You'll just go home and kill yourself rather than continue living knowing that you're the only guy in the world that can't get laid in a brothel. Soon the fear starts leaving your body as you slowly realize that's it's better to lose than never try. You become angry at yourself because you now realize that you have been condemning yourself to this life of involuntary celibacy. Your anger against yourself burns so deep that you finally get out of your car and head towards the gate to ring the buzzer. Sex is literally right in front of you, all you have to do is take it. You ring the bell at the gate and... you start to panic.