Lovely community. I would like to say thank you for your answers. It was quite hard for me to do this post. Your posts definitely were helpful. Thanks a lot for that. Right now after a fews days my thoughts, feelings, nearly everything is still confused. I wish that this mind-confusion will get ...

I am a silent visitor of this forum for 1-2 years now. And I am writing this thread because

I recognized this forum as a community with people that share values like honesty, fair-mindedness, heartiness, openness, helpfulness, …
The year is going to end and it was a really bad one for me
I ...