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That was an awesome task! And I commend you for answering so many questions!

Nice one Lady X - You'll be missed on that day!

Thank you soo much, Lady X !!!

Although I didnt plarticipate actively I did read most of your answers, it was an suprising and enlightening experience.. (oh and sometimes it also was quite exciting and even arousing).
Thank you for sharing a little bit about yourself, not about Lady X but about the person you really are :). I like what you say. I like you, I guess :).

Anyways. good plan to get some rest !

~green~

Lady X wrote:

pete_ger wrote:<- agrees with 007

But I had a question for you after you rested.

We all have sexual fantasies, but did you ever have a sexual fantasy about an upcoming or pure fantasy online chat/session, if so care to share a few details?

Really curious, because I had some fantasies in that direction.

If I am understanding you...you are asking if I ever fantasies about something and then acted upon that fantasy online.

All the time! Yesterday is an example of that. I had been thinking about using a Violet Wand on a sub. And I did. It was freaking amazing! I can't wait to try it again, and again..and again. *wicked smile*

If I didn't understand your question, please ask Me again. *smile*

Reward =

Thank you for the answer, to the question I was asking. But I'm sorry Lady X, english is not my native language, I was trying to ask something different.

I'll try to rephrase and explain, what I actually meant :)

I was wondering if you fantasize about an online chat, for example not a fantasy about using a Violet Wand on a sub, but a fantasy about an online chat, in which you make a sub use it on himself. Difficult to explain the difference I think.

Maybe a short explanation of my own fantasies would help. I sometimes fantasize about waking up, booting up my computer and finding an Email from my online Mistress in my Inbox waiting for me, telling me about todays tasks. Or sometimes I fantasize about a chat I have with a Mistress.
So sometimes I actually fantasize about an online relationship, and not a scene where a Mistress would physically be with me. I hope that clarifies it.

I know its a very very unusual Fantasy, but when I read about how you enjoyed your online sessions/chats with your subs, I thought I give it a shot and ask :)

cya
Pete

pete_ger wrote:
Thank you for the answer, to the question I was asking. But I'm sorry Lady X, english is not my native language, I was trying to ask something different.

I'll try to rephrase and explain, what I actually meant :)

I was wondering if you fantasize about an online chat, for example not a fantasy about using a Violet Wand on a sub, but a fantasy about an online chat, in which you make a sub use it on himself. Difficult to explain the difference I think.

Maybe a short explanation of my own fantasies would help. I sometimes fantasize about waking up, booting up my computer and finding an Email from my online Mistress in my Inbox waiting for me, telling me about todays tasks. Or sometimes I fantasize about a chat I have with a Mistress.
So sometimes I actually fantasize about an online relationship, and not a scene where a Mistress would physically be with me. I hope that clarifies it.

I know its a very very unusual Fantasy, but when I read about how you enjoyed your online sessions/chats with your subs, I thought I give it a shot and ask :)

cya
Pete

Well first off, this is one question I will answer because it was asked before the time limit was done, I just didn't get the question right. *Smile*

Okay, let's try this, (and if it's not right, try again....don't give up on Me. *smile*)....Is the question do I fantasize about things I have or haven't done with a submissive, while alone..while either masturbating or while doing common things like driving to the doctor?

If that is the question, then here is the answer.

Yes. I have a very active imagination and if I am not actively thinking about the things of the outside world, and sometimes even when I should be thinking of them...*chuckles*...I am lost in thoughts or fantasies about this sub or that sub.

I have mentioned that I have a little female sub. In our minds she sleeps on a cot, in My bedroom. Many times I have awakened, thinking of her being there...and then either calling to her, waking her from a sound sleep to perform things for Me.
I remember one of those fantasies, that I had her stand on the bed, while still so sleepy, standing very close to Me and ordering her not to fall on Me or backwards. I imagined her trying so hard to stay steady, but failing. That fantasy led to her being tied to the bed, on her knees and My spanking her.....and fucking her with a strap on.
That fantasy also led to My getting out My vibe and having an orgasm too. *giggle*

Then there was a time not to long back when I was involved the 77 task. I began to think of the 2nd task while driving back from having takin My father in law to the doctor.

