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two weeks. ive gone without orgasms for two whole weeks! its difficult and rewarding all at the same time. trying to do at least one tease a day has proved to be a good choice. although it is so difficult keeping my hands above the waist when im not now. it probably doesnt help that i keep porn playing where it is visible to me when im at home.

i have noticed that the longer i am keeping myself denied, the more comfortable i am with feminine(?) things. i only wear panties now, and am always keeping my eye out for new underwear. during the teases that require anal penetration and blowjobs dont bother me as much. though, i have to keep an erection while sucking on a dildo to maintain my interest. i salute those ladies out there that naturally enjoy it.

my next goal would be diet, exercise, and sleeping habits. in my hornyness i have become very easy to turn on by asses. i dont know why. i marvel at them and now, even though i am male, i want to build my ass to look similar to those i am worshiping now. hell, why not work my entire body to look more feminine? does anyone have any suggestions that could fit all of this into a submissive lifestyle? i would appreciate your guidance and any help you could give me along this path, as i am in it on my own for now. so i am very eager to learn from those of you willing to teach.

im not sure exactly where this road is leading, but i do believe im starting to enjoy the journey.

just over two and a half weeks. things have really changed this morning, i am so fucking horny. i want to cum so bad. all i want to do is open some porn and stroke my cock off until it spews and spews and spews. i have never gone this long without getting off. but im still not going to. i hope at least. the past few teases ive done it has gotten rather hard to hold it back. but ive pushed on.

how long should i push myself? how long can i? im so horny and wanting to cum, but, if i stop now then i will loose all the progress i have made. this is harder than i thought it would be, and i hope my willpower can hold out. i dont have a chastity belt and im kind of wishing that i did. every now and again i find my hand instinctively wander do to rub my aching balls, or stroke my cock a few times.

i will try harder. i will not let myself cum. this is for all the females that read our forum. im holding my cum back in your honor.