Today's task in 'Tease and Denial' week was a completely new experience for me in being submissive and in serving the pleasure of Mistress. Lots of new sensations and feelings; predominantly a growing sense of closeness with my submissiveness to serve and obey Mistress. The reality of the clear boundaries set by Mistress and my consent to this in this tease in further establishing her dominance and control over my orgasm is exquisite and my obedience to this act grows each day.
Last edited by Drewstix57 on Thu Oct 19, 2023 5:30 pm, edited 2 times in total.
I remained obedient and doing all the tasks given but I have to admit, that I'm quite busy (work work work ) so I have to skip the digitalisation & translation of my thoughts from Day 18 and won't get these points :(
Everytime I even think about the tease I feel a leaking and raging down in my panties and I hate & love it - On one side I wish it would stop (Event pledge really messes me up ) on the other side I'm a bit scared about not feeling the urge to cum anymore
Monthly:
1. I hereby pledge to wear my key on a Necklace during the whole of locktober. If I manage to keep it there I'll earn 50 CP at the end of locktober. If I fail to do so I'll loose 25 CP.
2. I pledge to do 20 Minutes of excersise three times a week for the remainder of locktober (W1: 3/3; W2: 3/3; W3: 2/3; W4: 0/3)(60/-30).
3. (Event): I pledge Go eat any cum and precum which exits my locked up clit during locktober. This includes ruined orgasms and nightly leaking (polluarche, subconscious ejaculations). Includes sucking on panties if there's anything in them. (60/-30)
Week 1:
1. I'll abstain from porn for seven days in a row. (+20 CP earned)
2. I pledge to watch a video (10 min) or listen to an audio (20 min) for the next seven days every day. (+40 CP earned)
3. I promise now that I'll keep my spa appointment (partial massage 06.10.) and go to it with my cockcage on (20 CP earned)
4. I pledge to post a picture of me wearing my shopping items when arriving (30 CP earned)
Update: Last part of the shopping lists shall arrive on monday
Week 2:
1. Whenever a woman asks something from me, I'm only allowed to answer "Yes" (50 cp earned)
2. I pledge to wear my body-writings for full 24 Hours. (+20 CP earned)
3. I'll practice sucking and deepthroating my dildo for 7 days 10 minutes a day. (+50 CP earned)
Week 3:
1. I will watch minimum 60 Minutes of porn every day for seven days in one setting. (60/-30)
Interesting audio choice once again buddy. Not really a ASMR guy but it's from Shibby and I loved it. A few of my items came in yesterday, and I was listening to/watching yesterday's stuff in the items, so the second video coincidentally matches a bit of what I was wearing. Will see what I get today, and I hope you have been enjoying my picks as well.
Pics as part of the pledge, should get the rest of items soon enough.
I dreaded this day, based on my experience from day 17. I thought stroking would be my end. Now, at first I wasn't sure there would be any, glove and even a key could both be used in some other way. But when choosing between tease and denial, I strongly suspected stroking was indeed what it was. And it was a hard decision. Not because I wanted to stroke that much, I wasn't that aroused, I could have deny myself without problem (at least I think so?). I'd prefer that choice, for fear of coming. But I also suspected that teasing would be worth more points and ultimately my greed won. I've started a 10 bpm metronome to keep myself really slow. To be honest I only kept that pace for first 3 strokes or so, but it still served as a remainder to slow down. At first stage I was stroking only the base. Then I continued higher, but spending most time on upstroke, barely touching myself when stroking down. I also didn't want too much visual stimulation, so I didn't look at what was on the screen all that much. On the third stage, I've looked on an empty cage, and it dawned on me that in not that long time I'll have to stop without release and lock myself up. That got me rather aroused, but there fortunately wasn't that much time left, and everything ended as it should. Getting back in the cage after this whole thing, that was a challenge. It took me 12 minutes to do that, and couple of unsuccessful tries. It kind of reminded me the first couple of times I tried to lock myself up, when just an image of a cage, or even an idea of being locked up was making me hard enough to make lockup impossible. Eventually I got it on, and the feeling of being locked is quite a bit different after some stroking.
At the end it turned out that my worries about today were vastly overblown. It was really pleasant, yet it didn't take that much effort to keep myself from cumming (or edging). I guess lesson learned is that watching porn for an hour directly before tease that features unlocking is not that wise of an idea. Now I'm not sure if I should worry about tomorrow. Today wasn't nearly as hard as I thought it would be, but tomorrow is said to be harder... The idea of stroking at some non-agonizingly-slow pace for almost any amount of time, or edging is still rather scary.
About finger in ass: I kind of knew that there would probably be some reward, just because there was an option for it. And that's mostly why I did it. That might seem like a calculated decision, and maybe it was, but when I thought about it later, I would be happy with anything, not just cagepoints. Some picture would have been satisfying. Or even a "good job, slut".
I don't know if not showing how many cagepoints denial vs tease is worth was deliberate or not, but I'd prefer to know. I did check after locking myself up how much points there was for denial, and it turned out it was less, as expected. I'm not sure how frowned upon just looking at the day for the second time (without actually completing any orders) is, I'm not aware of any rules against it. It does break immersion a little bit though.
Will things get easier once porn pledge and tease and denial week end? Or will it get even harder? What will next week's theme be? Can't wait to check it out.