There was to be a forth task in that series, that I had woken in the middle of the night and had dreamed up.....thought of for over an hour. But SOMEONE had to go and reach the 77 edges before I got it posted. *laughing*

So....did I get it right this time? *soft smile*

Reward =

Levelone wrote:
Seeing as I have earned 6 of , I have one more question ...How would YOU like me to perform this orgasm that you have granted me?

*lol* Thought you would sneak that question in on Me, didn't you. *grin* NOT!

you perform the orgasm and then come write down what you did. *wicked smile*

Lady X wrote:
I really liked the question you asked and wish that one had been asked earlier. The post time on it was 3 something Saturday afternoon, so.....I'm sorry. *gentle smile*

If you feel like it, you can reply to the questions you like when you have time, even though they were posted after the cut off time

This is the only thread over three pages where I have read through every post! Very informative and fun. Thank you^^

Thank you, that answered it :)

And you have my respect for enduring the bombardment of questions from some users here, and my admiration for answering so many insightful questions about yourself. You have a beautiful mind indeed.

wanker wrote:This is the only thread over three pages where I have read through every post! Very informative and fun. Thank you^^

*smiles* that's pretty awesome!

pete_ger wrote:Thank you, that answered it :)

And you have my respect for enduring the bombardment of questions from some users here, and my admiration for answering so many insightful questions about yourself. You have a beautiful mind indeed.

*bright smile* Thank you....how very kind of you to say.

Bindo wrote:That was an awesome task! And I commend you for answering so many questions!

Nice one Lady X - You'll be missed on that day!

Thank you...or you are welcome... *giggling* Never know which to say.....

green wrote:Thank you soo much, Lady X !!!

Although I didnt plarticipate actively I did read most of your answers, it was an suprising and enlightening experience.. (oh and sometimes it also was quite exciting and even arousing).
Thank you for sharing a little bit about yourself, not about Lady X but about the person you really are :). I like what you say. I like you, I guess :).

Anyways. good plan to get some rest !

~green~

A little bit??? *laughing* 22 pages is more then a little bit. *laughing harder*

you are welcome and thank you. *smile* I like you too green.

Indigo wrote:Now that the game has wound down, and things have settled back into a dull roar, instead of the cacophany of questions, I wanted to comment on something I read.

Lady X, you mentioned that you view this as an "inner world", with real life being the "outer world". I'm sure you have different persona's for each, as we've seen a bit of, with your answers. You've also mentioned a submissive persona, that you use over on Chatropolis. My question, (should you choose to answer it) would have been, "Do your online persona's reflect the "real" you, or are they simply fictional characters, that you use to allow yourself to freely explore facets of yourself that you may not feel comfortable with in the "outer" world?"

I ask this question, because I've read a few threads, including the "Blackmail" thread recently, where members have mentioned living entirely separate lives online, in order to protect themselves, and still others who simply choose a name that suits them, but are acting as themselves. I find the phenomenon interesting, because I'm one of those people who have a mix of the two. I'm honest to a point, but only those that really get to know me, really understand *why* I hide a portion of myself from the net.

That being said, I also wanted to thank you for this thread. I found the answers both informative, and entertaining. And some of the questions you were asked, also tell a lot about the folks asking them. So ... overall, I thought this was a great addition to the forum. Thanks for allowing us the opportunity to take a peek into the life of Lady X.

Cheers,

Indy

*warmly smiles while I rest back to the comfort of My chair and reflect upon Your question and open up even more....*

First, thank You for the compliments about the thread, and I suppose You are welcome too. *smile*
I too learned about people asking questions and will use that knowledge as I proceed with the next task that has already begun to form in My wicked mind. *smiling*

Now, for Your question, "Do your online persona's reflect the "real" you, or are they simply fictional characters, that you use to allow yourself to freely explore facets of yourself that you may not feel comfortable with in the "outer" world?"

