Thanks and goodbye

[Claudius]

Hello,

want to say the community a big thank you. I felt welcome for a long time and I know I am still.

I share a journey with you and this journey is over. I tried to perform a locktober in last month and it ended up in a total of 17 orgasms. I almost had every day an orgasm and it was right for me. In the end it was kinda vanilla fantasies and porns I used. That's it. My biggest kinks are big booty and big boobies.Or if the woman wears lingerie and pantyhose. Mild mostly verbal domination as a switch is a turn on and maybe delay my orgasm for 15 minutes.

All in all I was searching for a strange kink but everything was a disappointment because the only thing I really look for is a person I can share sexuality with and feel secure enough to be my true self. Not like a tinder date trying to use each other as sextoys.

I think that is my current quest I have to solve and that also means to me to say goodbye to that whole thing of kink-rollercoaster. I have to put my energy in getting a person that a woman could find interesting enough to be my girlfriend. I used all this stuff like a drug and it is my fault, but I don't see a way to use it in a healthy way by me.

I will jerk off on daily basic, enjoy the short joy but then have my mind free and focus on all the things that are really important. Not thinking 24/7: I need so bad to cum. Where is the next porn to put on an extra teasing. I felt like a junkie and not good at all.

But everybody is different. I just really want to leave wioth a big thanks and let you know what happend. My big next big kink is to have sex with a partner that I love. I never had that before and I think there is that as a gap in my soul and I need to fill it and stop searching for a substitute in kinks.

Your Claudius

[RandomName]

Good for you man.

At the end of the day, that's all this should be about, being happy.

I myself am actually not a very kinky person, I've just had porn addiction which leads to requiring kinkier stuff to get off. If you're able to leave this world behind, and be happy doing it. More power to you, good luck in finding what you're looking for.

[edger477]

I hope you get to experience what you are looking for! It is really great, but not easy to find in big cities.