Miss Linda,
Inspired by pleasing you i continue to do more than i imagine...
The last 5 days have been excruciating, exhilarating, sensual, and oh so very full of, ahem, personal growth. Challenging to be sure, though it is only through pushing ourselves that we become more fully our dear selves n'est pas?
At times in the past i have attempted to control my own overly self indulgent tugging, all those lovely fantasies and intention and arousal dissipated oh so quickly whenever they *arise. Up and down, never quite basking in the glow of feeling alive and present and full of intention for self and lovers.
Some of that i had curbed, denying myself more and more during the days, though i have always been a girl to enjoy her own nightly "self-appreciations," stroking and caressing, fantasizing about being denied... owned, held, obedient yet eager to find new ways to please, feeling myself glow throughout... and then tug tug tugging until my dear self came.
Through your posts and challenges, wit and humor, and love for us all i have found a new level of self appreciation even as i attempt to throw off the addictions that impede the path.
Walks have helped during the day though they tend to increase my arousal as my mind wanders, nightly exercises are mandatory for many reasons-- they are always done fully aroused, end with one or two edges, and oh so rarely a chance to whisper my intentions to your name and cum on 3 occasions (i now have 98 points, working hard with lines and the now almost constant-- even if unintended-- edges). In celebration of this greater commitment, your lovely Rose took good care of herself last night, had a bath and painted her toenails silver. I used to do this every spring when i was in college and could more readily get away with it. Now i have re-embraced, this act both constant reminder of my commitment and somehow an even deeper surrender into enjoying the glow i have been feeling throughout my body (from head to feet-- though I have no idea how I would adorn my head in public...) during this time. I have no idea where this is going or if i can maintain. The leaner months to come seem almost unbearable to consider. When not a time that i can come i have taken to masturbating by just rubbing the soft head in circles rather than stroking which i am not always certain i could resist finishing. The few orgasms have been intense and beautiful and flowing and have left me feeling cherished in my whole body and self, perhaps beginning to learn to cum like a Rose. After these times, the arousal has not ebbed and continue to build... yum, and oh god, how much can i bear? In the past, the times i have denied myself have been followed by many many releases all in one evening-- breaking me out of the consuming need... and also the glow that i continue to feel as i continue to find my inner Rose and, most importantly, do whatever Miss Linda wants...
with love and gratefulness for your seductive spell and mysterious intentions,
Rose
p.s. please forgive the gap in my progress reports. a new sure to be full of meaning for me job begins Wednesday with needed time to prepare.
?