The persona's used here in this world are not fictional. B/both are reflections of parts of M/me.
In the outside world, I am a very controlling person, and this persona allows Me to be and stay in control...especially when life in the outside world is throwing things at Me that make Me feel like control is compromised.

shell allows M/me to explore a side of M/myself, more deeply, than I/i can explore in the outside world. However, that is slowly changing in the outside world.
Hubby1 has seen M/my reaction as shell moves from the computer after time with a Dom. He has been taking things deeper with M/me during our intimate time. His telling M/me what we are going to do....or bringing out the flogger.....or being slightly rougher, staying within the safe zone that I/i am comfortable with.
I/i am not sure how far it will all go, but I/i love the direction it has taken.

Unfortunately, because there are boundaries that can not be crossed because of the abuse that I suffered all those years ago, I'm not sure how much further He and I/i can take things.

Something that I did not mention, at least I don't think I did, the abuse started when I opened up to the abuser and shared that I had seen the magazines and books of My dads. I expressed the desire in that area.
He thought I was perverted and he said it was no more than rape. He said, "I will rape you, so that you know you never want to be raped". And he did.

That part of Me became quiet.......until all those years later when Hubby2 began to draw the deep dark secrets out. That is why when the submissive in Me surfaced with Him, it was "quiet one" that came out.

There were terrible things.....that would turn your stomach and others that were done to Me. So I will not give details, publicly. However, because of what he did, I/i can not be confined, or restrained without a "way out".

To date, no Dom has done these things to shell and when One expresses interest in that...she flea's.

So, unless a miracle were to happen, restraints will not take place in the outside world. But *smiles* I suppose there are levels of the lifestyle and as long as He and I/i are content.....then all is well.

Now, another thing that I have noticed. I find that the persona of Me, of Lady X, comes to My aid in situations in the outside world. I am a shy person in the outside world. But when I feel the shyness over take Me, the next thing I know, I am confident and realize that X has taken over. Not like a split personality or nothing like that...but I simply do in the outside world, what I do here. And yes....*laughing*....sometimes I lead things in a sexual way, in conversations. One never knows what will come out of My mouth around here. *laughing*

Speaking of coming out of My mouth...there is one difference between Me and the Me in the outside world. I use curse words in the outside world, like crazy....(although I am trying to change it)...but in this world.....for the most part, the only time the F word comes out is in orgasm. *giggles*

*I sit back, realizing I have written a book......and contemplate.......I wonder if I answered His question............knowing if I didn't.............and He will follow up.....I slip away from this question....and smile*

I have decided to answer these four questions. No reward shall be awarded, but I desired to answer them, so I am. *warm smile*

Human wrote:Question: Was there ever a time hubby#2 was not OK with hubby #1 ?

Yes. Hubby2 was not okay with Hubby1 when we first hooked up.
Hubby1 and I were not doing well with our relationship, when I met Hubby2. We fought all the time and My son was always first to him.
After Hubby2 moved down here and saw Hubby1 speak to Me the way he did....it made Him mad.

After time though, things changed. Hubby1 is a different person now. He is happier and our relationship is better than it ever was. I believe he learned how to treat a woman, from watching Hubby2 with Me.
Hubby1 came from a terrible home and never saw how to treat a woman, except watching My daddy with mom.

Human wrote:Question: Was there ever a time hubby#1 was not OK with hubby #2 ?

The only time Hubby1 ever has a problem with Hubby2 is when it involves our son. If Hubby2 says something that might be a bit off, Hubby1 isn't to thrilled about it. But those situations hardly ever happen any more.
And FYI...Hubby2 is in our legal documents as guardian of our son, should something happen to Hubby1 and Myself. *Smile*

Anyway, you see, Hubby1 doesn't feel emotion like others do. He hated it when I spoke the words, "Babe, we need to talk". He would rather have a root canal done then sit down and hear about My emotions or the way I felt about something.

With Hubby2, it's the complete opposite. So now, Hubby1 does not have to deal with My emotions even half as much as he used to, because Hubby2 deals with that part. That is probably why this works so well. *Smile*

Human wrote:Question: Do the hubbies sometimes get jealous of each other ?

No. There is NEVER any jealousy. I don't understand how or why...but there simply isn't any.

Human wrote:Question: Do you share the hubbies with other women ?

No, I don't share them. Like I said, I don't know how they share, but I couldn't. I can share online, but not in the outside world.

Thanks for the replie. You have an interesing arrangement