Re: AdoreKristina --- a transdom
Posted: Mon Mar 04, 2013 11:44 am
How very interesting! I honestly had no idea, and never considered the possibility.
Last year Kristina made me a series of custom videos, perhaps 4 hours in total. I was hung up on a particular glamour model/pornstar whose work I'd been addictively collecting since the early 2000s and who I'd then got to become friends with in real life, which years later at my insistence morphed into humiliation sessions, which lead to emotional pain, and then a messy falling-out.
I told Kristina the story, and supplied picture sets and videos. She made a series of eight 15-20 minute recordings of devastatingly exciting brilliance, in which she took me deep into the shame and hurt and arousal I continued to feel about this girl. They were scripted entirely by her, of her invention, after we'd discussed possible themes. I listened to them while sniffing the very good poppers I was then able to get my hands on, and using a vibrating inflatable buttplug. The toy, the drugs, the recordings took me to new worlds of humiliation, heightening my porn-induced erectile dysfunction, and taking me further and further away from reality.
These recordings were A LOT of work by Kristina. They were so brilliant I couldn't really believe they existed. I can't imagine any other domme who would put in this amount of work, and show such lack of ego in helping a sub explore a fantasy.
After this, Kristina made recordings to accompany other porn scenes that I had been obsessively watching, trapped in, replaying endlessly. We are talking 30, 40 minute scenes, with Kristina's audio on top so that in my drugged state I imagined I was there in the scene, being cuckolded and humiliated as I watched the hot sex.
Obviously in the scheme of things I might have been better taking a walk in the park, visiting a petting farm, or joining a church. But I felt the dark drive inside me to explore my urge for humiliation to the utmost extent, and to explore past pains. And Kristina took me there more than anyone else ever could.
I had no idea Kristina was a T-Girl but I don't feel deceived, it has no bearing on incredible quality of the customs she made for me. There were many things that were remarkable. Although I paid well for the recordings, she was never pressurizing for tributes or gifts. She was never trying to push me towards anything I wasn't into. I said I wasn't into cum, I wasn't into forced bi, and it wasn't a problem, she didn't touch those areas.
Also although Kristina took me deep into emasculation and hurt, I felt her recordings were 'safer' than the popular Clips4Sale dommes. Recognizing that she had me in a vulnerable spot and had power over me, she used it responsibly. She was never going to tell me to kill myself, physically hurt myself, etcetera.
One thing that with hindsight does make sense, I see on TVKristina that she describes herself as a sex addict. I think that is what makes her recordings so good, she understands this from the male as well as the female angle, she knows about overpowering lust and the insanity of addiction. She knows about toxic shame, where it comes from, how to draw it out.
In my mind Kristina is a better humiliatrix than nearly all biologically female dommes. The only possible rival I can think of is Tessa Fields, who is no longer active. I can't listen to the dead-eyed dommes of C4S because they are usually shouty and abusive, which doesn't interest me, and quite clearly just in it for the money.
Kristina's audios are actually more feminine than those of any woman I can think of. With the skills of an actress she is able to move through many different tones in a short recording, from disappointed, lustful, conspirational, giggly, patronising, supportive, and more. Her recordings are dripping with sex, not just with abuse, and that makes them so much more powerful.
So, thanks, Kristina, and long may you prosper!
Last year Kristina made me a series of custom videos, perhaps 4 hours in total. I was hung up on a particular glamour model/pornstar whose work I'd been addictively collecting since the early 2000s and who I'd then got to become friends with in real life, which years later at my insistence morphed into humiliation sessions, which lead to emotional pain, and then a messy falling-out.
I told Kristina the story, and supplied picture sets and videos. She made a series of eight 15-20 minute recordings of devastatingly exciting brilliance, in which she took me deep into the shame and hurt and arousal I continued to feel about this girl. They were scripted entirely by her, of her invention, after we'd discussed possible themes. I listened to them while sniffing the very good poppers I was then able to get my hands on, and using a vibrating inflatable buttplug. The toy, the drugs, the recordings took me to new worlds of humiliation, heightening my porn-induced erectile dysfunction, and taking me further and further away from reality.
These recordings were A LOT of work by Kristina. They were so brilliant I couldn't really believe they existed. I can't imagine any other domme who would put in this amount of work, and show such lack of ego in helping a sub explore a fantasy.
After this, Kristina made recordings to accompany other porn scenes that I had been obsessively watching, trapped in, replaying endlessly. We are talking 30, 40 minute scenes, with Kristina's audio on top so that in my drugged state I imagined I was there in the scene, being cuckolded and humiliated as I watched the hot sex.
Obviously in the scheme of things I might have been better taking a walk in the park, visiting a petting farm, or joining a church. But I felt the dark drive inside me to explore my urge for humiliation to the utmost extent, and to explore past pains. And Kristina took me there more than anyone else ever could.
I had no idea Kristina was a T-Girl but I don't feel deceived, it has no bearing on incredible quality of the customs she made for me. There were many things that were remarkable. Although I paid well for the recordings, she was never pressurizing for tributes or gifts. She was never trying to push me towards anything I wasn't into. I said I wasn't into cum, I wasn't into forced bi, and it wasn't a problem, she didn't touch those areas.
Also although Kristina took me deep into emasculation and hurt, I felt her recordings were 'safer' than the popular Clips4Sale dommes. Recognizing that she had me in a vulnerable spot and had power over me, she used it responsibly. She was never going to tell me to kill myself, physically hurt myself, etcetera.
One thing that with hindsight does make sense, I see on TVKristina that she describes herself as a sex addict. I think that is what makes her recordings so good, she understands this from the male as well as the female angle, she knows about overpowering lust and the insanity of addiction. She knows about toxic shame, where it comes from, how to draw it out.
In my mind Kristina is a better humiliatrix than nearly all biologically female dommes. The only possible rival I can think of is Tessa Fields, who is no longer active. I can't listen to the dead-eyed dommes of C4S because they are usually shouty and abusive, which doesn't interest me, and quite clearly just in it for the money.
Kristina's audios are actually more feminine than those of any woman I can think of. With the skills of an actress she is able to move through many different tones in a short recording, from disappointed, lustful, conspirational, giggly, patronising, supportive, and more. Her recordings are dripping with sex, not just with abuse, and that makes them so much more powerful.
So, thanks, Kristina, and long may you prosper!
