You're going to WORSHIP BIG DICK for her.
Its what you really wanted.
Its why you're here.
Stroke 10 times.
Say it. Look your ex in the eyes and say clearly, "I will worship big dick for you, (Ex's name)"
10 more and say it again.
10 more and repeat it.
Louder, pornfag! I want to be able to hear it if I was in the next room. <grin>