Although you´re happy with your relationship things are not going too well in the bedroom. When you met Jolene everything was fine. You were happy to have someone in your life again, and sex, even though it was only vanilla, was fantastic.
But after a while you felt that special urge again. The urge to serve, to worship and to surrender yourself. Not as a boyfriend ... as a slave!
But no way that Jolene was into that kind of stuff! So you tried to push the desire away and went to watching porn.