Russian Roulette with Therapist Rhian
Now I gather that this emergency session was caused by you having what you refer to as an "episode", wherein you have an incredible, and even uncontrollable desire to ejaculate.
Along with this biological urge, you have discovered that you have a strong preferences for humiliation and, well, lets call them "less-heterosexual-acts" for the time being. But, you continue to feel ashamed, insecure, and unwilling to explore these avenues, and so you try and look at regular erotica, which fails to excite you, and so, you reach the breaking point where you have to call in an emergency session with me.
Being aware of this problem is very important, so that in the future you can try and come to terms with your sexuality in a healthier way - both physical and phychologically. I'll leave those sort of progressions for Dr. Natasha to deal with, but in the meantime, I'd like to perform an exercise with you that I believe will help you take a big step in the right direction, and at the very least, let you get some rest tonight without this burden on your shoulders.