You're still here! You have no idea how excited that makes me. So many other men wont even think twice about swallowing their own load. They call it gay, but there is nothing gay about it, it's your own cum, it's a part of you.
Others get scared about actually doing it. Like somehow once they finally do it the urge and desire that makes them horny will be lost. I can tell you from experience that each time is magical.