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Well this morning I did several edges (15)
while watching some porn Xhamster

I figured I was done for the day and had stopped for over an hour
when My mistress suprised me by teasing me some more, interactively
I can not give to many detials,
But it did envolve over 30 minutes of teaing
and a Ball gag (for me)

Ahh Just what I needed!

Oh I am still orgasm free.

Well today I did a challenging set
First I loaded up one of my favorite videos:
http://xhamster.com/movies/369287/the_m ... art_1.html
Then I put on a vibrating cock ring on pulse/vibe
and slipped myself into my Stoking machine:
http://www.roboticblowjob.com/index.php?page=buy

I kept the speed down to avoid going over
But still, it drove me crazy
I wanted to cum soooooo bad
I took off all toys when I got close to the edge
To easy to go over with these toys.
And then did 6 edges
Which may not sound like much but My desire to go over was very high
Was difficult to resist, but I did.
Still orgasm free

Well today I am not working
So I checke out the Chat room
DD22 was there
ansd we traded Tease challenges.
I have done this before, So I know myMistress, even though she is away would not mind
DD22 gave me
Cocksucker3
http://www.milovana.com/webteases/showtease.php?id=9978

Well I had a problem, I don't own a dildo.
But I got creative and used my Chastity cage
and licked that
I watched the little "hyno' slide show
and did the video
all while cleaning my cage with my toungue

Now after all that and the mantra's

I still, in fact am not a real cocksucker
Just not gay enough, literally.
I was briefly curious years ago
but I have discovered I am Hard wired Hetero
I guess I get the punishment for failing a task since I didn't have
a dildo to start with
But since I am orgasm free until January, three days from now
I will still be orgasm free so not much punishment,

Still glad to see Plp in chat
Hope my latest tease inspires more plp to write teases with chat interaction.

I also edged a little more today to this VERY hot video
http://xhamster.com/movies/466630/jerky ... arrie.html
Think I did at least 15 edges this evening.

Well for my last tease in Chat I was given the challenge to do:
http://www.milovana.com/webteases/showtease.php?id=5023
Little Devil
Well I had to quit
at page 12
I really could not even make the holding breath edges past 12 seconds.
And the Pinching of ballsWhile edging
well the pain actually almost sent me over!
Which is why I quit before I finished
Perhaps If I had not edged several times today I might have... no I don't think I can do this tease
was fun to try Did several edges.

Thanks Grunge

Well this morning I have done 6 edges watching:
http://xhamster.com/movies/415361/missi ... p_2_d.html
and later in the day did 6 more to:
http://www.spankwire.com/Ojou-sama-wa-H ... deo228525/

Todat I did something different

I hung around an empty chat room

I also occasionally did some edging
but I did it differently today.
After each edge I waited until I was totally completely flacid before I would try and do anouther edge

So each an every edge today has been exquisit
andquite difficult to stop
but I must not go over,

Feeling I feel a slight tingling in my feet, balls, cock,
My whole body feels warm
Each edge brings me back to agony and extasy of denial
I made sure to drink plenty of water so that all my leeking between edges was quickly rplaced

Have done over 8 edges this way this morning
waiting in an empty chat room.


Also I found the waiting the most excruciating
part of my day today.
Very intresting and intense.

EDIT:

Well after many hours finnaly got a game together
for Denial Circle
Played with Lesub
Mascot1
and myself

Fortuenaly for me Mascot lost
Otherwise I would have been toast
He followed all punishment
and then I edged 3 more time
I almost lost everything on that fourth held edge
But am gald to say I am still orgasm free!

If I play again today I am NOT participating.

Sigh I have a long day of work ahead of me.
Woke up extra early
and Horney as hell

Damn it was a real rush knowing others were orgasming when I am in denial.
I think my brain is so mushy now from lack of orgasm and constant teasing
My boundries are a little low, will have to be careful about that.

Anyway did 12 edges this morning to porn
Hentai porn on Xhamster. Some okay new videos up on
Hentai catagory today. I think that is all I can handle this morning.

It's kind of like each day I feel like my desire to orgasm is somehow greater than the day before
but each day I feel like I almost don't want any more.
And Yet somehow I do. If that makes any sense.
May post again late tonight.

Time to write is always limited on these long work days
so I just barely have to to stroke or edge before I am out the door.

Yesterday I did 7 Edges
Did use porn.
and this morning I only did 5

I am trying to give myself a bit more time between edges
So I don't have time to do a large number.

However, Just out of curosity I counted my strokes today
I was able to go from completely flacid to on the edge with 100 fast strokes
fantasizing about being forced to orgasm.

So I would say that my resistance is low.
I think I am getting to the point that I can almost get the Physcological feeling of an edge
without any physical stimulation.

Well I found a video I really like to wank to this morning
http://xhamster.com/movies/473131/itazu ... n_-_2.html
I am spacing out my edges again.
Which makes me drippy.

I did what may seem a whimpy 3 edges this morning using the wait-to-I-get-soft method
By the second one I was ready for my Chastity belt
after the third one- My mistress got involved
and Well

I begged for my chastity belt!
So I am locked up today

As she said, what better costume could I ask for for all Saint's eve (halloween)
I wonder when I might get unlocked.....

EDIT

This post has been taken down at my Mistress' request
Just this one post, not the thread.

Soo confused
My wife
The love of my life got very upset
about my chat sessions
Said, "It's cyber sex, I am your only sex partner. Fantasy is fine but NO cyber sex. We had talked about this before."
see: http://www.milovana.com/forum/viewtopic.php?t=2592

I really do love my wife,
and I don't even want to think about cheating on her
She really is the best thing that has ever happened to me.
So I don't know what I am doing today other than Denial.

Perhaps I should just not look at Milovana for a while (yaah right)
or stop porn, <FYI she is okay with both of those and has been for a while>
Just hate for her to feel like I betrayed her.
Note , Yes I did get permission to go to chat, and do "a tease in chat"
but she said she was tired and not thinking clearly when she said yes.

So I don't know what to do
Go back to doing random teases I guess.

Yesterday I was working On tweeking My Latest tease
http://www.milovana.com/webteases/showf ... p?id=10078
So I was doing a lot of testing
and Previewing

I ended up doing about 10 edges
Over the corse of Two hours

I really like the tease I created,
I made it just for me
So I can have a Unknown factor
And Yet still enjoy Denial teasing.

So I am doing My own tease
http://www.milovana.com/webteases/showf ... p?id=10078

That is after all Why I made it
First got the Ice path
But realized that I was getting the same instrucions, again and again
So I looked at it, stopped stroking
and Then went to work adding 4 Pages
To make it more random

Went back to the tease
And got my favorite path
Double Vibrators
One under ass other on balls
Got stroke 4 times a second page 5 times in a row
Was about to stop to see if it needed editing too
When I got Medium strokes Once every other
Made it to the next page Once every 3 second Strokes
And Edge

and got a HOLD the edge page
Eeak, with vibes?
Oooooo

Was tough didn't cum
Did one more run after taking off Vibes
and got the slow path
Well I was still very excited so I edged quickly again even with slow strokes
So I quit.

Very fun!

Alright I'll fess I did anouther 2 rounds ON my own Tease
Quiting in between, Guess I am a bit of a piggy/ glutton for punishment
The first I got Was Medium strokes path where it stays on Medium strokes
But I did make it past the first minute like that before I edged

Took a break
And then did the tease again
Got Vibe under balls on pluse and Vibrate
And then got slow strokes for the first 2 Min, One every 4
Graon and Edged on Stroke One every 3
Then I got anouther Hold Edge 15 sec hold
Oooooo
made it

Still Orgasm free
Now off to work!