I'm Doing It: 30 Days of Denial
Posted: Mon Jul 28, 2008 9:32 pm
I've tried to go 30 days many times in the past and have failed miserably. The longest I went was 17 days. The problem is that I continue wanting to stroke and do webteases. After a couple of weeks, I literally lose control. I'll be determined to edge without cumming, but after a couple of weeks I won't even realize I'm near the edge and I find myself having an orgasm completely outside of my control. I'll let go so it's ruined, and I'm always filled with such disappointment that I made it so far without going all the way to my goal.
I realize the only way of doing it successfully is going 30 days without stroking or doing anything that pleasures the penis, like vibrators or my electro stim box. In the past I've locked these items in a trunk and kept the key at work. This didn't work. Late one night, I broke the trunk open, telling myself I'll only tease and deny myself, absolutely no cumming, but as I mentioned above, after awhile with no orgasm, I have absolutely no control over the orgasm. It just cums before I even realize I'm near the edge!
So this time I did something drastic. I took my lube, my elecro stim wires and accessories, and vibes, put them in zip-lock bags, put them in a shopping bag, wrapped them inside a garbage bag, taped it up really well, and wrapped that inside another shopping bag. I took them deep into the thick thorny trees and brambles on my property behind my backyard, and buried them! I have scratches and bug bites on my ankles. I could never make my way to the spot I buried them at night, when I'm at my most randy, even with a flashlight. I'd end up falling and impaling myself on a fallen branch or spraining an ankle. It was a big effort getting out there to bury the package and it will have to be just as big an effort to dig them up. I'm already a few days in, so I just have to make it the next four weeks with only porn and nipple clamps and my imagination.
It's when I'm in such a horny state that I get really creative and daring. I have a humiliation fetish that I'd like to take advantage of the next few weeks. I'll be such a walking hard-on that I'd probably do some things I wouldn't normally, such as going shopping for and trying on lady's clothes, make-up, and underwear, and then buying them... going to a gas station and pumping gas in drag, or going through a drive-thru... using sunblock to write SISSY on my chest and getting a tan in a bra and panties...
Okay so obviously all I can think of is feminization things. Does anybody have any ideas for humiliation for me?
I realize the only way of doing it successfully is going 30 days without stroking or doing anything that pleasures the penis, like vibrators or my electro stim box. In the past I've locked these items in a trunk and kept the key at work. This didn't work. Late one night, I broke the trunk open, telling myself I'll only tease and deny myself, absolutely no cumming, but as I mentioned above, after awhile with no orgasm, I have absolutely no control over the orgasm. It just cums before I even realize I'm near the edge!
So this time I did something drastic. I took my lube, my elecro stim wires and accessories, and vibes, put them in zip-lock bags, put them in a shopping bag, wrapped them inside a garbage bag, taped it up really well, and wrapped that inside another shopping bag. I took them deep into the thick thorny trees and brambles on my property behind my backyard, and buried them! I have scratches and bug bites on my ankles. I could never make my way to the spot I buried them at night, when I'm at my most randy, even with a flashlight. I'd end up falling and impaling myself on a fallen branch or spraining an ankle. It was a big effort getting out there to bury the package and it will have to be just as big an effort to dig them up. I'm already a few days in, so I just have to make it the next four weeks with only porn and nipple clamps and my imagination.
It's when I'm in such a horny state that I get really creative and daring. I have a humiliation fetish that I'd like to take advantage of the next few weeks. I'll be such a walking hard-on that I'd probably do some things I wouldn't normally, such as going shopping for and trying on lady's clothes, make-up, and underwear, and then buying them... going to a gas station and pumping gas in drag, or going through a drive-thru... using sunblock to write SISSY on my chest and getting a tan in a bra and panties...
Okay so obviously all I can think of is feminization things. Does anybody have any ideas for humiliation for me?
