attempted this challenge, knowing it would probably come to something like this.
So perhaps in future challenges of this sort, it might be good to specify a single, several hour long session. (Or not, and let the bottom take the consequences? I'm obviously not very good at top-think.
)
The early ruins were surprisingly easy, given my natural resistance to ruined orgasms in the past. I absolutely
love edging, but haven't developed much affection for ruin.
The later ruins, on the other hand, became
much more difficult as the challenge progressed and my body's reserves became depleted. I really wanted to just stop, forget about the whole thing. The physical sensations were quite odd: as though my body were having an orgasm by remote control, without my involvement. Just a twitching in my gut and a small amount of fluid, and that was it. "Anticlimax", in many senses of that word!
The emotional pain at being abandoned was
excruciating! There were the beginnings of tears in my eyes, several times. However: the additional rule of saying "Thank you, Ms. Shell!" each and every time was something of an emotional salve. The fantasy that I could feel my suffering was being enjoyed somehow gave the suffering some meaning. With a happily sadistic partner, I could have been
slobberingly, tearfully grateful to have been the source of enjoyment. But alone, it was quite hard for me, not always in a good way. So I thank you for allowing me the fantasy of being observed by you, and thereby pleasing you with my pain.
As for physical condition: my cock was not exactly sore, but really quite tender. It's as if it were saying "leave me alone for a while". Sensible advice from a cock, for once. My balls were a bit sore, as were the muscles in my abdomen used in ejaculation. Honestly, they were less sore than I thought they'd be! Perhaps the soreness was from the persistent tension built up for so many hours, and then not being able to fire fully and satisfyingly at full intensity. Most of the physical soreness was in my leg muscles: perhaps from tensing up all day long hoping for the orgasm or struggling to reach it (only to ruin it). Soreness in my legs persisted for 1 day in milder form, and was gone on the 2nd day.
Unsurprisingly, I was very, very tired at the end. This was a lot of
work! Suprisingly, given the intense buildup, the full last orgasm wasn't actually that enjoyable either. The 10th full orgasm really wasn't that distinguishable from the 9 ruined ones, at that point. It was as though you had totally drained away all sexual capacity in my with those 9 ruins. I was truly sucked dry. I had considered doing 11 orgasms, just to demonstrate my sincerity -- but it was impossible. I apologize that I was unable to do this 11th sincerity orgasm for you.
Of course, you should not be concerned about this: everything worked again the next day. The next morning I wanted to verify that I had recovered, and all was well. In fact, the memory of the whole experence was so
exciting to contemplate that I could do 3 orgasms in fairly rapid sucession (2hr) on Sunday morning, and a 4th that evening. The ejaculatory volume was still a bit low, and the fluid was entirely clear. So I had refilled a bit on seminal fluid, but the manufacture of actual sperm took a couple more days.
The fact that I was so ready to go again the next day is testimony to the extremely exciting nature of this challenge. I'm sitting here 3 days later writing this report, getting
hard just thinking about it. At the risk of being repetitive, I again thank you!
Would I try it again? Well, probably not: not like this, facing alone the full emotional pain of so many ruins, and incapable of enjoying the release of the last orgasm. It was very difficult emotionally; what kept me going through it was partly my native stubbornness, but mostly the thought that you might enjoy this report. You
did make me suffer the consequences of some rather extreme sexual torture, Ms. Shell. I am grateful for the experience, and hope very, very much to have earned your approval thereby. As you can perhaps discover from this report, it is
extremely important to me in playing for my suffering to be the source of another's joy.
So if I were to repeat this, it would be with a physically present partner whose joy at my physical struggle and emotional pain could offset my emotional misery and transform it to masochistic joy. I could feel that my physical and emotional pain was a service to the greater good by creating joy in my partner.
On the other hand, the idea of total sexual exhaustion as a masochistic ordeal has some significant merit. You are, after all, very clearly onto something here, Ms. Shell!
So were I to do something like this again, I might wish to modify this assignment to require
fewer orgasms (say, 8?), but require them
all to be full orgasms. The struggle to get yet another orgasm would then be even more intense!
- Optionally, one could require the use of something like a Hitachi directly on the cockhead immediately after orgasm for 1-5min to turn each orgasm into post-orgasm sensitivity torture.
- Another option might be to have the bottom rate the intensity of each orgasm on a scale of 1-10; then impose a spanking penalty in inverse proportion to the intensity. (Cum hard, get a few hard but congratulatory swats; cum badly, get your butt beaten to remind you to cum harder next time.)
- I would also allow (possibly require?) the use of progressively thicker butt plugs -- it becomes quite hard to ejaculate with a 3in plug in, and that makes the double-bind message of "cum, but struggle for it" that much more intense.
The theme, I think, would be a bit like the sexual and psychological equivalent of judo: you note what your partner is trying to do, and make him do
more of it to the point of a pratfall.
A possible alternative would be something like an extreme number of edges. Say, edging 100 times and then applying the Hitachi for a minimum of 15 minutes, no matter how soon or how many times the bottom cums. The best strategy is to avoid cumming early, because that then becomes 15 minutes of post-orgasm sensitivity torture. Again, the theme is the same: use the bottom's greed to trick them into getting too much of it, and then offering sympathetic encouragement.
So overall, this was an good experience, Ms. Shell. The emotional pain of being ruined so many times while all alone was not quite something I can take easily, but the thought of pleasing you thereby makes it more bearable.
I have to say, this is a brilliant idea you have here: tempt bottoms who hunger for orgasm into taking
too much of it, and thereby suffering at their own hands. (In that regard, it is similar to post-orgasm sensitivity torture, a topic of some fascination to me.) Even more brilliant is the warmth with which you have treated the bottoms who have attempted it. This "painful nurturance" is exactly what so many of us masochists yearn for. I thank you for the momentary refuge from the world in this fantasy which you have so generously created.
Not to put too fine a point on it: thank you. I am deeply grateful for the chance to go through this ordeal. I am also deeply grateful for your example of kindness to bottoms, turning torture into a painful nurturance that feeds a powerful masochistic joy.
With deep gratitude: thank you.
I can tell you worked really hard at this! Good Work! 
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