shell wrote:Guess what........with me, unless it's a repeated offensive.....apologies fix a lot. *warm smile* So I accept yours with a happy smile and heart. Thank you.
Actually, Miss Shell, I believe it's
my line to say thank
you. I thought you might be the forgiving type, being the sort of person you are.
I admit I'm still wrestling with having made you feel physically sick to your stomach because of my bruise. I must confine myself to fantasy for a while, until I figure out how to be safe for others, as well as myself.
shell wrote:Now, if you want that name back...because don't tell anyone, but I placed it on a shelf, right behind this cute little statue of a bound up cock
(Suppressing a sudden, intense interest in Miss Shell's collection of
decorative statues... well,
probably decorative... right, let's suppress
that thought or we'll get nowhere fast! Save it for later contemplation.)
shell wrote:.......*giggle*...if you want that special name back......now you will have to beg me all proper like........that is.......if you really, really want it. *eye brow raises......and a grin spreads across my lips*
(Notices Miss Shell's grin -- *shiver* -- begins thinking furiously about how this begging thing works... Notices the eyebrow... auuggghhh, not the
eyebrow! I was already gonna beg, you didn't have to whip out the Eyebrow of Irresistible Persuasion on me! That's just overkill... I mean, really, really
cute overkill, which I encourage you to use at every possible opportunity. Except that now I'm all distracted by
That Eyebrow. Think, froodly, think... no,
not about the eyebrow... save
that for later too. "Later" is gonna be a busy time, apparently... thinking about statues, That Eyebrow, ice... whew!)
Now, I probably suck at this begging business, since I'm more of a masochist than a submissive. But you do react positively to it, and it really sends lightning down my spine to see you happy. So maybe I could learn this, and get used to it. Just... make allowances for an amateur who's not so skilled, ok?
(...reads some Milovana, looking for instructive begging examples...) Hmpf. Lots of people, it seems, beg by emphasizing their own need. That's fine, especially since you
do seem to like hearing from needy boys! But it seems to me that that's incomplete: proper bargains, in my admittedly twisted little mind, should include those needs,
also something to meet the needs of the other person,
and something offered to establish goodwill. Those 3 parts.
So... "all proper like", as you specified:
Orans Feminae Cochleae: A 3-Part Canon of Begging (* translation below):
- My needy little bottomish self: Please, may I have a name from you, Miss Shell? I really do feel strangely bad about having met your kind offer of a name with unintentionally off-putting humor. I like to joke, but it was rude of me not to properly appreciate the name you offered me. I'm clumsy like that, regrettably often. And now I feel bad about being so rude. It would really relieve me of some guilt about that if you were to repeat your offer of a name. I dream about how good it would feel to have something so intimate and descriptive as a name of your choosing. And, of course, since you wanted to give me a name and I clumsily stomped all over that, it would be wonderful for you to be able to do what you originally wanted and for me to learn some tact. Please, Miss Shell?
- What you can gain from this: Now here's where we stop talking about what I want, and talk about what you might get out of giving me that name. (... ensconced behind that lovely statue which I must stop thinking about! Ahem.)
First, giving me a name would establish you as someone with the power to name things -- and make the name stick. For example, I initially had a mixed reaction to hearing the use of the word "boy" to any adult. But after seeing you use it playfully, well... it's kind of a rush to hear it now. By giving me a name, you could establish your reputation in the Milovana community as someone with the power to do that: Miss Shell names things in ways that make people pay attention.
Second, giving me a name would further establish your reputation as someone who sees into other people's hearts. There's a Japanese proverb that kind of sums this up: 名は体を表す ("na wa tai o arawasu", or "names reveal the inner nature of a person"). By giving me a name, you show my inner nature, and then Miss Shell is known as a woman of deep personal insight. (In case there's anybody left who doesn't already get that, which I admit is doubtful.)
Third, giving me a name completely seals your reputation as someone who wields power, but mercifully. Consider the example: you offered the name, swatted me gently for making a joke about it, and completely got me to change my tune, hoping to be relieved of a bit of guilt. This is power. This is also mercy. Any onlooker would realize these are both things of which you have complete mastery. (And no, there's no word "mistressery"; I looked. Pity, that.)
- What I can offer to establish goodwill: Now, here's the tricky bit: I need to offer you something you might want, not that I might want. For example, ice is surprisingly lovely, but it's more like a reward for both of us. (...reads Miss Shell's profile carefully...) Now, it says here on your profile that you enjoy listening to subs beg for you to do things to their bodies that they might not normally want done. Right then... (takes deep breath... little worried about this...)
So here are some things which I generally do not like, but which from you it would be a privilege to try: - Denial. Yes, I have issues with this, but... a day? or two? maybe three? Under careful supervision? You could both enjoy it for yourself, and think of it as a kind way of getting me to face my fears. We'd just have to pick the time.
- Menthol or capsaicin creams on my cock. Elsewhere, lovely; but on my cock they set the dorsal nerve on fire! I would, however, try enthusiastically for you.
- Zippers. Fascinated, but a bit scared of this. Fascination will eventually win...
- Something else of your preference that you would like me to try.
And thus my beg: (a) I really,
really want to accept your name with open arms, to relieve my guilt at having thoughtlessly not done so before and to know that I am accepted, (b) you would increase your already formidable reputation in the community as a kind and very well-liked domme, and I am
very willing & happy to be the object lesson by which you accomplish that, and (c) I offer you, at your choice, some things that might please you as a gesture of good will.
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(*) Latin, roughly: "Begging Miss Shell". Literally,
orans can mean begging, but often is more like "praying". A beggar in the streets of ancient Rome would have used
mendicans to beg for coins or bits of food, but that's not quite the right reverential flavor.
Feminae cochleae means something like "to the beautiful woman of the seashell". One would say
mulier for "woman" generically, but
femina is always used when one wishes to emphasize attractiveness. So, "Reverential Begging to the Beautiful Woman of the Seashell", more or less? (And yes, my Latin tutors have a great deal to answer for. Or would, if this were a just world.
)
And a
canon is a multi-part musical piece, with a leader (that's you) and followers (which is everybody else, 'cept Dr. D). It seemed reasonable for 3-part begging. Just don't ask me to compose music for it, because I
really suck at that.
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shell wrote:*giggles* I love making a man bow!
Well, then. All you had to do was say so. My bow is always available for you.
(smiles and bows slowly, deeply, and respectfully to Miss Shell, happy at the possibility she might enjoy it)
shell wrote:Hubby 2 would be so pleased with me.
Surely this goes without saying? Kinda hard to imagine someone
not being pleased with you, at least not for very long.
shell wrote:You see, he is an expert on the Lord of the Rings. Therefore his knowledge has dribbled down on me. He was the one that got me to read not only The Lord of the Rings, but the Hobbit, and The Silmarillion. We read them over the phone together, in the first year of our relationship. *giggle* Talk about one hell of a phone bill!!! *lol*
The
Silmarillion? Wow, you guys were really into the hard stuff! The
Silmarillion is sorta the gateway drug to things like
Farmer Giles of Ham, which is where, I believe, courts start requiring entry into 12 step programs.
Seriously, the
Silmarillion? Over the
phone? You
do keep stretching my imagination.
*passes a 
