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Here are my thoughts

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i am already getting desperate, and being made to write my thoughts down is making me even more desperate. Wearing my cage so much makes me feel incredibly submissive and horny constantly and resiting temptation is hard (unlike my cock...) the idea of a whole month withoutcumming is making me nervous bu excited to submit, especially the the daily hypn. I hope I can impress Mistress Blake and last the whole month!

ANOUNCEMET - PRICES

As an incentive here are the price, you could earn at the end of the month.

The five top ranks by the end of October 31st may choose one each of the following prices (each price is available once):

1) Naming the model to host locktoberfest 2024!
2) Giving me specifics (model, fetishes, paths etc.) for a personalized eos-tease
3) The same for a normal tease (2 times)
4) Getting a daily task (within your limits) via PN for a week.
5) The right of giving me a daily task (within my limits) via PN and recieving a report of its completion.

Maybe I'll think of more, but I'll keep you posted.
BTW Is anyone handy with graphics and could design some honorary pictures for us participants, if yes please PN and I'll give you Blake's requirements.

Locktober 3rd task: mental health
Total 40CP (20task + 20 baseline)

5th locktober update
Name: Medoria
Genderidentity: Male

Cage: Tiny Metal Cage
Mode: 24/7

Pledge: 1) to wear the key to my cockcage on a necklace or bracelet during the whole of locktober (potential 50 CP)
2) become a hypnoslave for a week (potential 40 CP) 01.10
3) get-in-shape three times a week for a month (potential 60 CP) 02.10
4) go to the spa appointment caged (potential 20 CP)

First Weekly Pledge: no porn for a week unless permitted ( potential 20 CP)

Basline CP: 20

Cagepoints: 278 (5 from 23.09 and 5 from 25.09 and 7 From the event, 10 from 28.09, 132 (/5) edges and 5 (*2) ruins from 29.09, 10 from the second event, 20 from 01.10, 5 from posting on 01.10 in the forum, 20 from 02.10, 20 from 03.10 and 10 compensation, 15 from 04.10, 35 from 05.10) + (Baseline CP 20x4)

It was embarrassing booking the appointment, I don't know what I will do, the appointment is literally in a few hours and I am straining already, any ideas or suggestions?
I already took the pledge so I can't back out><

Locktober 4th - Reflection
25 CP

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previous CP: 110

12 (from baseline)
15 (+5 reflection, +10 from sharing)
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current CP: 137

Reflection:

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Wow, what a week!
First, I would like to go over my feelings and experiences throughout the week.

The first thing I want to talk about is shaving. It's good that I bought a trimmer and hair removal cream; this combination helps me shave without razor burns and is effective for longer (it is also a lot easier to shave some places than with a razor). I shaved everything. I've shaved my legs from time to time, so having smooth legs is nothing new, but it was the first time I ever shaved my arms. Furthermore, I still can't get used to how smooth and feminine they look now that I'm typing this.

Next was trying to get a dry orgasm. I did try a lot, I came a lot, and I edged a lot, but the only thing that happened was that the refractory period was getting longer and my orgasms were getting weaker. Maybe I didn't edge enough before each of the orgasms? My final orgasm was the weakest of them all, with only a small droplet of cum oozing out, which was pretty unsatisfying and probably why I've been horny since day 1 :P. I had to use ice to get into the cage. Maybe my body was subconsciously trying to defend itself?

I took the pornfree pledge, and what I didn't consider before was that I often come across a lot of stuff that could be classified as porn. So I had to block some manhwa's and manga's I was reading, limit browsing Instagram, TikTok, Twitter, etc.

I really liked the hypnosis session. I blocked my other senses and enjoyed what I was hearing, letting go of all my thoughts. Not only that, but I fancied it enough to take hypno pledge for a week (only a week? :()

The workout session wasn't anything special, but I appreciate that Mistress uses her control over me to improve my physical health. I often don't prioritize it. It's also good that I didn't select running, as I had to use lube around my cage and reposition it a few times because it was rubbing during the workout.

On the 3rd of October, I woke up earlier to send a message to somebody, and I always lock up the cage right after waking up, so I did just that and then took a quick 30-minute nap. Then I had a dream that I was jerking off my cock. It felt real; I "felt" the touch of my hand and friction on my foreskin, and then BAM, I woke up to my small pink cage and my locked-up penis trying to get hard. That kind of fucked up my morning routine, but I appreciated how horny I got. That day also my legs were starting to get sore after yesterday's workout, so a guided meditation session and Wim Hof method really helped me to get my mind clear and my body relaxed.

One funny thing that has also happened yesterday and today is that when I shower and take off my cage to clean it, I have to use ice-cold water on my balls to get soft again. I have to endure a little torture for a bit of hygiene :x.

