I need advice..
Posted: Wed Apr 26, 2017 8:35 am
Hi, I've spend all my life having heterosexual one night stands, and relationships.
I've had 1 fucktoy and 2 hot Slaves(not at the same time).
I've always tried out new sexual things, in one of my longer relationships we had periods where she was my Somme and I was the sub.
I've always though of things with guys, but never done it. All my threesomes were with girls, strictly because when it comes down to reality, the thought of a guy being involved freaks me out.
However, because of my job I travel ALOT.
Sunny beaches, 5 star hotels and all inclusive is routine in my life.
Anyways, during the last terrorist attack in turkey, I was there (not on scene) and the first week was casual, VIP massages, partying and getting laid.
Even went backstage at a fashion show and got some model "action".
Second week is where my struggle begins, i casually fall into conversation with a guy who is "leased" to the company, I guess you could say.
We become friends and continue meeting up long after, one night, drinking at his place he suggest a sleepover... and half drunk as I were, I did it.
We ended up being naked, he cuddled around me, gives massage and stuff, which I felt was highly provocative.
He constantly brushes he's had past the skin in my thighs, place above the dick (Venus mountain? The hairy place I have to shave every day).
While I'm really uncormfortable, I get kind of turned on and kept hoping he'd eventually grab my dick, he dident.
So the next morning i leave, and for Months we dont speak, my choice..
Eventually we meget again and drink, ate some food and i went home.. all forgotten, just pals again.. and while it's what I wanted, it saddens me? So one day while texting.. last week it got serious, he wanted me to come over and has left nothing to imagination.
Basically gay fuck fest galore, awaiting..
Anal, blows .. cum swallowing and he was very serious, he wants me.. I said yes.. supposed to come over next weekend .. not this comming weekend, but the next.
I'm afraid of getting cold feet, or it being awkward? I'm so confused, and turned on by the idea and the thought of it.
Help..
Oh and last, most important detail, I have a girlfriend, who actually said ones he was into me, but I didn't believe her. I was wrong..
She knows I like kinky shit, she likes some too, but I doubt she'd approve of this, and she's really hot and sweet so I wouldn't want to loose her, but something inside me tells me, this is something I have to do?
And worse.. what if I do it? And like it? And turn gay? I doubt special forces and homosexual goes hand in hand (SF is not my main occupation, but I signed a 10 year contract, so they can drag me in whenever they need me).
And I'm not trying to be discriminating, saying gays can't be tough, but I did grow up with a father telling me, if I ever turned gay he'd shoot me... plus a lot of people here don't like homosexuals (not that it includes me! I'm 100% supportive of people, whatever their gender of sexual orientation).
I need some advice...
I've had 1 fucktoy and 2 hot Slaves(not at the same time).
I've always tried out new sexual things, in one of my longer relationships we had periods where she was my Somme and I was the sub.
I've always though of things with guys, but never done it. All my threesomes were with girls, strictly because when it comes down to reality, the thought of a guy being involved freaks me out.
However, because of my job I travel ALOT.
Sunny beaches, 5 star hotels and all inclusive is routine in my life.
Anyways, during the last terrorist attack in turkey, I was there (not on scene) and the first week was casual, VIP massages, partying and getting laid.
Even went backstage at a fashion show and got some model "action".
Second week is where my struggle begins, i casually fall into conversation with a guy who is "leased" to the company, I guess you could say.
We become friends and continue meeting up long after, one night, drinking at his place he suggest a sleepover... and half drunk as I were, I did it.
We ended up being naked, he cuddled around me, gives massage and stuff, which I felt was highly provocative.
He constantly brushes he's had past the skin in my thighs, place above the dick (Venus mountain? The hairy place I have to shave every day).
While I'm really uncormfortable, I get kind of turned on and kept hoping he'd eventually grab my dick, he dident.
So the next morning i leave, and for Months we dont speak, my choice..
Eventually we meget again and drink, ate some food and i went home.. all forgotten, just pals again.. and while it's what I wanted, it saddens me? So one day while texting.. last week it got serious, he wanted me to come over and has left nothing to imagination.
Basically gay fuck fest galore, awaiting..
Anal, blows .. cum swallowing and he was very serious, he wants me.. I said yes.. supposed to come over next weekend .. not this comming weekend, but the next.
I'm afraid of getting cold feet, or it being awkward? I'm so confused, and turned on by the idea and the thought of it.
Help..
Oh and last, most important detail, I have a girlfriend, who actually said ones he was into me, but I didn't believe her. I was wrong..
She knows I like kinky shit, she likes some too, but I doubt she'd approve of this, and she's really hot and sweet so I wouldn't want to loose her, but something inside me tells me, this is something I have to do?
And worse.. what if I do it? And like it? And turn gay? I doubt special forces and homosexual goes hand in hand (SF is not my main occupation, but I signed a 10 year contract, so they can drag me in whenever they need me).
And I'm not trying to be discriminating, saying gays can't be tough, but I did grow up with a father telling me, if I ever turned gay he'd shoot me... plus a lot of people here don't like homosexuals (not that it includes me! I'm 100% supportive of people, whatever their gender of sexual orientation).
I need some advice...