I really thought hard whether I should just get denied and have easier sleep tonight or get some pleasure that might cost me. I decided to pick pleasure, thinking that I will probably regret it later and oh it was really pleasurable . I kept a good distance from the edge though so I had to stop myself a few times. I liked the secret points part .
Also the sensation was really different, for context I am uncut so I usually don't use any lube, so being very lubed up + using a glove so that there is no direct skin contact + freely stroking after 19 days of denial was really weird. It didn't feel the same as a normal jerk-off. It felt unnatural at this point .
I also liked that the tease didn't say how long the session would be, I was really pacing myself and didn't dare to really speed up when this was suggested.
To get back into the cage I had to wait over 5 minutes, but it wasn't a problem. I stayed limp.
Also my smaller cage has arrived so after today I am straining much more inside, especially with my PornBuddy task. But I hope it will be more comfortable in the long run, because there is no more some space to grow when I am really soft.
Last edited by emma111 on Sun Oct 22, 2023 11:11 pm, edited 3 times in total.
Locked from 0:00 until 5:40 am and from 6:14 am for the rest of the day.
+ 14 base cagepoints
I did use my gloved hand to finger my asshole + 5 cp
The chose tease and managed to play along for the whole time. Jeez it felt good until it was time to be locked up again. + 30 cp
Had a great time with my glorious dildo for the 7 day cocksucker training pledge +50/-25 cp
10 mins per day.
Also I watched 60 minutes of porn for the tease and denial pledge +60/-30 cp
18th locktober update
Name: Medoria
Genderidentity: Male
Cage: Tiny Metal Cage
Mode: 24/7
Pledge: 1) to wear the key to my cockcage on a necklace or bracelet during the whole of locktober (potential 50 CP)
2) become a hypnoslave for a week (potential 40 CP) (completed)
3) get-in-shape three times a week for a month (potential 60 CP)
4) go to the spa appointment caged (potential 20 CP) (completed)
5) showing my purchase on the forum (potential 30 CP) (completed)
6) personal pledge, chastity hint to 20 people min in a month (potential 100) (completed)
7) yes ma'am for a week (potential 50 CP) 08.10 (completed)
8) body writing for a day (potential 20 CP) (completed)
9) deepthroat training for a week (potential 50 CP) 13.10 (completed)
First Weekly Pledge: no porn for a week unless permitted ( potential 20 CP) (completed)
Third weekly Pledge: daily porn for an hour (potential 60 CP)
Basline CP: 20
Cagepoints: 1228 (5 from 23.09 and 5 from 25.09 and 7 From the event, 10 from 28.09, 132 (/5) edges and 5 (*2) ruins from 29.09, 10 from the second event, 20 from 01.10, 5 from posting on 01.10 in the forum, 20 from 02.10, 20 from 03.10 and 10 compensation, 15 from 04.10, 35 from 05.10, 30 from 06.10, 20 from 07.10, 25 from 08.10, 20 from 09.10, 20 from 10.10, 15 from 11.10, 10 CP from sole hits and 10 from butt hits and 10 from nipple clamps and 10 for ballbusting from 12.10, 25 from 13.10, 30 from 14.10, 30 from 15.10, 25 from 16.10, 30 from 17.10, 20 from 18.10, 10 from 19.10) + (Baseline CP 20x18) + (Pledges 4 (20), 5 (30), 2 (40), 8 (20), 6 (100), 7 (50), 9 (50)) + (weekly pledge 1 (20))
I was so frustrated and I just wanted to stroke even if it will cost me, the latex glove and lube made the feeling so strong for me and I edged in the first stage, I wanted more but forced myself to stop, glad there is a mercy system, I thought I wouldn't get anything
Thank you mistress blake
Monthly:
1. I hereby pledge to wear my key on a Necklace during the whole of locktober. If I manage to keep it there I'll earn 50 CP at the end of locktober. If I fail to do so I'll loose 25 CP.
2. I pledge to do 20 Minutes of excersise three times a week for the remainder of locktober (W1: 3/3; W2: 3/3; W3: 3/3; W4: 0/3)(60/-30).
3. (Event): I pledge Go eat any cum and precum which exits my locked up clit during locktober. This includes ruined orgasms and nightly leaking (polluarche, subconscious ejaculations). Includes sucking on panties if there's anything in them. (60/-30)
Week 1:
1. I'll abstain from porn for seven days in a row. (+20 CP earned)
2. I pledge to watch a video (10 min) or listen to an audio (20 min) for the next seven days every day. (+40 CP earned)
3. I promise now that I'll keep my spa appointment (partial massage 06.10.) and go to it with my cockcage on (20 CP earned)
4. I pledge to post a picture of me wearing my shopping items when arriving (30 CP earned)
Week 2:
1. Whenever a woman asks something from me, I'm only allowed to answer "Yes" (50 cp earned)
2. I pledge to wear my body-writings for full 24 Hours. (+20 CP earned)
3. I'll practice sucking and deepthroating my dildo for 7 days 10 minutes a day. (+50 CP earned)
Week 3:
1. I will watch minimum 60 Minutes of porn every day for seven days in one setting. (60/-30)
2. I pledge to edge to censored porn for 15 Minutes everyday for a week. (60/ -30)
) so I have to skip the digitalisation & translation of my thoughts from Day 18 and won't get these points :(
) on the other side I'm a bit scared about not feeling the urge to cum anymore 
)+
. I kept a good distance from the edge though so I had to stop myself a few times. I liked the secret points part 
.
+ 5 cp
