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Hi Peeps,
I've been here on milo for a while and some of you I might've met in chat? But I was hoping some of you peeps might be willing to share your views on something that happened a lil while ago.

Me and my bf, or bf & I , toyed with the fantasy of cucking over the past few years. A lot of my teases were a way of teasing him about me cucking him. We tried role play in chat with me subbing to a certain member (hey you!) we explored it as a fantasy during edging sessions etc and for my birthday bf gave me the go ahead to cuck him as a prezzie.

Yay! I thought!

We had fun going out clubbing and me flirting with guys and all that stuff and eventually I found the right guy - not my type for a relationship, but cocky, arrogant, broad shouldered and powerful

So we go for a few drinks, me sitting on the guys lap in front of bf and all that stuff and everything is hunky dory and I'm loving being found so attractive by two guys at the same time. and seeing bf so turned on by me was a turn on for me too.

Then the big night comes and I play all subby for the 'big boy' he loves it, and the sex is good, but jus that: sex. For me it was all about me and bf, him getting to see parts of my sexuality he wouldn't ever see otherwise....like sharing more than is poss in a vanilla relationship. Like bf would never cum on my face, too disrespectful and he adores me, but for 'big boy' not a prob!
I'm being a bit flippant here, but it was kinda like the physical sex with the other guy was jus a way of performing for bf really, that's where the sexy part was for me.

So it's like this; bf & I have a female led relationship, we explore cucking, play it out, decide to do it and finally do.....& he chooses it as a prezzie to me.

And it is sooooo sexy to have a bf so uncontrolling who adores me and wants to see me having pleasure.....

But then he can't cope afterwards.....the jealousy kicks in.....he says he can't get things out of his head, not the big things, not even the facial, but weird little things like the way my fingers were delicate around the guys cock, as though I cared about him, stuff like that!

And he ends the relationship and we lose a fab thing.

Now, the relationship being female led, bf's orgasms were restricted and he was edged a LOT, (he pleasured me every morning of course )but given we played around with this idea for months, I don't think I manipulated him. I hope not anyway!

To me, I feel as though bf wasn't emotionally honest to himself or to me, but I am also wandering whether cucking is really something to be kept as a fantasy? And also whether peeps think I might've manipulated him, even if I didn't mean to? And if peeps think a relationship can survive this if he did come back? (JT, if you're reading this and do come back, your so going into chastity - jokies. Miss you poppet)

So any thoughts you peeps might have would be fab! This sexual exploration stuff sure is complicated

Thanx,

A

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I hear this quite a lot: the fantasy doesn't pan out as people think. I guess you only know if you try it and then learn to live with the consequences. My guess is it was all genuine and it's just one of those things. He may very well come to terms with it in the end but it'll probably be a long and difficult thing if you two do get back together cause until he can feel that what happened was about him (which gives him a huge amount of power, which may be confusing) he's only going to see it as external to him and he himself as not being a part of it, let alone controlling it. Hope it works out both for you; that at least you stay in touch.

I fantasize about being cuckolded from time to time, but I'm not sure I would be okay with it were it to actually happen. I imagine it is a pretty painful thing to experience when it's with someone you truly love. Therein lies some hope too, I think, as he must love you very much, to be left so scarred. Surely he doesn't want to just give up on the relationship?

What Flogger says makes sense to me: if you can convince him that you did it all because it was his fantasy and you wanted to make him happy, perhaps he'll see that he had quite a bit of control over the situation and he is at least as much to blame for letting it get out of hand (as it turns out), if not more so.

I really hope you can straighten things out, and I'm sorry this fantasy turned sour.

Thanx for taking the time to share your thoughts.....they gave me a lot to consider and made me give myself a good talking too as well.

With love,
A

Hey Cruel Ally, "Yantra Guy" here.

He will likely come back, he's just feeling certain emotions at the moment that are blocking him. You guys sounded very happy, and I can't imagine he truly wants to give all that up.
I think it may be a matter of confidence. His confidence in himself. If he could just see how much he is cared about by you. Whether or not that truth can become apparent, I don't know. It can be hard for most to understand their partner, let alone themselves.

All people need to feel a few things in some way or another: to feel safe, and to feel appreciated.

An interesting article about the topic:

https://mistressivey.blogspot.de/2015/1 ... ution.html

Admiral_Morgan wrote:I fantasize about being cuckolded from time to time, but I'm not sure I would be okay with it were it to actually happen.

Literally me in a nutshell