Day 12 Report
Edges Today: 1
Edge Total: 13
Day 12 was like an emotional roller-coaster. Early in I had to complete my task for my twist again.
I lay out my bed and lay down, cock stiff from the thought of what I was about to do. I placed a pillows down and placed my trembling cock on the top of it. I began rocking back and forth, to build a rhythm speeding up as I found my groove

. As I felt the signs of an upcoming edge I backed off knelt up, looking down at the pillow as the feelings subsided. There were clear, smeared lines showing exactly how and where I had been fucking, my excited state I had left lines showing my exact movement during my task.. up and down, up and down.
I sat back down at the computer, feeling a little humiliated and feeling very dirty. It's one to fuck a pillow, humiliating and degrading in its own way but knowing I would have to write a report explaining exactly what I did makes my cheeks red.
Only a few minutes later I found my first edge of the day, little did I know it would be the only edge of the day. I was so excited, as my hand was sliding down my cock my hips were humping upwards into my closed fist. It was such an intense edge, it seemed to drop out of nowhere onto me rather than build. I had to put my hands in the air for fear I would fail, I let out a moan as the feeling faded away.
At this point I was too afraid to continue, lest I fail and ruin so much hard work and fun. So I took a break for few minutes, to calm myself. When I returned to the game, I found that I was going to have to fuck the space between the pillow and bed again.

I did the exact same thing, the poor pillow I had been using was starting to look a little... well
fucked, I placed my cock down and began moving back and fort but all the creases and folds caused from my earlier action where a hindering my movement and almost hurt as my cock slide between the folds. Turning it over I tried the opposite side and soon found my momentum, pumping my hips backward and forward, looking at the 'twist' on the computer as I did it.
Each time I finished fucking the pillow I sat back down to the Multimedia game only to find out I would have to fuck my pillow again. Knowing each time I could feel an edge rising up, I had to stop. Over and over again, I had to fuck my pillow. It's so different from stroking, it can be awkward and there are moments when the pillow folds a certain way and the next pump of your hips breaks the rhythm, forcing you to adjust. Overall for me at least, this gives more control I'm much less likely to get carried away as I have to think about what I'm doing at all times. (It might just be my pillows though).
Each time I got up, I seen another twist so I was back onto the bed fucking my pillow mercilessly trying to build speed with each thrust. Edging became easier, as the pillow seemed to develop a groove for me, I had broken it in.
After each twist, it became harder and harder to keep going. My frustration was growing, the heavy feeling in my groin building and I knew with each thrust of my hips that I wasn't even allowed to edge using the pillow. It was infuriating, aggravating, arousing and humiliating all the same time.
It became such an emotional thing, by time I was on my last twist I felt like I knew I would have to fuck, knew I wouldn't even get an edge and I felt as if any chance of release was fleeting, I felt like breaking down and weeping. When I knelt up after the last twist, looking down the fleeting feeling of what was an edge teasing me from beyond my reach, the tip of my cock red and a little sore from all the friction

, my thoughts changed from
"All I want to do is cum!" to
"I don't think I'll ever cum" the feeling overwhelmed me, I never thought when playing it would evoke such a reaction. I think it's because I'm putting my all into this and really trying to take it on as a challenge. I felt so defeated in those moments however. I never anticipated that.
I've also noticed it feels as if I'm being re-trained

the targets and twists make you focus your arousal on specific targets, then the next day those things turn you on more. The day after that they turn you on even more and so on. It's been an amazing experience so far but it's getting incredibly difficult for me now. I'm now officially 7 days over the longest denial period I've ever had.
I'm sorry for the size of the report. I tried to shorten it as much as I could. Welcome back Banquo :P