Not wanting to cum???
Posted: Tue Dec 16, 2008 7:47 pm
Have you ever been teased by a partner (online or real) for some time and them still hoped he/she doesn't let you cum? No? Because to be hones, I have ... and i feel kind of strange about it.
Sure my fetish is to be teased and denied, but when the teasing starts the urge to orgasm should reach a point where you want to cum, where you want your partner to give you the permission. And if you reach that point, being told no (or maybe yes) is much more mind shattering, i think?
The Problem with me is, i like to beg. Begging a Mistress for something gets me aroused, well more aroused in the heat of the moment. Well if she doesn't like it, i obviously can't do it, but most seem to like it (in my experience). But even when i beg for an orgasm, there is STILL a little thought back in my head, who wants her to say NO. Why?
I feel more like I'm playing a role of the greedy sub who wants to orgasm, and sometimes (shame on me) i just want to see if i can get her to let me orgasm if i beg hard enough. But on the other hand i could kill the mood, imagine the situation: You've been on the edge for hours and she asks you with a sweet voice: "Awww poor boy do you want to cum, hmm do you?". And you say: "Uhm well actually I'd prefer if you tell me no again!" .... well yeah mood killer *laugh*.
So what am i asking of you dear Milovana community? Well probably only if you ever felt the same way. Do you always secretly wish your partner tells you no? Be honest, think about it. Or have to reached the point where you want your partner to give you the permission?
I haven't obviously reached the last point, the point where the thought in the back of my head also begs her to say yes. But i don't think its a matter of time, because i have been denied for 3 weeks, and i still wonder what might have been if she said no on the last day ....
Am i crazy?
Sure my fetish is to be teased and denied, but when the teasing starts the urge to orgasm should reach a point where you want to cum, where you want your partner to give you the permission. And if you reach that point, being told no (or maybe yes) is much more mind shattering, i think?
The Problem with me is, i like to beg. Begging a Mistress for something gets me aroused, well more aroused in the heat of the moment. Well if she doesn't like it, i obviously can't do it, but most seem to like it (in my experience). But even when i beg for an orgasm, there is STILL a little thought back in my head, who wants her to say NO. Why?
I feel more like I'm playing a role of the greedy sub who wants to orgasm, and sometimes (shame on me) i just want to see if i can get her to let me orgasm if i beg hard enough. But on the other hand i could kill the mood, imagine the situation: You've been on the edge for hours and she asks you with a sweet voice: "Awww poor boy do you want to cum, hmm do you?". And you say: "Uhm well actually I'd prefer if you tell me no again!" .... well yeah mood killer *laugh*.
So what am i asking of you dear Milovana community? Well probably only if you ever felt the same way. Do you always secretly wish your partner tells you no? Be honest, think about it. Or have to reached the point where you want your partner to give you the permission?
I haven't obviously reached the last point, the point where the thought in the back of my head also begs her to say yes. But i don't think its a matter of time, because i have been denied for 3 weeks, and i still wonder what might have been if she said no on the last day ....
Am i crazy?