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That's all for the daily journal part, and now for "deepest and hopefully naughtiest thoughts"...
As I've said a week prior, my favorite fetishes revolve around sissification, BDSM, and humiliation. As I am still a BDSM virgin, most of mine fantasies include finding a dominant partner to explore our own kinks.
For some examples of fantasies I have (I'm not mentioning my limits, which I would consider IRL here, or safewords, or anything that would be required in a real BDSM relationship here):
- I would love to hand over control over my own body to a real mistress/master, so that I can be a useful slave for them, prioritizing their needs before my own.
- They'd use chastity and denial as a tool for my obedience.
- I don't like pain (e.g. CBT), but I would like it to be used against me.
- They'd punish me for disobedience but also reward me if I did a good job.
- I'd practice my oral and anal skills for them so that I could please them (and whoever else they wanted me to please).
- They would feminize me and make me wear pretty lingerie and makeup just to destroy all of that during the session by abusing me.
- I'd love to be tied up, used, and left
- Normal orgasms would be a rarity, and even then, they would probably be ruined to keep me horny and exploring other ways of achieving satisfaction.
- A man would make me cum a minute before their own orgasm. As I am not as attracted to men, when not horny that would be deeply humiliating (probably), forced to swallow his semen, when I am not aroused.
- They'd degrade me however they want, whether it's A2M, piss-play, cum-eating, spitting, body writing, photo-taking, or whatever else they find will humiliate me.
- They'd use hypno so that some of the lessons stay ingrained in my mind, whether I like it or not.
- Their influence on me would be more pervasive, whether it's in my private life, my mind, or my body.
I sometimes also have darker thoughts that seem pretty hot, but of course those better stay forever as fantasies, but one can always dream :).

Update: +42CP from 83 CP to 125CP

October 5th task.

My smooth legs and ass, unfortunately I couldn't paint my nails aswell x

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Update.

176 cp

update 148 point (shaved, baseline and a cycle of hot/cold shawer for the spa)

Player Profile: Kaelis

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Genderidentity: Transmasc, Bi as fuck
Cage: Metal Nano thingy
Mode: 24/7 mode
Cagepoints: +5+7+10+10+20+5+20+20+20+???+20+5+20+20+5
Daily Cagepoint Baseline: 20
Pledges:
- Wear Key on Person all month (50pts)
- Week 1 Pornfree (20pts)
- Week 1 Hypnoslave (40pts)
- Month-long Excercise Pledge (60pts)

Cagepoints Tally: 187

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Prep Week:

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23/9: 5 points
24/9: baseline +10 points (Metal, Tiny)
25/9: baseline +10 points 24/7 mode
28/9: partial shave - 7 points
29/9: 32 edges, 2 ruins: +10 points
30/9: achieved dry orgasm, +10 points from Dry as a Desert event.

1/10: Daily: +20pts+5pts. +20 pledge, +40 pledge. No baseline cagepoints. Searched chastity and hypno themed thingies. Did one of Shattered's teases, looked through some chastity captions, listened to some audio by Shibby, watched a 10 minute vid. Took Pornfree and Hypnoslave pledges. Shared image.
2/10: Baseline +20pts. Task +20pts. +60 pledge. Maintained "No other porn" pledge. Listened to a 20 minute hypno chastity file. Went down to the gym and did leg day a day early (hour and a half). And took the excercise pledge cuz its a gimme with my existing routine.
3/10: +20 baseline. +??? Task - got booted back to the main menu super fast after the timer, so not sure what the task was. Seems to be an issue that's been caught, maybe I'll have another look at it tomorrow. Listened to a 20 minute audio while jogging.
4/10: +20 baseline, +5 task - maintained excercise, hypno and no porn.

5/10: +20 baseline, +20 for being shaved. Had a really nice bath at home. +10 cagepoints. Kept up with pledges.

Today's update!

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Long bubbly bath, grooming and a manicure.

New points total: 121 + 12 + 20 + 10 = 163 points

Is it enough for me as a current task to flash my hair away with an IPL instead of shaving it to keep it straight longer?

points update 18 base points + 20 for staying shaved plus 10 for the spa day at home plus 15 for posting the below image a total of 53 points today so previous points 117 plus 53 makes current cage points 180

5th Day Locktoberfest:
Baseline cage points - 14 points
Extra cage points for beeing nice and groomed - 20 points
Extra cage points for getting appointment - 15 points

Active Pledges:
Going locked to the appointment (05.10.2023- 20 points
Hypnoslave Pledge (01.10-07.10.23) - 40 points
Get-in-Shape Pledge (October) - 60 points

Current points:
110 CP + 14 BCP + 20 CP + 15 CP + 20 CP = 179 points