Strict Denial - Your New Sexuality
Got that?
Good.
Now you have two choices.
One, you can lie back, rub yourself through your underwear, and get as close to the edge as possible thinking about this body you can never have, and how this will be the last time that you *ever* masturbate to it. Then you can ruin your orgasm - and I do mean ruin, edging yourself hard as you can until it takes just the tiniest touches to bring you sliding over, then doing everything you can to keep from squeezing that orgasm out in any way that would even be considered a pleasurable experience.
Or two, you can find porn where a boy masturbates to completion, or something censored where a man is fucking a girl like you. You can get a real dildo out, because you're a good slut already, and fuck yourself with it. And you can actually stroke yourself, knowing it's the *last* time that you can stroke yourself, as you fuck yourself on the dildo and watch someone else come. Get yourself close, let go, and try to ride the cock over. And then you can come - a really big, wonderful orgasm from being fucked.
Either way, that's the last stroking I'll allow you from now on. If you want to get off, you will just rub yourself through your panties, and grind yourself on your pillows.